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Uersti - A history of Spiritual Deception from After Life.
Uersti - A history of Spiritual Deception from After Life.
Original Article: http://desteni.co.za/a/uersti-a-history-of-spiritual-deception-from-after-life
Transcribed and typed by Uersti through the interdimensional protal
Date : 02/01/2008
My name is Uersti and I would like to share my experience of me while I was here on earth, which you may find quite similarly relate to your experience you’re currently having of you in this world.
Where do I start…
We were five children: Four boys and One girl – I myself was that one girl and I was the youngest in the family. My mother had raised us all by herself, as I never knew my father – he had died during war. We lived just outside of town – we provided our own food for ourselves, only other necessities we would purchase from town.
My mother had died when I was 9 – she just one day suddenly collapsed while out hanging the washing and she didn’t wake up. So I was left to be raised by my brothers…
When I was 9, the eldest brother was 21, the one after that was 19, the one after that was 15, the one after that was 12. We went to the local school, but where we lived was a very poor area, very much so. We then worked wherever we could find something to do and attended to our own food garden and made our own bread and everything so we looked after ourselves.
My eldest brother was in this ‘group’, a clan, who worshipped and prayed spirits – they used to wear garments made from the earth such as plants, made a fire and would dance around the fire and offer ‘already dead animals’, which they found in the area within which we stayed, to the spirits so that the spirits may rest their souls – because they believed that if they were to do this, the spirits would save/spare their soul when they were to die one day and go to the kingdom of the high. I remember my oldest brother telling me stories of all this and how he can feel the spirits come into him and the others as they present the dead animals to the spirits to save the dead animals’ souls wherever they may be – and how the spirits come through them and speak and act strangely while dancing around the fire. Not all my brothers were involved in this – only the fifth and the fourth and the third. My brother who was 12 was very quiet – me and him were the closest, he was too afraid of the spirits to join the group/clan which was called: The Kingdom of the High, but I was curious – I was not afraid.
So, when I was 10, almost 11 – my eldest brother returned from one of their worship evenings and he said to me that the spirits told everyone in the clan/group through him that they must bring me, because I am very important, I must be the princess of the clan/group and that I am here on earth for the spirits. That the spirits sent me here to earth for them, so that they may come to earth and save all the souls of the dead that already has died, especially the animals – because the animals were seen as the most holy of species on the earth – and when they for instance would find a dead dog in the streets which was thrown out and left for dead = such animals they would take and offer to the spirits.
I was very much excited, but my brother that came just before I did warned me, he did not want me to go – but I didn’t listen. I really adored my brothers as I always felt that they took care of me, they were always perfect around me and I felt as though they understood what I was feeling inside, especially when my mother died – because I felt alone, they took the feeling alone away because they spent so much time with me. I felt very sad and I missed her a lot, they took the feeling away when they made me laugh or played with me with my dolls or outside they’d have me play with them with the ball. They all became my mother and my father which I did not have anymore and which I did not know. I always felt safe and protected and I loved them with all my heart – during that time, I was an innocent girl, experiencing herself being enveloped with love and care after all that I had gone through with my mother dying – it was difficult to in some way comfort myself when she died, because I was initially scared to be left alone with my brothers only because they were always mean, angry, irritable and short-tempered, but they changed with me when my mother died – and everything was alright for about one year or two – until I joined their group / clan along with many others. Altogether there were nine in the group / clan – I was the youngest, the rest were all males.
So, the evening came when my brothers and I, the on that warned me was selected to the responsibility of watching over the house/home while we were away. The place of worship was behind an old building, about 45 minutes walk away from where we stayed, far away from civilization, behind a hill. When we arrived, the fire was already burning and the other people were already there – there was a stack of dead animals by the fire. I remember seeing two dead dogs, a rat, three dead cats, part of a cow it seemed, even little creatures such as beetles and lizards – the smell was awful. There was a wide circle made around the fire, in the lining of the circle they placed white flowers. My eldest brother made me a dress from a white sheet and I had to walk barefoot to this particular place – my feet were hurting and bleeding because I walked into thorns and bumped my toes on rocks because it was dark – but my brothers told me that it’s part of initiating me into the circle of The Kingdom of the High and that they also had to walk their first walk barefoot.
Then there were smaller circles around the bigger circle around the fire, those circles were also aligned with white flowers – these were the circles within which we were going to stand.
There was an old man there – he was sitting alone infront of a pot, brewing something which smelt almost as awful as the all the dead animals together – he had long grey hair, his face was wrinkly, his eyes seemed to be empty as though there was nothing behind his eyes looking through them: I remember thinking: He is a living ghost and I thought he was maybe one of the spirits here on earth.
I remember being honoured by being part of all this, and I vowed within me to not disappoint my brothers and neither the spirits. I felt very important. I felt special. I felt wanted. I felt a sense of belonging. I felt as though I have a purpose, a task in this world which is very important: And because of this – I was not afraid. I loved animals and it was very sad and heartbreaking for me about the way they died and I was very honoured to be able to send their souls to the spirits to take care of them and I knew I would feel special in doing so, because I would have wanted someone to do it for me – so I would give myself, my life to the animals and would do whatever necessary, for as long as I can – to take as many souls of the animals to the spirits. I loved animals and I knew they were being treated in this world as they shouldn’t be treated – I even felt this in my own life, that I nor anyone in this world should experience any pain, or sadness – so I hoped that if I worship the Spirits and please them – they would make my life better, maybe I could even take the pain and sadness from everyone in this world if the Spirits approve of me – because I am a princess of the Spirits and I will use what has been given to me to help as many people and animals from their suffering in this world. I was proud of my brothers, I was proud of them that they cared about the animals and I knew within me that because of this the Spirits was good also and that’s also why I did not have any fear inside me.
My eldest brother said to me that I must walk up to the old man and kneel before him. So I did – I was extremely nervous because I wanted to do everything perfect. As I approached the old mad, he took a knife – I remember his breathing being loud and heavy and his hands were shaking a bit. He took the knife, lifted his pants up from his left leg which exposed his left thigh and there were many cut marks on his leg – almost so much that there were only contours of cuts seen on his leg – I was from nervous to frightened. He took the knife and he cut his leg – I wanted to tear my eyes away, but my eyes were fixed on the entire procedure of him cutting his leg and see the blood dripping from it – it was one deep cut. He sucked the blood from his leg and waved at me to come forward, so I stood up from my kneeling position and went to him – he kissed me with his blood soaked lips on the forehead, cheeks, neck and the centre of my chest area. He said to me that he carries the blood of the Spirits and he has blessed me with the blood of the spirits. It made sense to me – so I was alright with it. He then gave me a wooden cup of the brew he was making in the pot and he said to me to drink it – it was the drink of the earth, from the earth – so when I drink from the earth, of the earth – I am belonging to the earth, blessed by the blood of the spirits and so I would be the servant of the spirits of the earth and travel amongst and be protected within the Circle of the Kingdom of the High. And so I drank the brew – after I drank the whole cup – everyone else around us started celebrating and I felt very weary, because everything I was seeing around me started meshing together into one – I did not see the individual shapes around me like you normally do – It was like seeing a painting of a house and trees around it clearly with a fire burning and lots of people around it, but then all the colors and shapes of the painting started meshing into one another. I just saw colours all around me and people around me vaguely, very vaguely – but I felt wonderful and I could just feel myself smiling all the time: Free is the word. I felt someone take my hand, it felt like my brothers’ and he said: You’re one of us now, you belong to the spirits – and so we danced around the fire, we threw the dead animals into the fire and I could actually see their trapped souls moving from within the carcasses going up, up, up – into the stars – they were in the stars! And I saw all sorts of white people behind all the other people as we were dancing, but they weren’t dancing with us – they were watching, and they had black eyes, but everything else was white. I wasn’t afraid.
When all the dead animals were thrown into the fire and we finished dancing – we all lay in a circle with our feet connected, watching the stars – the Kingdom of the High were in the stars where the spirits live – and that’s where we sent them I believed. I have never felt so happy.
My brother who stayed at home was very concerned when I shared with him what we were doing – he thought it was of evil. I was determined to have him know that it was good. We only did this once a week – the gathering took place once a week only.
So the following week we went again, I was only 11 years old at the time. Though this time I would find out from the Spirits what my task would be as the Princess of the spirits. When we gathered together, we all drank once more from the brew the old man prepared and I again had the experience of everything going hazy, yet experiencing myself quite wonderful. I did not then think it was the brew I was drinking – I believed that it was the Spirits that came into me and I was seeing through their eyes the world. My older brother walked up to me after he had gone to the hill to speak alone with the Spirits – he said to me that the Spirits told him that my first task was to take care of the old man for them – as he was very old and frail and he is one of their most cherished humans on earth – because he was the one who they appointed to start the Circle of the Kingdom of the High and it is a very special task to be done and the Spirits will be much pleased. I was afraid – to be alone with this old man, but I believed that the Spirits would take care of me and my brothers would protect me. So I agreed.
I continued to go to school still, always – never told anybody with what I was involved in. I took care of the old man for two years until I was thirteen – I read for him, I cooked for him, my brothers brought us food for a week and I took care of us. He told me many stories and I enjoyed him – he was like a grandfather to me. Until he one evening died – I only found out the next morning. So, my older brother was then selected to the leader for the Circle of the Kingdom of the High. Everything went fine for those years from about eleven to thirteen – but when I turned fourteen… everything started going very badly. Because in the gathering when my brother was to be the leader – I had to then take care of him alone and the two of us were to stay in the home where the old man lived. I was a servant of the Spirits and I was proud to be.
Though – when alone with my oldest brother – he said to me I must bare a child of the Spirits through him – that the child I will have will be of the Spirits and will be the first child into this world of the Spirits and so we will be the first to bring the Spirits into earth to help the animals and other human beings to show them how we must live – to stop the pain and suffering in this world.
I did not want to do it. I was very, very, very scared – but my brother was always so nice towards me and I vowed to do anything / everything possible to please the Spirits. So I did – but I told him only once. It was a very painful experience – he was very rough with me. Not gentle as I experienced him to be when he speaks to me or plays with me or help me with my school work. All in the family had a place to work so we did earn just enough money to take care of ourselves.
I just said to myself that it’s okay – I’m doing this for the animals, for the people suffering and in pain. But then, after that, my brother continued to come into my room some evenings and I could smell that he was drunk – I tried to kick him out of my bed and say to him: No! But he was much stronger than me and he forced me down, sometimes hit me, he even hit me so hard that I’d be unconscious and when I wake up, find blood on the sheets because he had sex with me so hard that I started to bleed. This continued for about three weeks – and we still went to gatherings every week and I remained with my brother. I prayed to the Spirits to protect me and wondered why they’re not protecting me and why they’re having my brother do this to me, I am in pain and I am suffering. How can I help the other people and the animals if I am in pain and suffering? So I went to speak to my older brother and he said to me that the Spirits made him this way so I can understand what pain and suffering the world feel to understand it, to understand them and only when they are satisfied that I understand pain and suffering will they have my brother stop being who they made him to be to prepare me to also become the leader of the Circle of the Kingdom of the High.
I did not expect this. I thought I was here to help the Spirits stop the pain and suffering – not have me also go through this. I felt sorry for my brother; because I thought it must be difficult for him also – because the Spirits was asking much of us. But I did it. He hit me, threw me around the house, hurt me by having sex with me – I at a stage felt like I was breaking inside me. I hid all the bruises when going to school. When I was 17 – all these years I continued to experience as much pain and suffering unto myself as possible so that the Spirits can say that I have had enough – but it never happened. I, when I was 17 – had difficulty walking – my muscles were painful and I had sores on my body. I finished school and everything. I continued the gatherings – but even then I stopped seeing the animal’s souls’ going into the stars – I just saw the animals burning, drinking the brew – dancing. But all that I held onto is that when this is done, I will finally be able to help the way I wanted to the animals and the humans on earth to stop the suffering. I could not speak to anyone about my experiences – because I swore an oath unto the Spirits that I will not speak a word of the most important task appointed to me. Of having a child of the Spirits and the Spirits having to turn my brother into what he had become to prepare me for my task in this world for the Spirits. And the oath was that I would be burned alive as with the animals and cast my soul unto them in the Stars so as to receive my due punishment if I were to utter one word to anyone. So I stayed away from as many people as possible – even also all my brothers. The one brother who was concerned for me always left – the one I also held most dearly.
I didn’t experience me as having a family any longer: All my other brothers were on their own way concerned with only themselves, all I knew what existed is me being prepared by the Spirits, by continuously experiencing suffering and pain through my brother – for three to four years I was inflicted with pain, shouting, cursing, hitting – treated as though I was nothing, dirt, filth, worthless – I even looked it. I was in a horrible condition. But I swallowed everything in, I embraced the pain and suffering inflicted on me by my brother – as much as I could absorb I did, to the point as I say where I could barely walk properly, I was thin and underfed. I within me wondered how on earth I could still be alive because there was nothing more left within me, but this tight experience of anger, sadness, resentment by doing nothing to protect myself against my brother, but lying there open arms always inviting in as much infliction of pain and suffering I am able to handle. I believed that it was the strength of the Spirits within me keeping me alive because I could not see any other way for me being alive.
I often went alone unto the hills and prayed for the Spirits – I exposed my bruises unto the heavens, the stars, cried out my tears of pain, of sadness – I did not dare express anger towards them, only unto myself – I did it all to myself – hoping the Spirits would stop what I’m experiencing. I could not imagine that human beings and animals were enduring so much suffering and pain as I have. But I did not know and I believed the Spirits knew best. I grew up with the Spirits, the Circle of the Kingdom of the High – it was my life – therefore I did what I had done.
I only became pregnant with a child of the Spirits when I was eighteen. I informed my brother and I remember how happy he was. He said finally – now the Spirits will lay us to rest and we may continue with our task. I was relieved and grateful for the both of us when I experienced me being pregnant – because I knew it was a sign of the Spirits saying to me that I had had enough pain and suffering and that I now understand the pain and suffering of human beings and the animals and I am prepared and ready to finally fulfill my task of freeing human beings, the world and the animals from the suffering.
But I strongly doubted if I would be able to carry a child in my condition and I informed my brother of my concern – I was abused extensively for three to four years, even breathing had become painful. So he then took care of me properly – my brother I knew had returned, transformed – and only on that, I knew everything was worth it. I never again walked properly, nor walked without pain – I had to use a stick of sorts to help me walk. During the time I was pregnant with the child my brother took care of me wonderfully – I hadn’t felt so healthy and whole within me for a long time. I did not attend any of the gatherings while I was pregnant – I remember crying a lot, but from gratefulness and thanks to the Spirits and that I did not doubt them.
Then a tremendous shock: I started experiencing much pain when I was four months about into the pregnancy. I started becoming ill. My brother brought one of the other member’s mother’s to come and have a look as she was known to be a healer of special medicines of the earth. She said she could feel the baby is in much pain and agony which is why I was in much pain and agony. She used all sorts of healing methods on me for four to five days – I was alone with her in the room, very, very, very ill, much fever – I remember always feeling wet, cold, shivering – it felt like eternity. I even believed I spoke to my mother while in the state, she was there with me, holding my hand – I believed this also to be the Spirits helping me to get through this. But then, on the sixth day – there was blood coming out of me, much blood – and the woman screamed. Then, the baby came out – but dead, I pushed it out, as though I was pushing out something that wasn’t supposed to be in my body.
My brother came in along with other members of the Circle of the Kingdom of the High – he looked at me, he had tears in his eyes and he said to me: You had failed us, you had failed the spirits. I could see the disappointment in his eyes – all the other members walked out, the woman attended to me, cleared the blood, washed me as though I was her own daughter and stayed with me throughout the night. The following day I was left alone in the house within tremendous pain and I still very much experienced myself being very ill. I crept in and out of consciousness – the woman still only came in the evenings to attend to me and I only could get up on my feet two weeks later. I had not seen my brother since the moment he had said to me that I had failed him and the Spirits – the woman did not want to let me know of anything with regards to how my brother was doing.
When I finally could get up on my feet I one evening set out to join the gathering. I did not know whether I should go or not, I was experiencing immense fear and uncertainty. All members were there – but there was a new girl, she was the same age as me when I started joining the gathering and she was also in a white dress, but a beautiful white dress, not as the white sheet I was wearing. My brother saw me – he yelled for me stop and not come any closer. I stopped – I had such a fright because I could just hear his anger and disgust within his voice when he yelled for me to stop and not come any closer. So I stopped, immediately – I had to talk to him, I had to understand what is going on – because it’s been only through him that I hear the Spirits speak to me, I have tried to speak to them, but I only got answers through events / signs not actual speaking. He looked me in the eyes and he said: I have said to you, you have failed us and you have failed the spirits. You can be grateful the Spirits still spared your life – you did not die. Be grateful that you’re still living – your life has only been spared because you remained loyal to the Spirits – but because the child died, you are no longer the Princess of the Spirits, you cannot be, the child couldn’t make it inside you. They have appointed another – there she is. Anger, no, rage, consumed me – I yelled to the skies: I gave up my life for this task which you appointed to me – you know what I have been through for you. This is my task to set the people and the animals free from their pain and suffering – I know what pain and suffering is! My brother took me by the shoulders and said: You have failed – you are not strong enough. You cannot be here anymore – we are done with you, the spirits are done with you – the new Princess to fulfill your task is already here, her preparation has already begun – it is done. Go now and do with yourself what you will – be grateful to the spirits that they have spared your life! My brother said to me that the Spirits told him to search for the new Princess as I have failed and that I must go in gratefulness – for the gift I have received from them for being loyal to them for so long is sparing my life, to live my life here as I please – as well as that I understand now what suffering and pain the world endures.
I was angry, no words could lay my experience within me to rest. I ran – I ran towards all the other members of the gathering, aiming for the girl – IT WAS MY TASK, I do not accept that it is over – I did not go through all that pain and suffering for nothing – I have a purpose to fulfill. Though, before I could get to her – all the other members caught me and carried me far away from the gathering and threw me down onto the ground, into the dirt – exactly as I experienced myself within me: Dirty, filthy, worthless – exactly as I experienced myself through all those years of what the Spirits did to me through him. All my brothers said to me that they cannot anymore associate themselves with me anymore because the spirits had left me – they said to me that’s why my other brother left, because the spirits didn’t recognize him to be one of the Circle of the Kingdom of the High. My brothers said to me that if they were to see me ever again – they will burn me alive.
Something was wrong…
They cannot be good if they would send me through all that pain and suffering and then just leave me alone. The Spirits are evil – this is what I now experienced of them. They are evil because they transform people into monsters and then they abuse innocent beings as I once was. I believed that they possessed people and made them monsters and then play with us because they have fun of doing it – they had fun watching me suffer and be in pain – this cannot be good! I was so stupid, so naïve to believe it – pain and suffering is not good – I would never have or want anyone to experience what I have – so how can the Spirits be good if they did this unto me and now leave me alone – with nothing and no-one, only the clothes I wear is what I have with nowhere to go. I lay there as I got spat on and kicked – my brother said to me as they were doing this that they must to prove to the spirits their loyalty to the spirits that they will not ever see me again or help me again – but ban me – I am no longer worthy of being in the presence of those of the Spirits. I did not cry – I could not cry, I was quiet within me all the way through as I lay there – everything of me was gone within me, there was nothing left of me within me – it was taken and ripped out from within me – the Spirits have taken me – I am empty and I am nothing: This was my experience. I just felt like a body being kicked and spat on – nothing more, nothing less. There was just nothing – the depth of despair was so great that the feeling thereof was as though there was nothing: I lost everything – I lost me – I was gone…
I was left there – again bleeding and bruised, by dress torn, barefoot I was laying there in the fetal position, the cold breeze of the night blowing on my open soars, my breath. That’s all I felt, my breath, my body on the soft ground of the earth, my body bruises hurting, the wind blowing on my open sores, blood trickling down my body. My hair blowing over my face – sand on my lips, in my throat – I was cold. I did not care – I just lay there. Not even the desire of wanting to die was within me – there was just NOTHING. I decided to stay there and sleep, and if I wake up the following morning I will stand up…
I woke up the following morning, cold – my body was badly bruised, my muscles tense. I first got up with my arms – I really had to force myself up – it was very difficult, as though I was standing up for the first time in my life. I got up to my knees, and I looked around – deserted – I was alone. This I experienced when I was nineteen. I had difficulty getting up, but I got up – my entire body in immense pain – I got quite a beating. I had no reason for getting up, for standing up – I just said to myself the previous evening that if I were awake the following morning I would stand up – and so I did – I just stood up. I did not have a reason, nor a purpose to stand up, to force myself to stand up – I just did. I then decided to look for my brother, to search for him, the one I had not seen in years – maybe he could help me.
I did not know anyone at the time except for those who were in the Circle of the Kingdom of the High – I had to look for help, for someone to help me. I yelled into the skies that morning and said: I am here day and night –you are not here day and night – you are here only in the night. I curse you, I condemn you, I hate you – I vow to me myself that I will expose you, your evil, your deception which you flounder to others in this world – you are the one’s responsible for the pain and suffering in this world – you are doing this to the animals and human beings and you are doing nothing to help them. You are causing the suffering and pain – you the one’s that hide in the night. You cannot even kill me without doing it through someone, you are weak – I am not afraid of you! I live!
And this gave me courage – immense courage within me when I stood up to the Spirits – when I realised that I am not afraid of them anymore because I know that they cannot touch me, but through others.
So I went into town. It took me two hours to walk instead of 45 minutes. No-one wanted to help me, I knocked on doors for someone to help me, but the doors were shut in my face because they said to me they will not have evil in their homes and they were scared of me because of what I looked like, they thought I had a disease because of all the burn marks I had on me also which looked like sores of an disease, they thought I was a beggar on the streets, no-one recognized me because I hadn’t been in town in years. I went to the healer that was there – no-one was home. There was a city nearby, but it was more than half a days’ travel to there – and I thought that maybe my brother went there. All I could do was walk as is – maybe, maybe someone will take a moment and help me…
I walked out of town, slowly but surely, one step at a time, barefoot with a torn dress – I was hungry, I was tired, I was sore, I was in pain – every step was painful, but the pain started going away as I continued to walk – walking towards the city in hope of finding my brother. I stopped occasionally along the road for a moment to rest, it was a dirt road to town – we lived in the outstretches of the city. There was no-one and nothing on the road – I was alone. But I knew I could do it – because I have gone through years of pain and suffering – if I could get through that, I can most certainly do this.
So I continued walking, as I’ve said, one step at a time, one foot infront of the other until I collapsed. I do not know how long I lay there, but when I woke up it had started to become evening. I lay there for a while when I was awake and then I stood up again and continued to walk with great difficulty – I did sometimes wonder whether I would make it…
From behind me I heard horses coming – finally someone on the way to the city, I stood there and waited for them to pass me by. It was a woman with her husband and child on their way into the city – I looked very young then, they stopped for me and one couldn’t see so clearly in the evening as to what I looked like. The husband asked me what I am doing in the middle of nowhere and I told them that I was attacked by men and I desperately require getting to a healer or doctor. The woman had taken a blanket and she seemed very concerned for me – she placed the blanket over me and I lay down at the back of the cart. We reached the city much later in the evening. I refer to it as a city because it was much larger, civilized and bigger than the town from which we came.
We stopped at a home, the woman walked out into the house and informed another man of my situation. They took me into the home from the back – the two men had to carry me in, my legs just couldn’t move, they wouldn’t move. When I was in the light of the house – the woman and husband saw what condition I was actually in and had quite a fright to say the least. They left in a hurry and I was placed within a bathtub without water – just put in there. Two other woman came with white clothes and they bathed me with gloves, standing quite a foot away. They took care of my sores, I had food to eat and I remember falling asleep in the most comfortable bed and I drifted away.
I woke up two days later I found out. The man who was the caretaker of the home – he works with emergency cases he informed me, so he works in the evenings only. He asked me what had happened to me and I had told him what I have shared with you in this document so far and that I am here to find my brother. And he said the daftest thing: ‘Quite a story for a girl coming from the streets, you’ve got quite an imagination young lady.’ He reported me to an ‘official officer’, because he did not know what else to do with me, who came to get me and I was place into a cell within which I stayed for three days. I’d say he was more afraid of me because he knew nothing about me and was scared that I’d steal something from his home.
I pleaded for them to find my brother and I informed them where they’re able to catch those that gather in the meetings in the evenings once a week: But they did not want to believe me, they thought ‘the streets got to me’. They did not even believe where I told them I came from – based on the ridiculousness of my experience I shared. They searched for my brother as I had asked and they actually found him. He came to get me. He had done quite well for himself, he had a fine suit, with a fine hat, fine shoes – and he walked me to his home. It was a little apartment. He did not speak to me – I wanted to hug him the first moment I saw him, I for a first time, in a long time experienced warmth within me, but he just turned around. I didn’t blame him, I was not angry – I understood. When we came into his apartment – I fell down on my knees and I cried, and I cried and I cried and he came to me and placed his arms around me and held me until I stopped. He made me tea and he sat me down and that’s when I told him everything of what happened over the years since I last saw him.
At first he shouted at me, he was angry with me, disappointed – I recognized all that he expressed in that moment as what I experienced towards me when I realised what I had done with the Spirits and how I could’ve been so stupid to believe it. But then, then he came to me and he said: It’s all right, you’re okay now. I once again felt safe, protected and that evening I again slept well and comfortably.
When I woke up the following morning – my brother introduced me to a preacher. I had no idea of what ‘God’ was or ‘Jesus’ was or what a ‘Preacher’ was. Before the preacher talked to me, my brother sat me down and he said to me that he had found his saviour: Jesus Christ of God and it saved his life. There was a book on the table – called: Bible. He briefly explained to me what he believed in and he said he wouldn’t be where he is now, who he is now without Jesus in his heart and he believes that there exists a God who watches over us all and holds all in ‘His’ heart. Within me I had one thought: More Spirit lies. I did not want to have anything to do with Spirits and this ‘God’ he spoke of sounded very much like a Spirit. I listened to what the preacher had to say – that I am able to save myself from burning in hell with the Devil and go to heaven if I but allow Jesus into my heart, read the Bible, pray to God and go to church always and ask Jesus / God to forgive me for my sins. I was speechless.
After the preacher left – my brother said: Let God, let Jesus into your heart, pray for forgiveness for all your sins – cast out the evil inside you and have Jesus save you, then you, when you die, and I when I die will go to heaven and be within God.
Within the anger I said to him: How can you believe this God is good, how can you believe that He watches over us – after all that I had told you of what had happened to me? His answer was simply: Because you had not yet let God/Jesus into your heart. I stood there in absolute disbelief – because this belief which he explained sounded no more different than what I believed with the Spirits. There is the same: Worship and prayer towards a Spirits of sorts – though the Spirits I believed in did not have a ‘Holy Book’ – so in some way this particular Spirit ‘God’ seemed to be making quite a popular name for itself – but for me, within me – this ‘God’ seemed no different than the Spirits I experienced, this ‘God’ / ‘Jesus’ also ‘needs someone to talk through’ as in the case with the preacher just as the Spirits talked through my brother: No different.
I spoke to my brother about the similarities of the Spirits and this God Spirit and that there is no difference whatsoever – it’s Spirits fooling around with us human beings, through other human beings, playing a deceptive game with us and enjoying our suffering and pain. He said to me: I thought you might react this way – come in men. And then two men burst into the room suddenly, I had not seen them before. They grabbed me by the arms and forced me to the floor and I was kicking and screaming and they threw me unto the floor. I yelled and I screamed and I said to my brother that the Spirits are fooling him, are playing with him – they want you to worship and pray to them and do their will and so they deceive you, they are the one’s doing the suffering and pain – nothing and no-one else. And that they can’t do anything to harm you but through someone else. The Preacher was suddenly there again. My brother held my feet to the ground, the two other men held my arms and the preacher was standing above me with a cross that was wet and the Bible in his left hand. He spoke a strange language, words that I didn’t understand. I screamed for my brother and I asked him what he’s doing to me and he said that the preacher is coming to cast the possession of evil from within me, because it’s the evil by which I am possessed that doesn’t want me to take Jesus/God into my heart, not me. He just kept saying: Accept Jesus, accept God – the other two men were praying for me silently mumbling words of prayer to God and Jesus. I just kept saying: You’re the one’s possessed – not me!!!
I had enough of screaming and kicking and yelling and struggling – so I just stopped and I breathed. When I stopped, everyone else stopped and stared at me and the preacher asked me: How do you feel my child? And I merely replied: I am fine, I’m feeling alright, I would just like to rest. So, they picked me up from the floor. The Preacher inspected me, looked within my eyes, made me make all sorts of sounds to hear my voice and he informed my brother: All is fine – it is done and if he experiences anything strange – he must call on them again. I deliberately took the Bible and went into the room and closed the door to have them think they had actually done something.
As I lay in bed – I thought the entire world was possessed by the Spirits – Spirits showing themselves in all sorts of different ways to deceive human beings, but they didn’t deceive me. I knew the truth. I then understood that it’s be the most impossible to task to have anyone listen to me – because the Spirits possessed them all and in that moment I felt alone, very much alone within this entire world as the only one knowing the deception of the Spirits within which human beings believed. I did not know what to do. I most certainly refuse to believe in any Spirit whatsoever and I knew that if I didn’t respond to my brother’s belief he would send those possessed men again to try and have me be possessed by the Spirits to worship and pray to them. I had nowhere else to go…
I lay there during the day until evening – my brother checked in now and then as I heard the door open, but I made as though I was asleep – I did not want to talk to him, I did not want to talk to anyone as I really believed that this whole world must already be possessed by these Spirits, the spirits own the world and they play and have fun with human beings suffering and pain: This I was certain of. So I started wondering about death from the perspective that: If everything else the Spirits told me about themselves and how I must live and do and be loyal unto them was a lie – then what about what will happen to me when I die. Because I most certainly understood they had no power here but through humans – and they deceive through what they say to humans and through humans – so, who says that they had not lied about heaven/hell or going to be with the spirits or when I die and I have not been loyal to the sprits they will condemn and punish me in death as I was told by my brother? I knew there must be Spirits of sorts – so I will still exist when I die. And in the moment it seemed a brilliant idea to remove myself from this world – maybe I would be able to do something on the other side and speak to humans here – maybe then they’ll hear me…
I wasn’t afraid at the time to remove myself from this world – not at all. Because I understood that here I had no chance and I don’t know what would happen to me if I simply refused to believe in the Spirits or give myself to them. I didn’t know anybody else, but from what I experienced thus far in my life – it seemed the entire world was governed by them. I didn’t want to exist in this Spirit possessed world within which they force me to give myself to them and worship, praise and pray to them to in such a way give them an opportunity to possess me. So I got up, very much determined – took a knife from the kitchen, went to my bed – and cut my wrists – very deeply to ensure the certainty of death. I remember the pain being so extensively intense, all the blood around me – and I feel unconscious, my last moment on earth. And I died.
When I died – I realised I was right, I still exist and I immediately set out for my brother, to go into him and talk to him. But, the moment I died – everything was white around me, as though I was enclosed in something. I still looked the same: Long brown curly hair with a white gown within which I died, though now without blood. Two men approached me. Two men with wings, with a bright golden and white light resonating from within them, golden brown straight hair, perfect features and also with white robes and I immediately within me knew: Spirits. I demanded from them that they show me the way back to earth where all the other humans exist and to not keep me here with them. They smiled and they said no: They will let me spend eternity with the Creator of All – earth and human beings is the Creators concern and not mine, I am now able to go and rest.
I laughed, I laughed and I laughed and I laughed. I refused to – I simply refused to, because this bloody Creator is probably ‘THE SPIRIT’ that is responsible for all the suffering and pain on this earth and that they just want me to go there so that I can shut up and forget what I had experienced here on earth, so that I can forget about what is being done unto human beings here on earth, that this Spirit is responsible for all the pain and suffering of everyone in this world. They just wanted to send me there so that I won’t speak to human beings on earth, so that they can find out the truth of what the bloody Spirits are doing to them. I couldn’t just go and apparently experience rest, bliss and peace when I know within me the truth of what is being done unto human beings on earth and what I experienced within me: The deceiver in this existence is that very Spirit and so were these two beings also servants of the Spirits, trying to manipulate me with bliss, peace and rest so that they can so control me to not speak out the truth to human beings on earth. I expressed this to them and they just looked at me straight in the eyes and said: You condemned yourself. And they left, they left me in that enclosure of white and that’s all I ever existed within and I couldn’t get out of it – because everywhere I ran to, or walked to, up down, left right, diagonally – was only white: With no-one and nothing around me. They came, they returned once in a while, asking me the same question – I’ll either remain in here alone or return to the Creator. They tried to manipulate me by saying – it’ll be better there than being here. What’s really the difference…etc. But I refused – I will not give myself to the Spirit or spirits or any spirit for that matter and they would not send be back to earth either. I knew I was no good where I was trapped within – but I would not, I would not give myself to the Spirits.
So I remained within the enclosure for many, many, many, many earth years until the dimensions started changing and I was ‘freed’ from this enclosure within which I was trapped and all being’s within the dimensional existence’s process started to where we are now: All within the dimensions assisting and supporting themselves to stand within and as oneness and equality as life – the exact same process to exist here on earth for each and every single individual human being on earth. Thus – all the ‘spirits’ that tried and attempted to control and deceive human beings no more exist as they did – as all such separation has stopped.
(To explain the entire process which I experienced within the interdimensional existence would take me books to write, thus I will now continued with what I have realised:)
Solbeena, I do understand your current experience of you. I as you as all human beings within this world as all dimensional beings who have been within this world have experienced some greatly horrific experiences within this world – most of them, almost unspeakable.
Being abused, manipulated, deceived, lied to – the experience thereof becoming so much – it’s as though you’re completely surrounded by it, always, no matter where you turn, as though you’re in it as it and you cannot get away from it – deception, lies, dishonesty, abuse, manipulation – to the point where you feel that you’re suffocating in it, and it seems there is no way out. The sadness, the anger, the pain, the suffering becomes so great one tends to wonder how one can possibly continue to exist in such a way…
I understand that you’re currently thinking that removing yourself from this world will solve all that you are experiencing within you and your world currently. That when you remove yourself from this world you’ll get away from the stalkers, your family, your whole world…but what you must hear Solbeena is that you may think/believe that it is your current situation as the stalkers, your family and your entire experience in this world that is the reason and cause of you wanting to remove yourself from this world…but it is not. You may think/believe that if you were to remove yourself from this world everything there inside you, you experience, all the pain and suffering, will just ago away and in the dimensions you will find rest and peace and everything will just go away…it will not and it is not so.
Solbeena – your experience of you will not change in the dimensions, because you currently think / believe that it is your situation / circumstance that is currently causing the experience within you, that the world has let you down, has left you, your family has let you down, has left you – but it is not so, this is not the truth.
The real situation is that you don’t want to live with yourself anymore – you feel broken, lost, worthless, alone, abused, bruised, torn within you – and you just want the pain and suffering to stop within you, and you think/believe that removing yourself from this world will be the solution to the pain and suffering you experience within you: It is not Solbeena – because now, each and every single human being that cross-over face all that they have accepted and allowed themselves to be and become within themselves – thus, just as you are experiencing you in this moment, you will experience the exact same within the dimensions and much more intense than what you’re ever able to imagine – because it’s not where you are in this world, nor what your current situation is in this world that is the ‘problem’ – the reason and cause for all your experiences within you is because of acceptance and allowance within you of you – nothing and no-one else is responsible.
Thus – now, each one will face their own self responsibility, face all that they have accepted and allowed within themselves – whether here on earth or in the dimensions: There is no escape from self and you will face this process of taking self responsibility for what you have accepted and allowed within you.
This is done so Solbeena – that each one must realise that each and every single one of us have been responsible for what we’ve done unto ourselves and others as ourselves within existence as what we’re currently experiencing ourselves to be: This is done through facing ourselves, facing all that we have become within ourselves and experience within ourselves, to stand up within ourselves and take self responsibility for ourselves to no more accept and allow anything less than who we are in every moment of breath, here. So that we may stop, so that we may stop all that we have become and experience within ourselves and to not ever again allow and accept such an existence again.
Removing yourself from this world is not an option, because you will not experience peace, you will not experience rest and you will not escape from all that you currently experience within you: It’s not how it works Solbeena. And I would most certainly suggest you don’t consider it – because you will then realise you made one huge mistake and that you still exist the exact same way you experienced yourself here on earth, no different, yet also more intense, and that you will in anyway have to go through processes, exactly as you would’ve here on earth – so, I suggest you apply you in this process here on earth, it is much simpler to do this process here on earth than within the dimensional existence.
So, Solbeena, I suggest you stand up within you here on earth.
I hear you, from the perspective that you have ‘tried’ to help yourself – but herein is already the problem, the problem is within the word ‘tried’. Which then actually means that you haven’t actually ever really assisted and supported yourself at all – you just continued to accept and allow the experience within you. Because the word ‘try’ is used when you have already given up on yourself and didn’t actually really stand up within you to really actually assist and support yourself effectively.
Solbeena, what I have realised in removing myself from this world is that I actually in truth was ‘looking for a solution somewhere out there outside of me’, hoping it would be in another place – and it wasn’t there where I thought/believed it to be when I removed myself from this world and that my situation in the dimensions was no different to what it would’ve been here on earth – actually it had become much worse (as seen in what I have shared).
I was so stupid to think / believe that I’d actually find a solution to the experience of me outside of me, somewhere else, separate from me – because the solution was always actually right here: ME. That it is me as who I am that matters, that makes the difference – not where I am, that I will not find the solution to what I experience by running away from it, because this is giving up – this is not self honestly taking self responsibility for me as who I am in facing all that I have accepted and allowed within me.
Solbeena, self honestly: You have not actually really taken self responsibility for you and assisted and supported you effectively within the current situation you experience yourself within. I would suggest you actually really stand up within you and take self responsibility for you as who you are. We have to start, Solbeena, we have to stop what has become of this world, we must stop what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves, we must stop what we have done unto ourselves and others as ourselves and this is not done by running away, giving up or removing you from this world – and the only place we’re able to start is here within ourselves in every moment of breath by standing up and taking self responsibility.
The greatest gift you’re able to give you is self forgiveness, where you give you to you. I suggest to really actually start applying self forgiveness for all that you experience within you. All the pain and suffering you experience within you: You apply self forgiveness for. I’d suggest you write down your experiences in detail – all that you experienced within you from the past to where you are now and as you write you apply self forgiveness. Because in such a way, through writing, you release everything within you by placing it in words before you – and together with this, actually really apply self forgiveness. This is the first step of standing up within you and taking self responsibility – by releasing everything within you through writing it down / typing and applying self forgiveness as you do so.
Then to in every moment of breath – not accept / allow your mind as thoughts/feeling/emotions to influence you within you, because have a look – it is in participating in all those thoughts/feelings and emotions within you that is causing the pain and suffering – and YOU and ONLY YOU through application of every moment of breath by stopping participation in the thoughts, feelings and emotion together with self forgiveness is able to stop what you are currently experiencing within you: Nothing and no-one else can do it for you, you must assist and support you.
Don’t accept / allow you to give up on yourself. Have a look at what you’re able to do within this world with which you’re able to assist and support you in terms of earning money and then maybe another place to stay, get out there and see what you’re able to do, look at all options that provide the ability for you to earn money, maybe even at the same time a place to stay – but you actually have to get up and do it for you – be the solution and direct you and the experience within your world in such a way within which you’re able to assist and support you effectively. And also within this assist and support you within practical application in not accepting / allowing anything less than who you are. You have to direct you and your world – do not wait for something to happen for you, direct you and your world in such a way sop you may assist and support you effectively as you assist and support you within this process.
If you require any further assistance with regards to self forgiveness: Let us know – we’re here to assist and support you.
Uersti
Original Article: http://desteni.co.za/a/uersti-a-history-of-spiritual-deception-from-after-life
Transcribed and typed by Uersti through the interdimensional protal
Date : 02/01/2008
My name is Uersti and I would like to share my experience of me while I was here on earth, which you may find quite similarly relate to your experience you’re currently having of you in this world.
Where do I start…
We were five children: Four boys and One girl – I myself was that one girl and I was the youngest in the family. My mother had raised us all by herself, as I never knew my father – he had died during war. We lived just outside of town – we provided our own food for ourselves, only other necessities we would purchase from town.
My mother had died when I was 9 – she just one day suddenly collapsed while out hanging the washing and she didn’t wake up. So I was left to be raised by my brothers…
When I was 9, the eldest brother was 21, the one after that was 19, the one after that was 15, the one after that was 12. We went to the local school, but where we lived was a very poor area, very much so. We then worked wherever we could find something to do and attended to our own food garden and made our own bread and everything so we looked after ourselves.
My eldest brother was in this ‘group’, a clan, who worshipped and prayed spirits – they used to wear garments made from the earth such as plants, made a fire and would dance around the fire and offer ‘already dead animals’, which they found in the area within which we stayed, to the spirits so that the spirits may rest their souls – because they believed that if they were to do this, the spirits would save/spare their soul when they were to die one day and go to the kingdom of the high. I remember my oldest brother telling me stories of all this and how he can feel the spirits come into him and the others as they present the dead animals to the spirits to save the dead animals’ souls wherever they may be – and how the spirits come through them and speak and act strangely while dancing around the fire. Not all my brothers were involved in this – only the fifth and the fourth and the third. My brother who was 12 was very quiet – me and him were the closest, he was too afraid of the spirits to join the group/clan which was called: The Kingdom of the High, but I was curious – I was not afraid.
So, when I was 10, almost 11 – my eldest brother returned from one of their worship evenings and he said to me that the spirits told everyone in the clan/group through him that they must bring me, because I am very important, I must be the princess of the clan/group and that I am here on earth for the spirits. That the spirits sent me here to earth for them, so that they may come to earth and save all the souls of the dead that already has died, especially the animals – because the animals were seen as the most holy of species on the earth – and when they for instance would find a dead dog in the streets which was thrown out and left for dead = such animals they would take and offer to the spirits.
I was very much excited, but my brother that came just before I did warned me, he did not want me to go – but I didn’t listen. I really adored my brothers as I always felt that they took care of me, they were always perfect around me and I felt as though they understood what I was feeling inside, especially when my mother died – because I felt alone, they took the feeling alone away because they spent so much time with me. I felt very sad and I missed her a lot, they took the feeling away when they made me laugh or played with me with my dolls or outside they’d have me play with them with the ball. They all became my mother and my father which I did not have anymore and which I did not know. I always felt safe and protected and I loved them with all my heart – during that time, I was an innocent girl, experiencing herself being enveloped with love and care after all that I had gone through with my mother dying – it was difficult to in some way comfort myself when she died, because I was initially scared to be left alone with my brothers only because they were always mean, angry, irritable and short-tempered, but they changed with me when my mother died – and everything was alright for about one year or two – until I joined their group / clan along with many others. Altogether there were nine in the group / clan – I was the youngest, the rest were all males.
So, the evening came when my brothers and I, the on that warned me was selected to the responsibility of watching over the house/home while we were away. The place of worship was behind an old building, about 45 minutes walk away from where we stayed, far away from civilization, behind a hill. When we arrived, the fire was already burning and the other people were already there – there was a stack of dead animals by the fire. I remember seeing two dead dogs, a rat, three dead cats, part of a cow it seemed, even little creatures such as beetles and lizards – the smell was awful. There was a wide circle made around the fire, in the lining of the circle they placed white flowers. My eldest brother made me a dress from a white sheet and I had to walk barefoot to this particular place – my feet were hurting and bleeding because I walked into thorns and bumped my toes on rocks because it was dark – but my brothers told me that it’s part of initiating me into the circle of The Kingdom of the High and that they also had to walk their first walk barefoot.
Then there were smaller circles around the bigger circle around the fire, those circles were also aligned with white flowers – these were the circles within which we were going to stand.
There was an old man there – he was sitting alone infront of a pot, brewing something which smelt almost as awful as the all the dead animals together – he had long grey hair, his face was wrinkly, his eyes seemed to be empty as though there was nothing behind his eyes looking through them: I remember thinking: He is a living ghost and I thought he was maybe one of the spirits here on earth.
I remember being honoured by being part of all this, and I vowed within me to not disappoint my brothers and neither the spirits. I felt very important. I felt special. I felt wanted. I felt a sense of belonging. I felt as though I have a purpose, a task in this world which is very important: And because of this – I was not afraid. I loved animals and it was very sad and heartbreaking for me about the way they died and I was very honoured to be able to send their souls to the spirits to take care of them and I knew I would feel special in doing so, because I would have wanted someone to do it for me – so I would give myself, my life to the animals and would do whatever necessary, for as long as I can – to take as many souls of the animals to the spirits. I loved animals and I knew they were being treated in this world as they shouldn’t be treated – I even felt this in my own life, that I nor anyone in this world should experience any pain, or sadness – so I hoped that if I worship the Spirits and please them – they would make my life better, maybe I could even take the pain and sadness from everyone in this world if the Spirits approve of me – because I am a princess of the Spirits and I will use what has been given to me to help as many people and animals from their suffering in this world. I was proud of my brothers, I was proud of them that they cared about the animals and I knew within me that because of this the Spirits was good also and that’s also why I did not have any fear inside me.
My eldest brother said to me that I must walk up to the old man and kneel before him. So I did – I was extremely nervous because I wanted to do everything perfect. As I approached the old mad, he took a knife – I remember his breathing being loud and heavy and his hands were shaking a bit. He took the knife, lifted his pants up from his left leg which exposed his left thigh and there were many cut marks on his leg – almost so much that there were only contours of cuts seen on his leg – I was from nervous to frightened. He took the knife and he cut his leg – I wanted to tear my eyes away, but my eyes were fixed on the entire procedure of him cutting his leg and see the blood dripping from it – it was one deep cut. He sucked the blood from his leg and waved at me to come forward, so I stood up from my kneeling position and went to him – he kissed me with his blood soaked lips on the forehead, cheeks, neck and the centre of my chest area. He said to me that he carries the blood of the Spirits and he has blessed me with the blood of the spirits. It made sense to me – so I was alright with it. He then gave me a wooden cup of the brew he was making in the pot and he said to me to drink it – it was the drink of the earth, from the earth – so when I drink from the earth, of the earth – I am belonging to the earth, blessed by the blood of the spirits and so I would be the servant of the spirits of the earth and travel amongst and be protected within the Circle of the Kingdom of the High. And so I drank the brew – after I drank the whole cup – everyone else around us started celebrating and I felt very weary, because everything I was seeing around me started meshing together into one – I did not see the individual shapes around me like you normally do – It was like seeing a painting of a house and trees around it clearly with a fire burning and lots of people around it, but then all the colors and shapes of the painting started meshing into one another. I just saw colours all around me and people around me vaguely, very vaguely – but I felt wonderful and I could just feel myself smiling all the time: Free is the word. I felt someone take my hand, it felt like my brothers’ and he said: You’re one of us now, you belong to the spirits – and so we danced around the fire, we threw the dead animals into the fire and I could actually see their trapped souls moving from within the carcasses going up, up, up – into the stars – they were in the stars! And I saw all sorts of white people behind all the other people as we were dancing, but they weren’t dancing with us – they were watching, and they had black eyes, but everything else was white. I wasn’t afraid.
When all the dead animals were thrown into the fire and we finished dancing – we all lay in a circle with our feet connected, watching the stars – the Kingdom of the High were in the stars where the spirits live – and that’s where we sent them I believed. I have never felt so happy.
My brother who stayed at home was very concerned when I shared with him what we were doing – he thought it was of evil. I was determined to have him know that it was good. We only did this once a week – the gathering took place once a week only.
So the following week we went again, I was only 11 years old at the time. Though this time I would find out from the Spirits what my task would be as the Princess of the spirits. When we gathered together, we all drank once more from the brew the old man prepared and I again had the experience of everything going hazy, yet experiencing myself quite wonderful. I did not then think it was the brew I was drinking – I believed that it was the Spirits that came into me and I was seeing through their eyes the world. My older brother walked up to me after he had gone to the hill to speak alone with the Spirits – he said to me that the Spirits told him that my first task was to take care of the old man for them – as he was very old and frail and he is one of their most cherished humans on earth – because he was the one who they appointed to start the Circle of the Kingdom of the High and it is a very special task to be done and the Spirits will be much pleased. I was afraid – to be alone with this old man, but I believed that the Spirits would take care of me and my brothers would protect me. So I agreed.
I continued to go to school still, always – never told anybody with what I was involved in. I took care of the old man for two years until I was thirteen – I read for him, I cooked for him, my brothers brought us food for a week and I took care of us. He told me many stories and I enjoyed him – he was like a grandfather to me. Until he one evening died – I only found out the next morning. So, my older brother was then selected to the leader for the Circle of the Kingdom of the High. Everything went fine for those years from about eleven to thirteen – but when I turned fourteen… everything started going very badly. Because in the gathering when my brother was to be the leader – I had to then take care of him alone and the two of us were to stay in the home where the old man lived. I was a servant of the Spirits and I was proud to be.
Though – when alone with my oldest brother – he said to me I must bare a child of the Spirits through him – that the child I will have will be of the Spirits and will be the first child into this world of the Spirits and so we will be the first to bring the Spirits into earth to help the animals and other human beings to show them how we must live – to stop the pain and suffering in this world.
I did not want to do it. I was very, very, very scared – but my brother was always so nice towards me and I vowed to do anything / everything possible to please the Spirits. So I did – but I told him only once. It was a very painful experience – he was very rough with me. Not gentle as I experienced him to be when he speaks to me or plays with me or help me with my school work. All in the family had a place to work so we did earn just enough money to take care of ourselves.
I just said to myself that it’s okay – I’m doing this for the animals, for the people suffering and in pain. But then, after that, my brother continued to come into my room some evenings and I could smell that he was drunk – I tried to kick him out of my bed and say to him: No! But he was much stronger than me and he forced me down, sometimes hit me, he even hit me so hard that I’d be unconscious and when I wake up, find blood on the sheets because he had sex with me so hard that I started to bleed. This continued for about three weeks – and we still went to gatherings every week and I remained with my brother. I prayed to the Spirits to protect me and wondered why they’re not protecting me and why they’re having my brother do this to me, I am in pain and I am suffering. How can I help the other people and the animals if I am in pain and suffering? So I went to speak to my older brother and he said to me that the Spirits made him this way so I can understand what pain and suffering the world feel to understand it, to understand them and only when they are satisfied that I understand pain and suffering will they have my brother stop being who they made him to be to prepare me to also become the leader of the Circle of the Kingdom of the High.
I did not expect this. I thought I was here to help the Spirits stop the pain and suffering – not have me also go through this. I felt sorry for my brother; because I thought it must be difficult for him also – because the Spirits was asking much of us. But I did it. He hit me, threw me around the house, hurt me by having sex with me – I at a stage felt like I was breaking inside me. I hid all the bruises when going to school. When I was 17 – all these years I continued to experience as much pain and suffering unto myself as possible so that the Spirits can say that I have had enough – but it never happened. I, when I was 17 – had difficulty walking – my muscles were painful and I had sores on my body. I finished school and everything. I continued the gatherings – but even then I stopped seeing the animal’s souls’ going into the stars – I just saw the animals burning, drinking the brew – dancing. But all that I held onto is that when this is done, I will finally be able to help the way I wanted to the animals and the humans on earth to stop the suffering. I could not speak to anyone about my experiences – because I swore an oath unto the Spirits that I will not speak a word of the most important task appointed to me. Of having a child of the Spirits and the Spirits having to turn my brother into what he had become to prepare me for my task in this world for the Spirits. And the oath was that I would be burned alive as with the animals and cast my soul unto them in the Stars so as to receive my due punishment if I were to utter one word to anyone. So I stayed away from as many people as possible – even also all my brothers. The one brother who was concerned for me always left – the one I also held most dearly.
I didn’t experience me as having a family any longer: All my other brothers were on their own way concerned with only themselves, all I knew what existed is me being prepared by the Spirits, by continuously experiencing suffering and pain through my brother – for three to four years I was inflicted with pain, shouting, cursing, hitting – treated as though I was nothing, dirt, filth, worthless – I even looked it. I was in a horrible condition. But I swallowed everything in, I embraced the pain and suffering inflicted on me by my brother – as much as I could absorb I did, to the point as I say where I could barely walk properly, I was thin and underfed. I within me wondered how on earth I could still be alive because there was nothing more left within me, but this tight experience of anger, sadness, resentment by doing nothing to protect myself against my brother, but lying there open arms always inviting in as much infliction of pain and suffering I am able to handle. I believed that it was the strength of the Spirits within me keeping me alive because I could not see any other way for me being alive.
I often went alone unto the hills and prayed for the Spirits – I exposed my bruises unto the heavens, the stars, cried out my tears of pain, of sadness – I did not dare express anger towards them, only unto myself – I did it all to myself – hoping the Spirits would stop what I’m experiencing. I could not imagine that human beings and animals were enduring so much suffering and pain as I have. But I did not know and I believed the Spirits knew best. I grew up with the Spirits, the Circle of the Kingdom of the High – it was my life – therefore I did what I had done.
I only became pregnant with a child of the Spirits when I was eighteen. I informed my brother and I remember how happy he was. He said finally – now the Spirits will lay us to rest and we may continue with our task. I was relieved and grateful for the both of us when I experienced me being pregnant – because I knew it was a sign of the Spirits saying to me that I had had enough pain and suffering and that I now understand the pain and suffering of human beings and the animals and I am prepared and ready to finally fulfill my task of freeing human beings, the world and the animals from the suffering.
But I strongly doubted if I would be able to carry a child in my condition and I informed my brother of my concern – I was abused extensively for three to four years, even breathing had become painful. So he then took care of me properly – my brother I knew had returned, transformed – and only on that, I knew everything was worth it. I never again walked properly, nor walked without pain – I had to use a stick of sorts to help me walk. During the time I was pregnant with the child my brother took care of me wonderfully – I hadn’t felt so healthy and whole within me for a long time. I did not attend any of the gatherings while I was pregnant – I remember crying a lot, but from gratefulness and thanks to the Spirits and that I did not doubt them.
Then a tremendous shock: I started experiencing much pain when I was four months about into the pregnancy. I started becoming ill. My brother brought one of the other member’s mother’s to come and have a look as she was known to be a healer of special medicines of the earth. She said she could feel the baby is in much pain and agony which is why I was in much pain and agony. She used all sorts of healing methods on me for four to five days – I was alone with her in the room, very, very, very ill, much fever – I remember always feeling wet, cold, shivering – it felt like eternity. I even believed I spoke to my mother while in the state, she was there with me, holding my hand – I believed this also to be the Spirits helping me to get through this. But then, on the sixth day – there was blood coming out of me, much blood – and the woman screamed. Then, the baby came out – but dead, I pushed it out, as though I was pushing out something that wasn’t supposed to be in my body.
My brother came in along with other members of the Circle of the Kingdom of the High – he looked at me, he had tears in his eyes and he said to me: You had failed us, you had failed the spirits. I could see the disappointment in his eyes – all the other members walked out, the woman attended to me, cleared the blood, washed me as though I was her own daughter and stayed with me throughout the night. The following day I was left alone in the house within tremendous pain and I still very much experienced myself being very ill. I crept in and out of consciousness – the woman still only came in the evenings to attend to me and I only could get up on my feet two weeks later. I had not seen my brother since the moment he had said to me that I had failed him and the Spirits – the woman did not want to let me know of anything with regards to how my brother was doing.
When I finally could get up on my feet I one evening set out to join the gathering. I did not know whether I should go or not, I was experiencing immense fear and uncertainty. All members were there – but there was a new girl, she was the same age as me when I started joining the gathering and she was also in a white dress, but a beautiful white dress, not as the white sheet I was wearing. My brother saw me – he yelled for me stop and not come any closer. I stopped – I had such a fright because I could just hear his anger and disgust within his voice when he yelled for me to stop and not come any closer. So I stopped, immediately – I had to talk to him, I had to understand what is going on – because it’s been only through him that I hear the Spirits speak to me, I have tried to speak to them, but I only got answers through events / signs not actual speaking. He looked me in the eyes and he said: I have said to you, you have failed us and you have failed the spirits. You can be grateful the Spirits still spared your life – you did not die. Be grateful that you’re still living – your life has only been spared because you remained loyal to the Spirits – but because the child died, you are no longer the Princess of the Spirits, you cannot be, the child couldn’t make it inside you. They have appointed another – there she is. Anger, no, rage, consumed me – I yelled to the skies: I gave up my life for this task which you appointed to me – you know what I have been through for you. This is my task to set the people and the animals free from their pain and suffering – I know what pain and suffering is! My brother took me by the shoulders and said: You have failed – you are not strong enough. You cannot be here anymore – we are done with you, the spirits are done with you – the new Princess to fulfill your task is already here, her preparation has already begun – it is done. Go now and do with yourself what you will – be grateful to the spirits that they have spared your life! My brother said to me that the Spirits told him to search for the new Princess as I have failed and that I must go in gratefulness – for the gift I have received from them for being loyal to them for so long is sparing my life, to live my life here as I please – as well as that I understand now what suffering and pain the world endures.
I was angry, no words could lay my experience within me to rest. I ran – I ran towards all the other members of the gathering, aiming for the girl – IT WAS MY TASK, I do not accept that it is over – I did not go through all that pain and suffering for nothing – I have a purpose to fulfill. Though, before I could get to her – all the other members caught me and carried me far away from the gathering and threw me down onto the ground, into the dirt – exactly as I experienced myself within me: Dirty, filthy, worthless – exactly as I experienced myself through all those years of what the Spirits did to me through him. All my brothers said to me that they cannot anymore associate themselves with me anymore because the spirits had left me – they said to me that’s why my other brother left, because the spirits didn’t recognize him to be one of the Circle of the Kingdom of the High. My brothers said to me that if they were to see me ever again – they will burn me alive.
Something was wrong…
They cannot be good if they would send me through all that pain and suffering and then just leave me alone. The Spirits are evil – this is what I now experienced of them. They are evil because they transform people into monsters and then they abuse innocent beings as I once was. I believed that they possessed people and made them monsters and then play with us because they have fun of doing it – they had fun watching me suffer and be in pain – this cannot be good! I was so stupid, so naïve to believe it – pain and suffering is not good – I would never have or want anyone to experience what I have – so how can the Spirits be good if they did this unto me and now leave me alone – with nothing and no-one, only the clothes I wear is what I have with nowhere to go. I lay there as I got spat on and kicked – my brother said to me as they were doing this that they must to prove to the spirits their loyalty to the spirits that they will not ever see me again or help me again – but ban me – I am no longer worthy of being in the presence of those of the Spirits. I did not cry – I could not cry, I was quiet within me all the way through as I lay there – everything of me was gone within me, there was nothing left of me within me – it was taken and ripped out from within me – the Spirits have taken me – I am empty and I am nothing: This was my experience. I just felt like a body being kicked and spat on – nothing more, nothing less. There was just nothing – the depth of despair was so great that the feeling thereof was as though there was nothing: I lost everything – I lost me – I was gone…
I was left there – again bleeding and bruised, by dress torn, barefoot I was laying there in the fetal position, the cold breeze of the night blowing on my open soars, my breath. That’s all I felt, my breath, my body on the soft ground of the earth, my body bruises hurting, the wind blowing on my open sores, blood trickling down my body. My hair blowing over my face – sand on my lips, in my throat – I was cold. I did not care – I just lay there. Not even the desire of wanting to die was within me – there was just NOTHING. I decided to stay there and sleep, and if I wake up the following morning I will stand up…
I woke up the following morning, cold – my body was badly bruised, my muscles tense. I first got up with my arms – I really had to force myself up – it was very difficult, as though I was standing up for the first time in my life. I got up to my knees, and I looked around – deserted – I was alone. This I experienced when I was nineteen. I had difficulty getting up, but I got up – my entire body in immense pain – I got quite a beating. I had no reason for getting up, for standing up – I just said to myself the previous evening that if I were awake the following morning I would stand up – and so I did – I just stood up. I did not have a reason, nor a purpose to stand up, to force myself to stand up – I just did. I then decided to look for my brother, to search for him, the one I had not seen in years – maybe he could help me.
I did not know anyone at the time except for those who were in the Circle of the Kingdom of the High – I had to look for help, for someone to help me. I yelled into the skies that morning and said: I am here day and night –you are not here day and night – you are here only in the night. I curse you, I condemn you, I hate you – I vow to me myself that I will expose you, your evil, your deception which you flounder to others in this world – you are the one’s responsible for the pain and suffering in this world – you are doing this to the animals and human beings and you are doing nothing to help them. You are causing the suffering and pain – you the one’s that hide in the night. You cannot even kill me without doing it through someone, you are weak – I am not afraid of you! I live!
And this gave me courage – immense courage within me when I stood up to the Spirits – when I realised that I am not afraid of them anymore because I know that they cannot touch me, but through others.
So I went into town. It took me two hours to walk instead of 45 minutes. No-one wanted to help me, I knocked on doors for someone to help me, but the doors were shut in my face because they said to me they will not have evil in their homes and they were scared of me because of what I looked like, they thought I had a disease because of all the burn marks I had on me also which looked like sores of an disease, they thought I was a beggar on the streets, no-one recognized me because I hadn’t been in town in years. I went to the healer that was there – no-one was home. There was a city nearby, but it was more than half a days’ travel to there – and I thought that maybe my brother went there. All I could do was walk as is – maybe, maybe someone will take a moment and help me…
I walked out of town, slowly but surely, one step at a time, barefoot with a torn dress – I was hungry, I was tired, I was sore, I was in pain – every step was painful, but the pain started going away as I continued to walk – walking towards the city in hope of finding my brother. I stopped occasionally along the road for a moment to rest, it was a dirt road to town – we lived in the outstretches of the city. There was no-one and nothing on the road – I was alone. But I knew I could do it – because I have gone through years of pain and suffering – if I could get through that, I can most certainly do this.
So I continued walking, as I’ve said, one step at a time, one foot infront of the other until I collapsed. I do not know how long I lay there, but when I woke up it had started to become evening. I lay there for a while when I was awake and then I stood up again and continued to walk with great difficulty – I did sometimes wonder whether I would make it…
From behind me I heard horses coming – finally someone on the way to the city, I stood there and waited for them to pass me by. It was a woman with her husband and child on their way into the city – I looked very young then, they stopped for me and one couldn’t see so clearly in the evening as to what I looked like. The husband asked me what I am doing in the middle of nowhere and I told them that I was attacked by men and I desperately require getting to a healer or doctor. The woman had taken a blanket and she seemed very concerned for me – she placed the blanket over me and I lay down at the back of the cart. We reached the city much later in the evening. I refer to it as a city because it was much larger, civilized and bigger than the town from which we came.
We stopped at a home, the woman walked out into the house and informed another man of my situation. They took me into the home from the back – the two men had to carry me in, my legs just couldn’t move, they wouldn’t move. When I was in the light of the house – the woman and husband saw what condition I was actually in and had quite a fright to say the least. They left in a hurry and I was placed within a bathtub without water – just put in there. Two other woman came with white clothes and they bathed me with gloves, standing quite a foot away. They took care of my sores, I had food to eat and I remember falling asleep in the most comfortable bed and I drifted away.
I woke up two days later I found out. The man who was the caretaker of the home – he works with emergency cases he informed me, so he works in the evenings only. He asked me what had happened to me and I had told him what I have shared with you in this document so far and that I am here to find my brother. And he said the daftest thing: ‘Quite a story for a girl coming from the streets, you’ve got quite an imagination young lady.’ He reported me to an ‘official officer’, because he did not know what else to do with me, who came to get me and I was place into a cell within which I stayed for three days. I’d say he was more afraid of me because he knew nothing about me and was scared that I’d steal something from his home.
I pleaded for them to find my brother and I informed them where they’re able to catch those that gather in the meetings in the evenings once a week: But they did not want to believe me, they thought ‘the streets got to me’. They did not even believe where I told them I came from – based on the ridiculousness of my experience I shared. They searched for my brother as I had asked and they actually found him. He came to get me. He had done quite well for himself, he had a fine suit, with a fine hat, fine shoes – and he walked me to his home. It was a little apartment. He did not speak to me – I wanted to hug him the first moment I saw him, I for a first time, in a long time experienced warmth within me, but he just turned around. I didn’t blame him, I was not angry – I understood. When we came into his apartment – I fell down on my knees and I cried, and I cried and I cried and he came to me and placed his arms around me and held me until I stopped. He made me tea and he sat me down and that’s when I told him everything of what happened over the years since I last saw him.
At first he shouted at me, he was angry with me, disappointed – I recognized all that he expressed in that moment as what I experienced towards me when I realised what I had done with the Spirits and how I could’ve been so stupid to believe it. But then, then he came to me and he said: It’s all right, you’re okay now. I once again felt safe, protected and that evening I again slept well and comfortably.
When I woke up the following morning – my brother introduced me to a preacher. I had no idea of what ‘God’ was or ‘Jesus’ was or what a ‘Preacher’ was. Before the preacher talked to me, my brother sat me down and he said to me that he had found his saviour: Jesus Christ of God and it saved his life. There was a book on the table – called: Bible. He briefly explained to me what he believed in and he said he wouldn’t be where he is now, who he is now without Jesus in his heart and he believes that there exists a God who watches over us all and holds all in ‘His’ heart. Within me I had one thought: More Spirit lies. I did not want to have anything to do with Spirits and this ‘God’ he spoke of sounded very much like a Spirit. I listened to what the preacher had to say – that I am able to save myself from burning in hell with the Devil and go to heaven if I but allow Jesus into my heart, read the Bible, pray to God and go to church always and ask Jesus / God to forgive me for my sins. I was speechless.
After the preacher left – my brother said: Let God, let Jesus into your heart, pray for forgiveness for all your sins – cast out the evil inside you and have Jesus save you, then you, when you die, and I when I die will go to heaven and be within God.
Within the anger I said to him: How can you believe this God is good, how can you believe that He watches over us – after all that I had told you of what had happened to me? His answer was simply: Because you had not yet let God/Jesus into your heart. I stood there in absolute disbelief – because this belief which he explained sounded no more different than what I believed with the Spirits. There is the same: Worship and prayer towards a Spirits of sorts – though the Spirits I believed in did not have a ‘Holy Book’ – so in some way this particular Spirit ‘God’ seemed to be making quite a popular name for itself – but for me, within me – this ‘God’ seemed no different than the Spirits I experienced, this ‘God’ / ‘Jesus’ also ‘needs someone to talk through’ as in the case with the preacher just as the Spirits talked through my brother: No different.
I spoke to my brother about the similarities of the Spirits and this God Spirit and that there is no difference whatsoever – it’s Spirits fooling around with us human beings, through other human beings, playing a deceptive game with us and enjoying our suffering and pain. He said to me: I thought you might react this way – come in men. And then two men burst into the room suddenly, I had not seen them before. They grabbed me by the arms and forced me to the floor and I was kicking and screaming and they threw me unto the floor. I yelled and I screamed and I said to my brother that the Spirits are fooling him, are playing with him – they want you to worship and pray to them and do their will and so they deceive you, they are the one’s doing the suffering and pain – nothing and no-one else. And that they can’t do anything to harm you but through someone else. The Preacher was suddenly there again. My brother held my feet to the ground, the two other men held my arms and the preacher was standing above me with a cross that was wet and the Bible in his left hand. He spoke a strange language, words that I didn’t understand. I screamed for my brother and I asked him what he’s doing to me and he said that the preacher is coming to cast the possession of evil from within me, because it’s the evil by which I am possessed that doesn’t want me to take Jesus/God into my heart, not me. He just kept saying: Accept Jesus, accept God – the other two men were praying for me silently mumbling words of prayer to God and Jesus. I just kept saying: You’re the one’s possessed – not me!!!
I had enough of screaming and kicking and yelling and struggling – so I just stopped and I breathed. When I stopped, everyone else stopped and stared at me and the preacher asked me: How do you feel my child? And I merely replied: I am fine, I’m feeling alright, I would just like to rest. So, they picked me up from the floor. The Preacher inspected me, looked within my eyes, made me make all sorts of sounds to hear my voice and he informed my brother: All is fine – it is done and if he experiences anything strange – he must call on them again. I deliberately took the Bible and went into the room and closed the door to have them think they had actually done something.
As I lay in bed – I thought the entire world was possessed by the Spirits – Spirits showing themselves in all sorts of different ways to deceive human beings, but they didn’t deceive me. I knew the truth. I then understood that it’s be the most impossible to task to have anyone listen to me – because the Spirits possessed them all and in that moment I felt alone, very much alone within this entire world as the only one knowing the deception of the Spirits within which human beings believed. I did not know what to do. I most certainly refuse to believe in any Spirit whatsoever and I knew that if I didn’t respond to my brother’s belief he would send those possessed men again to try and have me be possessed by the Spirits to worship and pray to them. I had nowhere else to go…
I lay there during the day until evening – my brother checked in now and then as I heard the door open, but I made as though I was asleep – I did not want to talk to him, I did not want to talk to anyone as I really believed that this whole world must already be possessed by these Spirits, the spirits own the world and they play and have fun with human beings suffering and pain: This I was certain of. So I started wondering about death from the perspective that: If everything else the Spirits told me about themselves and how I must live and do and be loyal unto them was a lie – then what about what will happen to me when I die. Because I most certainly understood they had no power here but through humans – and they deceive through what they say to humans and through humans – so, who says that they had not lied about heaven/hell or going to be with the spirits or when I die and I have not been loyal to the sprits they will condemn and punish me in death as I was told by my brother? I knew there must be Spirits of sorts – so I will still exist when I die. And in the moment it seemed a brilliant idea to remove myself from this world – maybe I would be able to do something on the other side and speak to humans here – maybe then they’ll hear me…
I wasn’t afraid at the time to remove myself from this world – not at all. Because I understood that here I had no chance and I don’t know what would happen to me if I simply refused to believe in the Spirits or give myself to them. I didn’t know anybody else, but from what I experienced thus far in my life – it seemed the entire world was governed by them. I didn’t want to exist in this Spirit possessed world within which they force me to give myself to them and worship, praise and pray to them to in such a way give them an opportunity to possess me. So I got up, very much determined – took a knife from the kitchen, went to my bed – and cut my wrists – very deeply to ensure the certainty of death. I remember the pain being so extensively intense, all the blood around me – and I feel unconscious, my last moment on earth. And I died.
When I died – I realised I was right, I still exist and I immediately set out for my brother, to go into him and talk to him. But, the moment I died – everything was white around me, as though I was enclosed in something. I still looked the same: Long brown curly hair with a white gown within which I died, though now without blood. Two men approached me. Two men with wings, with a bright golden and white light resonating from within them, golden brown straight hair, perfect features and also with white robes and I immediately within me knew: Spirits. I demanded from them that they show me the way back to earth where all the other humans exist and to not keep me here with them. They smiled and they said no: They will let me spend eternity with the Creator of All – earth and human beings is the Creators concern and not mine, I am now able to go and rest.
I laughed, I laughed and I laughed and I laughed. I refused to – I simply refused to, because this bloody Creator is probably ‘THE SPIRIT’ that is responsible for all the suffering and pain on this earth and that they just want me to go there so that I can shut up and forget what I had experienced here on earth, so that I can forget about what is being done unto human beings here on earth, that this Spirit is responsible for all the pain and suffering of everyone in this world. They just wanted to send me there so that I won’t speak to human beings on earth, so that they can find out the truth of what the bloody Spirits are doing to them. I couldn’t just go and apparently experience rest, bliss and peace when I know within me the truth of what is being done unto human beings on earth and what I experienced within me: The deceiver in this existence is that very Spirit and so were these two beings also servants of the Spirits, trying to manipulate me with bliss, peace and rest so that they can so control me to not speak out the truth to human beings on earth. I expressed this to them and they just looked at me straight in the eyes and said: You condemned yourself. And they left, they left me in that enclosure of white and that’s all I ever existed within and I couldn’t get out of it – because everywhere I ran to, or walked to, up down, left right, diagonally – was only white: With no-one and nothing around me. They came, they returned once in a while, asking me the same question – I’ll either remain in here alone or return to the Creator. They tried to manipulate me by saying – it’ll be better there than being here. What’s really the difference…etc. But I refused – I will not give myself to the Spirit or spirits or any spirit for that matter and they would not send be back to earth either. I knew I was no good where I was trapped within – but I would not, I would not give myself to the Spirits.
So I remained within the enclosure for many, many, many, many earth years until the dimensions started changing and I was ‘freed’ from this enclosure within which I was trapped and all being’s within the dimensional existence’s process started to where we are now: All within the dimensions assisting and supporting themselves to stand within and as oneness and equality as life – the exact same process to exist here on earth for each and every single individual human being on earth. Thus – all the ‘spirits’ that tried and attempted to control and deceive human beings no more exist as they did – as all such separation has stopped.
(To explain the entire process which I experienced within the interdimensional existence would take me books to write, thus I will now continued with what I have realised:)
Solbeena, I do understand your current experience of you. I as you as all human beings within this world as all dimensional beings who have been within this world have experienced some greatly horrific experiences within this world – most of them, almost unspeakable.
Being abused, manipulated, deceived, lied to – the experience thereof becoming so much – it’s as though you’re completely surrounded by it, always, no matter where you turn, as though you’re in it as it and you cannot get away from it – deception, lies, dishonesty, abuse, manipulation – to the point where you feel that you’re suffocating in it, and it seems there is no way out. The sadness, the anger, the pain, the suffering becomes so great one tends to wonder how one can possibly continue to exist in such a way…
I understand that you’re currently thinking that removing yourself from this world will solve all that you are experiencing within you and your world currently. That when you remove yourself from this world you’ll get away from the stalkers, your family, your whole world…but what you must hear Solbeena is that you may think/believe that it is your current situation as the stalkers, your family and your entire experience in this world that is the reason and cause of you wanting to remove yourself from this world…but it is not. You may think/believe that if you were to remove yourself from this world everything there inside you, you experience, all the pain and suffering, will just ago away and in the dimensions you will find rest and peace and everything will just go away…it will not and it is not so.
Solbeena – your experience of you will not change in the dimensions, because you currently think / believe that it is your situation / circumstance that is currently causing the experience within you, that the world has let you down, has left you, your family has let you down, has left you – but it is not so, this is not the truth.
The real situation is that you don’t want to live with yourself anymore – you feel broken, lost, worthless, alone, abused, bruised, torn within you – and you just want the pain and suffering to stop within you, and you think/believe that removing yourself from this world will be the solution to the pain and suffering you experience within you: It is not Solbeena – because now, each and every single human being that cross-over face all that they have accepted and allowed themselves to be and become within themselves – thus, just as you are experiencing you in this moment, you will experience the exact same within the dimensions and much more intense than what you’re ever able to imagine – because it’s not where you are in this world, nor what your current situation is in this world that is the ‘problem’ – the reason and cause for all your experiences within you is because of acceptance and allowance within you of you – nothing and no-one else is responsible.
Thus – now, each one will face their own self responsibility, face all that they have accepted and allowed within themselves – whether here on earth or in the dimensions: There is no escape from self and you will face this process of taking self responsibility for what you have accepted and allowed within you.
This is done so Solbeena – that each one must realise that each and every single one of us have been responsible for what we’ve done unto ourselves and others as ourselves within existence as what we’re currently experiencing ourselves to be: This is done through facing ourselves, facing all that we have become within ourselves and experience within ourselves, to stand up within ourselves and take self responsibility for ourselves to no more accept and allow anything less than who we are in every moment of breath, here. So that we may stop, so that we may stop all that we have become and experience within ourselves and to not ever again allow and accept such an existence again.
Removing yourself from this world is not an option, because you will not experience peace, you will not experience rest and you will not escape from all that you currently experience within you: It’s not how it works Solbeena. And I would most certainly suggest you don’t consider it – because you will then realise you made one huge mistake and that you still exist the exact same way you experienced yourself here on earth, no different, yet also more intense, and that you will in anyway have to go through processes, exactly as you would’ve here on earth – so, I suggest you apply you in this process here on earth, it is much simpler to do this process here on earth than within the dimensional existence.
So, Solbeena, I suggest you stand up within you here on earth.
I hear you, from the perspective that you have ‘tried’ to help yourself – but herein is already the problem, the problem is within the word ‘tried’. Which then actually means that you haven’t actually ever really assisted and supported yourself at all – you just continued to accept and allow the experience within you. Because the word ‘try’ is used when you have already given up on yourself and didn’t actually really stand up within you to really actually assist and support yourself effectively.
Solbeena, what I have realised in removing myself from this world is that I actually in truth was ‘looking for a solution somewhere out there outside of me’, hoping it would be in another place – and it wasn’t there where I thought/believed it to be when I removed myself from this world and that my situation in the dimensions was no different to what it would’ve been here on earth – actually it had become much worse (as seen in what I have shared).
I was so stupid to think / believe that I’d actually find a solution to the experience of me outside of me, somewhere else, separate from me – because the solution was always actually right here: ME. That it is me as who I am that matters, that makes the difference – not where I am, that I will not find the solution to what I experience by running away from it, because this is giving up – this is not self honestly taking self responsibility for me as who I am in facing all that I have accepted and allowed within me.
Solbeena, self honestly: You have not actually really taken self responsibility for you and assisted and supported you effectively within the current situation you experience yourself within. I would suggest you actually really stand up within you and take self responsibility for you as who you are. We have to start, Solbeena, we have to stop what has become of this world, we must stop what we have accepted and allowed within ourselves, we must stop what we have done unto ourselves and others as ourselves and this is not done by running away, giving up or removing you from this world – and the only place we’re able to start is here within ourselves in every moment of breath by standing up and taking self responsibility.
The greatest gift you’re able to give you is self forgiveness, where you give you to you. I suggest to really actually start applying self forgiveness for all that you experience within you. All the pain and suffering you experience within you: You apply self forgiveness for. I’d suggest you write down your experiences in detail – all that you experienced within you from the past to where you are now and as you write you apply self forgiveness. Because in such a way, through writing, you release everything within you by placing it in words before you – and together with this, actually really apply self forgiveness. This is the first step of standing up within you and taking self responsibility – by releasing everything within you through writing it down / typing and applying self forgiveness as you do so.
Then to in every moment of breath – not accept / allow your mind as thoughts/feeling/emotions to influence you within you, because have a look – it is in participating in all those thoughts/feelings and emotions within you that is causing the pain and suffering – and YOU and ONLY YOU through application of every moment of breath by stopping participation in the thoughts, feelings and emotion together with self forgiveness is able to stop what you are currently experiencing within you: Nothing and no-one else can do it for you, you must assist and support you.
Don’t accept / allow you to give up on yourself. Have a look at what you’re able to do within this world with which you’re able to assist and support you in terms of earning money and then maybe another place to stay, get out there and see what you’re able to do, look at all options that provide the ability for you to earn money, maybe even at the same time a place to stay – but you actually have to get up and do it for you – be the solution and direct you and the experience within your world in such a way within which you’re able to assist and support you effectively. And also within this assist and support you within practical application in not accepting / allowing anything less than who you are. You have to direct you and your world – do not wait for something to happen for you, direct you and your world in such a way sop you may assist and support you effectively as you assist and support you within this process.
If you require any further assistance with regards to self forgiveness: Let us know – we’re here to assist and support you.
Uersti
Questions and Perspectives: Shamanism, Chakras and Pendulums
Questions and Perspectives: Shamanism, Chakras and Pendulums
Transcribed and typed by Alice A. Bailey through the interdimensional portal
Date : 14/11/2007
Question:I have such deep gratitude for all you are sharing with us. It has
shattered all my beliefs and that was very hard, I will continue to read
and work on stopping my mind. I have been studying Shamanism for a while
now and when I saw the video about the chakras had that „gut“ feeling that
shamanism – what I had really thought was my path, was also falling apart.
In shamanism we use the chakras to do healing work and see how energy is
moving through the body – where it is „stuck“ For a while now – before I
read and saw your videos, I couldn't connect with my chakras during
meditations, but do notice other people's chakras spinning when using a
pendulum. I haven't tried recently and will as soon as I can. If that is
the case – and the chakras are not releasing heavy energy – as I was
taught they do – where or how is the light or heavy energy released? Do
you have any advise – do we even need shamans now? Thank you
Love, Kathy
Perspective:
Hi Kathy
We have discovered that this world, within which all of humanity experience themselves: Has been a lie – a ‘lie’ from the perspective that this world and all that humanity experience together, as each and every single individual human being – has been a manifested design of the mind consciousness system within human beings as thoughts, feelings and emotions which human beings have come to believe and perspective themselves to be, manifesting the unified consciousness field, which has become this world and the experience of humanity within it: All a mind ‘creation’.
So, in terms, even of what you see with your human physical eyes, it is actually you as your mind consciousness system seeing through your human physical eyes, within and as the unified consciousness field – you’re not actually seeing ‘what is real’, what your eyes are seeing is this ‘reality’ as the ‘mind creation’ – and so the energy and chakra’s you’re seeing – are of the mind within and as the unified consciousness field. Energy in itself is also a mind creation – energy does not exist as who you really are, who you really are is infinitely constant and stable and is not ‘a slave to’ energy fluctuations – see, in the interdimensional existence – we do not consist of energy, vibration or frequency as all this is of the ‘mind creation’ within human beings and within this world – we are sound, not the sound of this world as you come to understand or define sound to be, no, we are sound expression, the sound harmonic as we stand as all as one as equal within and as each and every single individual human being, assist and supporting you as ourselves.
I am giving some material to read through and watch, for you to have a complete understanding of what I am saying, and have explained above, if you have any further questions: Ask!
Here is also an interesting perspective on Chakra’s based on a painting illustration which give insight:
Here’s perspective regarding the painting:
(Picture from: http://www.babainstitute.org/alex3.jpg)
1. Let’s start with the gridline structures:
This is exactly what the gridline structures interdimensionally look on earth within and as human beings and also the world: What is referred to as the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ to which the unconscious mind of all of humanity was connected to.
2. The yellow circular structure around the mind/brain/head area represents the ‘God Consciousness’ signature. And it also represents where human beings would ‘connect’ to the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ and then have a Euphoric ‘God-like Essence’ experience during meditation.
3. Then you have the chakra points indicated – the chakra points are actually specific emotional and feeling mind consciousness point centers – the Chakra manifested Construct actually designed by Demons, later used by the White Light construct, within and as human beings – as each Chakra centre contained a specific energetic which they preferred to ‘drink from’ to maintain their existence from within the Demon dimension. See – Demons were dependant on emotional and feeling compound energy within human beings to have the ability to exist. Each Chakra centre had a interdimensional plug-in system within the human physical body – with pipelines running from the Chakra point to the plug-in points and so the Demons literally ‘sucked-out’ the necessary amount of energy they required. The pipeline structures connected the Chakra centers (allocated in the centre of your human physical body, all connected together by a ‘pillar structure’) with the plug-in points (within the muscle tissue of your human physical body). By the plug-in points there were round circular structures within which the specific emotional/feeling energy would flow – and once they’re filled – the Demons would have their drink.
From the White Light perspective they used these Charka centre plug-in points to inject implants or information within and as the mind consciousness systems as the Chakra Construct was ‘connected’ to the mind consciousness system within and as human beings.
We’ve removed this entire Chakra Construct within human beings entirely – though such an idea of the existence of Chakra’s still exists within their mind based on memory.
4. The indicated circle around the human being is the Aura – the Aura is but the resonance of the emotional and feeling energy contained within the Chakra centers which also permeate within and as the entire human physical body as also indicated within this picture/painting. Therefore – the Aura only exist as a round circular formation around the being – separation and limitation.
5. The colours indicated within and as this being – the exact colours of the Chakra centers is how the emotional and feeling energy move within and as the human physical body constantly and continuously – emotions and feelings divided according to colour and section of the Chakra centers – remaining within and as their specific individual movements according to how they’re allocated according to the Chakra centers.
As in the picture/painting presented is what it looks like within human beings as emotional and feeling energy movement looked like within human beings.
The only difference now is that everything within and as human beings is compacted and compounded and inverted within to face and deal with appropriately for necessary transcendences, self realisation and self revelation.
A system drawing/painting a system.
So – the above picture/painting is exactly how humans as mind consciousness systems used to look like interdimensionally within this consciousness systems’ existence – though, not as apparently ‘beautifully’ presented here in this picture/painting – much ‘worse’.
Now – each and every single individual human beings’ process of self – is inverted, in other words – each human being within this world is in the process of facing all of themselves, each facing what we have accepted and allowed within this existence – so we may see / realise / understand what we have accepted and allowed – to within this, stand up, take self responsibility – begin the process as the breath to stop the mind – because it is the very mind we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – that has manifested the experience of not only ourselves within this world – but for all of humanity as existence.
And so we live the statement of no longer accepting / allowing anything less than who we are in every moment as every breath. I understand that all that I mention may sound strange and confusing so here is another perspective that will assist further:
Question:
‘How am I to function at work if I must „think“ to perform my duties? Am I right in believing I am to function on intuition and in awareness of who I am at all times? Is that all that is required to be free from the matrix?’
Perspective:
Yes – it’s interesting – we also refer to the unified consciousness field as: The Matrix. The unified consciousness field being that which is manifested and designed as humanities current experience of themselves in this world – the unified consciousness field manifested and designed through the connection and interconnection of all human beings’ unconscious mind’s – connecting and interconnecting all human beings as mind consciousness systems.
Thus – the mind is the very ‘thing’ within each human being of thought, feeling and emotion – that has / is manifesting and designing the unified consciousness field – look at the world at what it has become as human beings of mind as thought, feeling and emotion: Innocent children being raped, molested and abused, starvation, poverty, war, murder, violence – the barbaric nature of man as mind currently manifesting as an actual experience – humanity reflecting the very nature of the mind they have accepted and allowed themselves to become:
But no-one actually sees it – no-one wants to see it – because in realising that each one is individually responsible for what we have accepted and allowed – comes great sorrow/shame/regret – but we have to and we must – we have to stand up within ourselves and face what we have accepted and allowed to exist within this world and take self responsibility – this self responsibility is stopping the mind – the mind the very ‘thing’ that has manifested and designed the experience of ourselves and all of humanity.
Thus – so many human beings ‘believe’ that they need to ‘think’ to participate / function within this world of necessary duties to have the ability to exist and survive here – believe that to live is to think – to function is to think – to participate is to think: This is indeed, most definitely not so. And I would not have stated this if it has not yet been proven infinitely – it has been proven that you do not need to think or be of mind to live, participate, function and ‘perform duties’.
Though – to you this is but knowledge – you must prove this to yourself through the practical application methods suggested in the material on the website and video interviews. This process of stopping the mind takes 7 years of absolute self dedication and self commitment and self discipline of practical living application – what is 7 years of your existence if you have existed for eons of time – lost in an illusion that wasn’t real – to birth yourself – realise yourself as the nature you really are as life…
The practical methods of stopping the mind within this process are the following:
To be ‘free’ from the Matrix – is to be in this world but not be of this world – meaning that you are not defined as who you are according to anything or anyone in and of this world – but you stand absolute within you as you – not influenced, moved, controlled, directed by anyone or anything separate from you – this includes your own mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Here are videos and material I suggest you watch and read that’ll assist:
1. Veno Structural Resonance:
The Structural Resonance documents represents the practical process of stopping the mind – Read the Part One and Part Two section first for perspective on what the Structural Resonance entails – then the Part Four section for practical application (Part Three will be done last – Part Four still in completion)
http://www.desteni-universe.co.za/…ownearth.htm (Scroll down for Veno Structural Resonance Section)
2. Hitler’s experience
Hitler’s experience will give you much perspective of the process of self forgiveness and self standing and self responsibility – a tough read – but well worth it
http://www.desteni-universe.co.za/knownEarth.htm (Scroll down for the Hitler Section)
3. http://www.desteni-universe.co.za/Osho/Jesus4.htm – article by Jesus on Responsibility
Transcribed and typed by Alice A. Bailey through the interdimensional portal
Date : 14/11/2007
Question:I have such deep gratitude for all you are sharing with us. It has
shattered all my beliefs and that was very hard, I will continue to read
and work on stopping my mind. I have been studying Shamanism for a while
now and when I saw the video about the chakras had that „gut“ feeling that
shamanism – what I had really thought was my path, was also falling apart.
In shamanism we use the chakras to do healing work and see how energy is
moving through the body – where it is „stuck“ For a while now – before I
read and saw your videos, I couldn't connect with my chakras during
meditations, but do notice other people's chakras spinning when using a
pendulum. I haven't tried recently and will as soon as I can. If that is
the case – and the chakras are not releasing heavy energy – as I was
taught they do – where or how is the light or heavy energy released? Do
you have any advise – do we even need shamans now? Thank you
Love, Kathy
Perspective:
Hi Kathy
We have discovered that this world, within which all of humanity experience themselves: Has been a lie – a ‘lie’ from the perspective that this world and all that humanity experience together, as each and every single individual human being – has been a manifested design of the mind consciousness system within human beings as thoughts, feelings and emotions which human beings have come to believe and perspective themselves to be, manifesting the unified consciousness field, which has become this world and the experience of humanity within it: All a mind ‘creation’.
So, in terms, even of what you see with your human physical eyes, it is actually you as your mind consciousness system seeing through your human physical eyes, within and as the unified consciousness field – you’re not actually seeing ‘what is real’, what your eyes are seeing is this ‘reality’ as the ‘mind creation’ – and so the energy and chakra’s you’re seeing – are of the mind within and as the unified consciousness field. Energy in itself is also a mind creation – energy does not exist as who you really are, who you really are is infinitely constant and stable and is not ‘a slave to’ energy fluctuations – see, in the interdimensional existence – we do not consist of energy, vibration or frequency as all this is of the ‘mind creation’ within human beings and within this world – we are sound, not the sound of this world as you come to understand or define sound to be, no, we are sound expression, the sound harmonic as we stand as all as one as equal within and as each and every single individual human being, assist and supporting you as ourselves.
I am giving some material to read through and watch, for you to have a complete understanding of what I am saying, and have explained above, if you have any further questions: Ask!
Here is also an interesting perspective on Chakra’s based on a painting illustration which give insight:
Here’s perspective regarding the painting:
(Picture from: http://www.babainstitute.org/alex3.jpg)
1. Let’s start with the gridline structures:
This is exactly what the gridline structures interdimensionally look on earth within and as human beings and also the world: What is referred to as the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ to which the unconscious mind of all of humanity was connected to.
2. The yellow circular structure around the mind/brain/head area represents the ‘God Consciousness’ signature. And it also represents where human beings would ‘connect’ to the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ and then have a Euphoric ‘God-like Essence’ experience during meditation.
3. Then you have the chakra points indicated – the chakra points are actually specific emotional and feeling mind consciousness point centers – the Chakra manifested Construct actually designed by Demons, later used by the White Light construct, within and as human beings – as each Chakra centre contained a specific energetic which they preferred to ‘drink from’ to maintain their existence from within the Demon dimension. See – Demons were dependant on emotional and feeling compound energy within human beings to have the ability to exist. Each Chakra centre had a interdimensional plug-in system within the human physical body – with pipelines running from the Chakra point to the plug-in points and so the Demons literally ‘sucked-out’ the necessary amount of energy they required. The pipeline structures connected the Chakra centers (allocated in the centre of your human physical body, all connected together by a ‘pillar structure’) with the plug-in points (within the muscle tissue of your human physical body). By the plug-in points there were round circular structures within which the specific emotional/feeling energy would flow – and once they’re filled – the Demons would have their drink.
From the White Light perspective they used these Charka centre plug-in points to inject implants or information within and as the mind consciousness systems as the Chakra Construct was ‘connected’ to the mind consciousness system within and as human beings.
We’ve removed this entire Chakra Construct within human beings entirely – though such an idea of the existence of Chakra’s still exists within their mind based on memory.
4. The indicated circle around the human being is the Aura – the Aura is but the resonance of the emotional and feeling energy contained within the Chakra centers which also permeate within and as the entire human physical body as also indicated within this picture/painting. Therefore – the Aura only exist as a round circular formation around the being – separation and limitation.
5. The colours indicated within and as this being – the exact colours of the Chakra centers is how the emotional and feeling energy move within and as the human physical body constantly and continuously – emotions and feelings divided according to colour and section of the Chakra centers – remaining within and as their specific individual movements according to how they’re allocated according to the Chakra centers.
As in the picture/painting presented is what it looks like within human beings as emotional and feeling energy movement looked like within human beings.
The only difference now is that everything within and as human beings is compacted and compounded and inverted within to face and deal with appropriately for necessary transcendences, self realisation and self revelation.
A system drawing/painting a system.
So – the above picture/painting is exactly how humans as mind consciousness systems used to look like interdimensionally within this consciousness systems’ existence – though, not as apparently ‘beautifully’ presented here in this picture/painting – much ‘worse’.
Now – each and every single individual human beings’ process of self – is inverted, in other words – each human being within this world is in the process of facing all of themselves, each facing what we have accepted and allowed within this existence – so we may see / realise / understand what we have accepted and allowed – to within this, stand up, take self responsibility – begin the process as the breath to stop the mind – because it is the very mind we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become – that has manifested the experience of not only ourselves within this world – but for all of humanity as existence.
And so we live the statement of no longer accepting / allowing anything less than who we are in every moment as every breath. I understand that all that I mention may sound strange and confusing so here is another perspective that will assist further:
Question:
‘How am I to function at work if I must „think“ to perform my duties? Am I right in believing I am to function on intuition and in awareness of who I am at all times? Is that all that is required to be free from the matrix?’
Perspective:
Yes – it’s interesting – we also refer to the unified consciousness field as: The Matrix. The unified consciousness field being that which is manifested and designed as humanities current experience of themselves in this world – the unified consciousness field manifested and designed through the connection and interconnection of all human beings’ unconscious mind’s – connecting and interconnecting all human beings as mind consciousness systems.
Thus – the mind is the very ‘thing’ within each human being of thought, feeling and emotion – that has / is manifesting and designing the unified consciousness field – look at the world at what it has become as human beings of mind as thought, feeling and emotion: Innocent children being raped, molested and abused, starvation, poverty, war, murder, violence – the barbaric nature of man as mind currently manifesting as an actual experience – humanity reflecting the very nature of the mind they have accepted and allowed themselves to become:
But no-one actually sees it – no-one wants to see it – because in realising that each one is individually responsible for what we have accepted and allowed – comes great sorrow/shame/regret – but we have to and we must – we have to stand up within ourselves and face what we have accepted and allowed to exist within this world and take self responsibility – this self responsibility is stopping the mind – the mind the very ‘thing’ that has manifested and designed the experience of ourselves and all of humanity.
Thus – so many human beings ‘believe’ that they need to ‘think’ to participate / function within this world of necessary duties to have the ability to exist and survive here – believe that to live is to think – to function is to think – to participate is to think: This is indeed, most definitely not so. And I would not have stated this if it has not yet been proven infinitely – it has been proven that you do not need to think or be of mind to live, participate, function and ‘perform duties’.
Though – to you this is but knowledge – you must prove this to yourself through the practical application methods suggested in the material on the website and video interviews. This process of stopping the mind takes 7 years of absolute self dedication and self commitment and self discipline of practical living application – what is 7 years of your existence if you have existed for eons of time – lost in an illusion that wasn’t real – to birth yourself – realise yourself as the nature you really are as life…
The practical methods of stopping the mind within this process are the following:
To be ‘free’ from the Matrix – is to be in this world but not be of this world – meaning that you are not defined as who you are according to anything or anyone in and of this world – but you stand absolute within you as you – not influenced, moved, controlled, directed by anyone or anything separate from you – this includes your own mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Here are videos and material I suggest you watch and read that’ll assist:
1. Veno Structural Resonance:
The Structural Resonance documents represents the practical process of stopping the mind – Read the Part One and Part Two section first for perspective on what the Structural Resonance entails – then the Part Four section for practical application (Part Three will be done last – Part Four still in completion)
http://www.desteni-universe.co.za/…ownearth.htm (Scroll down for Veno Structural Resonance Section)
2. Hitler’s experience
Hitler’s experience will give you much perspective of the process of self forgiveness and self standing and self responsibility – a tough read – but well worth it
http://www.desteni-universe.co.za/knownEarth.htm (Scroll down for the Hitler Section)
3. http://www.desteni-universe.co.za/Osho/Jesus4.htm – article by Jesus on Responsibility
Questions and Perspectives: Tattoos, Piercings and Chakras
Questions and Perspectives: Tattoos, Piercings and Chakras
Transcribed and typed Jack through the interdimensional portal
Original Article: http://www.desteni.co.za/a/questions-and-perspectives-tatoos-piercings-and-chakras
Date : 19/10/2007
Question: Please explain more about piercings, tattoos and whether they affect chakras. Perspective: Hi
Tattoos and piercing of the human physical body have no effect on anything whatsoever but the value, worth or meaning you give it within and as your mind as well as the reason for doing it. If tattoos or piercing is done for you: Fine – though if it’s done for a separate reason outside of yourself: You will be a slave to the tattoo or piercing done because it’ll control you from the perspective that it has ‘more meaning’ or ‘more value’ that you yourself as who you are.
Chakras no longer exist – chakras were of the mind consciousness system design to support separation. Here is a document done – where perspective was given of the mind consciousness system of human beings from a picture:
Hi Mr.T
Here’s perspective regarding the painting:
(Picture from: http://www.babainstitute.org/alex3.jpg)
1. Let’s start with the gridline structures:
This is exactly what the gridline structures interdimensionally look on earth within and as human beings and also the world: What is referred to as the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ to which the unconscious mind of all of humanity was connected to.
2. The yellow circular structure around the mind/brain/head area represents the ‘God Consciousness’ signature. And it also represents where human beings would ‘connect’ to the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ and then have a Euphoric ‘God-like Essence’ experience during meditation.
3. Then you have the chakra points indicated – the chakra points are actually specific emotional and feeling mind consciousness point centers – the Chakra manifested Construct actually designed by Demons, later used by the White Light construct, within and as human beings – as each Chakra centre contained a specific energetic which they preferred to ‘drink from’ to maintain their existence from within the Demon dimension. See – Demons were dependant on emotional and feeling compound energy within human beings to have the ability to exist. Each Chakra centre had a interdimensional plug-in system within the human physical body – with pipelines running from the Chakra point to the plug-in points and so the Demons literally ‘sucked-out’ the necessary amount of energy they required. The pipeline structures connected the Chakra centers (allocated in the centre of your human physical body, all connected together by a ‘pillar structure’) with the plug-in points (within the muscle tissue of your human physical body). By the plug-in points there were round circular structures within which the specific emotional/feeling energy would flow – and once they’re filled – the Demons would have their drink.
From the White Light perspective they used these Charka centre plug-in points to inject implants or information within and as the mind consciousness systems as the Chakra Construct was ‘connected’ to the mind consciousness system within and as human beings.
We’ve removed this entire Chakra Construct within human beings entirely – though such an idea of the existence of Chakra’s still exists within their mind based on memory.
4. The indicated circle around the human being is the Aura – the Aura is but the resonance of the emotional and feeling energy contained within the Chakra centers which also permeate within and as the entire human physical body as also indicated within this picture/painting. Therefore – the Aura only exist as a round circular formation around the being – separation and limitation.
5. The colours indicated within and as this being – the exact colours of the Chakra centers is how the emotional and feeling energy move within and as the human physical body constantly and continuously – emotions and feelings divided according to colour and section of the Chakra centers – remaining within and as their specific individual movements according to how they’re allocated according to the Chakra centers.
As in the picture/painting presented is what it looks like within human beings as emotional and feeling energy movement looked like within human beings.
The only difference now is that everything within and as human beings is compacted and compounded and inverted within to face and deal with appropriately for necessary transcendences, self realisation and self revelation.
A system drawing/painting a system.
So – the above picture/painting is exactly how humans as mind consciousness systems used to look like interdimensionally within this consciousness systems’ existence – though, not as apparently ‘beautifully’ presented here in this picture/painting – much ‘worse’.
Jack
Transcribed and typed Jack through the interdimensional portal
Original Article: http://www.desteni.co.za/a/questions-and-perspectives-tatoos-piercings-and-chakras
Date : 19/10/2007
Question: Please explain more about piercings, tattoos and whether they affect chakras. Perspective: Hi
Tattoos and piercing of the human physical body have no effect on anything whatsoever but the value, worth or meaning you give it within and as your mind as well as the reason for doing it. If tattoos or piercing is done for you: Fine – though if it’s done for a separate reason outside of yourself: You will be a slave to the tattoo or piercing done because it’ll control you from the perspective that it has ‘more meaning’ or ‘more value’ that you yourself as who you are.
Chakras no longer exist – chakras were of the mind consciousness system design to support separation. Here is a document done – where perspective was given of the mind consciousness system of human beings from a picture:
Hi Mr.T
Here’s perspective regarding the painting:
(Picture from: http://www.babainstitute.org/alex3.jpg)
1. Let’s start with the gridline structures:
This is exactly what the gridline structures interdimensionally look on earth within and as human beings and also the world: What is referred to as the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ to which the unconscious mind of all of humanity was connected to.
2. The yellow circular structure around the mind/brain/head area represents the ‘God Consciousness’ signature. And it also represents where human beings would ‘connect’ to the ‘Unified Consciousness Field’ and then have a Euphoric ‘God-like Essence’ experience during meditation.
3. Then you have the chakra points indicated – the chakra points are actually specific emotional and feeling mind consciousness point centers – the Chakra manifested Construct actually designed by Demons, later used by the White Light construct, within and as human beings – as each Chakra centre contained a specific energetic which they preferred to ‘drink from’ to maintain their existence from within the Demon dimension. See – Demons were dependant on emotional and feeling compound energy within human beings to have the ability to exist. Each Chakra centre had a interdimensional plug-in system within the human physical body – with pipelines running from the Chakra point to the plug-in points and so the Demons literally ‘sucked-out’ the necessary amount of energy they required. The pipeline structures connected the Chakra centers (allocated in the centre of your human physical body, all connected together by a ‘pillar structure’) with the plug-in points (within the muscle tissue of your human physical body). By the plug-in points there were round circular structures within which the specific emotional/feeling energy would flow – and once they’re filled – the Demons would have their drink.
From the White Light perspective they used these Charka centre plug-in points to inject implants or information within and as the mind consciousness systems as the Chakra Construct was ‘connected’ to the mind consciousness system within and as human beings.
We’ve removed this entire Chakra Construct within human beings entirely – though such an idea of the existence of Chakra’s still exists within their mind based on memory.
4. The indicated circle around the human being is the Aura – the Aura is but the resonance of the emotional and feeling energy contained within the Chakra centers which also permeate within and as the entire human physical body as also indicated within this picture/painting. Therefore – the Aura only exist as a round circular formation around the being – separation and limitation.
5. The colours indicated within and as this being – the exact colours of the Chakra centers is how the emotional and feeling energy move within and as the human physical body constantly and continuously – emotions and feelings divided according to colour and section of the Chakra centers – remaining within and as their specific individual movements according to how they’re allocated according to the Chakra centers.
As in the picture/painting presented is what it looks like within human beings as emotional and feeling energy movement looked like within human beings.
The only difference now is that everything within and as human beings is compacted and compounded and inverted within to face and deal with appropriately for necessary transcendences, self realisation and self revelation.
A system drawing/painting a system.
So – the above picture/painting is exactly how humans as mind consciousness systems used to look like interdimensionally within this consciousness systems’ existence – though, not as apparently ‘beautifully’ presented here in this picture/painting – much ‘worse’.
Jack
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Questions and Perspectives: Speaking in Tongues
Questions and Perspectives: Speaking in Tongues
Transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensional portal
original Article: http://desteni.co.za/a/questions-and-perspectives-speaking-in-tongues
Date : 17/10/2007
Question:
If anyone could explain to me what they KNOW about the religious experience in which an individual ‚Speaks in Tongues‘ and then another being will give an interpretation, I would appreciate your knowledge regarding this subject.
Perspective:
The ‘speaking in tongues' ‘scenario / events' – were all of the pre-programmed mind consciousness system within human beings.
Such human beings who would apparently ‘miraculously' have the ability to ‘speak in tongues' has a specific interdimensional mind-switch system stored beneath their unconscious mind placement that is designed to be activated when specific words are spoken by another human being.
When a human being thus speak the specific words – the other human beings' mind switch activates and the programmed language that was manifested and designed within the stored placement underneath their unconscious mind activates – and then infiltrates the human beings entire mind consciousness system – presenting the presentation that the being is ‘possessed' of sorts and then has the ability to apparently ‘speak in tongues.'
Such moments are all ‘part of' the design of the pre-programmed / pre-ordained lives of the mind consciousness systems of human beings.
Thus – ‘speaking in tongues' is but a placement implanted within only certain human beings to be activated when specific words are spoken and then infiltrate the entire mind of the being – a programmed design of speaking languages.
Human beings that still ‘speak in tongues' – a mind f—k – we are giving this direction. Though – if we were to remove this placement the human being would die as it is ‘part of' the human beings entire mind consciousness system – therefore it has the ability to infiltrate the human beings' mind entirely and ‘take it over' for but a moment.
Thus – such human beings will either get here and understand their experience or remove themselves if they know they'd be more effective in the dimensions than here on earth to have the ability to realise who they really are.
Transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensional portal
original Article: http://desteni.co.za/a/questions-and-perspectives-speaking-in-tongues
Date : 17/10/2007
Question:
If anyone could explain to me what they KNOW about the religious experience in which an individual ‚Speaks in Tongues‘ and then another being will give an interpretation, I would appreciate your knowledge regarding this subject.
Perspective:
The ‘speaking in tongues' ‘scenario / events' – were all of the pre-programmed mind consciousness system within human beings.
Such human beings who would apparently ‘miraculously' have the ability to ‘speak in tongues' has a specific interdimensional mind-switch system stored beneath their unconscious mind placement that is designed to be activated when specific words are spoken by another human being.
When a human being thus speak the specific words – the other human beings' mind switch activates and the programmed language that was manifested and designed within the stored placement underneath their unconscious mind activates – and then infiltrates the human beings entire mind consciousness system – presenting the presentation that the being is ‘possessed' of sorts and then has the ability to apparently ‘speak in tongues.'
Such moments are all ‘part of' the design of the pre-programmed / pre-ordained lives of the mind consciousness systems of human beings.
Thus – ‘speaking in tongues' is but a placement implanted within only certain human beings to be activated when specific words are spoken and then infiltrate the entire mind of the being – a programmed design of speaking languages.
Human beings that still ‘speak in tongues' – a mind f—k – we are giving this direction. Though – if we were to remove this placement the human being would die as it is ‘part of' the human beings entire mind consciousness system – therefore it has the ability to infiltrate the human beings' mind entirely and ‘take it over' for but a moment.
Thus – such human beings will either get here and understand their experience or remove themselves if they know they'd be more effective in the dimensions than here on earth to have the ability to realise who they really are.
Questions and Perspectives: Out of Body Traveling
Questions and Perspectives: Out of Body Traveling
Transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensional portal
Date : 17/10/2007
Question:
Can you travel anywhere in the world and then meet with an individual while they sleep and then assist them in leaving their body and taking them on a journey to another dimension?
Perspective:
We're within and as human beings in every moment of every breath – you do not require to leave your body because everything of you as who you are is here within and as you – we as you as all that you are is here within and as you – not necessary to leave your body.
There aren't any other dimensions – we're here within and as human beings – we're here – all that exist is this existence – though we have a placement within the dimensions where the beings that cross over experience their processed – when done – they're within and as a human being assisting and supporting and directing the human being as one as them.
No human being in this world will ‘leave' their body unless they die.
Transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensional portal
Date : 17/10/2007
Question:
Can you travel anywhere in the world and then meet with an individual while they sleep and then assist them in leaving their body and taking them on a journey to another dimension?
Perspective:
We're within and as human beings in every moment of every breath – you do not require to leave your body because everything of you as who you are is here within and as you – we as you as all that you are is here within and as you – not necessary to leave your body.
There aren't any other dimensions – we're here within and as human beings – we're here – all that exist is this existence – though we have a placement within the dimensions where the beings that cross over experience their processed – when done – they're within and as a human being assisting and supporting and directing the human being as one as them.
No human being in this world will ‘leave' their body unless they die.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Osho - The Power of Here vs. the Power of Now
Osho - The Power of Here vs. the Power of Now
transcribed and typed by Osho through the interdimensional portal
Date : 30/04/2007
Yes, here is a difference within the application and experience of oneself whether you are in here of awareness or in the now of consciousness – the difference would be your own choice of two exceptionally different experiences of oneself. The one as the now in consciousness – the probability of death of yourself within this world due to the consequences of such a choice in expression and experience of yourself – could be inevitable. The one as here in awareness – the definitive birth of yourself within this world due to the standing up and making a statement of who you really are – walking and talking the choice of existing here in every moment as who you are – with such a choice in expression and experience of yourself.
Now of Consciousness
Specificity – Each one on earth at the moment are existing in the now of consciousness within experience and expression as who they are. The now of consciousness is as vast as the universe itself – with the stars and planets expressing themselves within. Each one's life, experience of themselves and expression of themselves here on earth – from birth ‘till death do us part – is the now of consciousness. The now of consciousness has a beginning and an end with the beginning as birth and the end as death. There is unfortunately no way out of this network of the now of consciousness – unless each one makes a different choice – the equalizer between the Power of Here vs. the Power of Now would be the Power of Choice. Once each one make this choice – they make a statement of who they are and who they will be through becoming this choice as a statement of who they are and remaining with this choice no matter what. Consciousness is a network, one lock into this network during the process of birth, as this network stretches across and within and throughout the entire world movement.
Let's take the world in this moment of structure and each human being experiencing themselves within as a bumper car structure at a show for instance – the network above which allows for the bumper cars to remain connected with sparks flying in all directions as it moves – is the network of and within the world – the network that allows human beings to remain in the now of consciousness. The bumper cars itself within the arena are all human beings on earth – the world with human beings within participating within a bumper car experience. The one's riding and driving these bumper cars as human beings are consciousness with each human being as its slave – being driven and directed as to where to go and what to experience and express as who they are through consciousness being in control of themselves as the bumper cars.
Observe – even bumper cars have a beginning and an end with the opportunity of experience in the centre of the two, while still connected to the network above with the sparks flying in all directions. The starting up of the bumper cars is the beginning during the birth period of each human being with the sparks flying on the roof of the network – sending an impulse signal through the entire network of the world. Within this moment connecting to the network of the world ready to become one with the world of consciousness through participation and experience within the now of consciousness. This moment arrives – the starting point of the experience of oneself within the now of consciousness is the moment the bumper cars as each human beings starts – with the sparks flying above – connecting oneself to the network of the world of consciousness – the now.
The movement of oneself as the bumper cars is the moment of experiencing oneself within the connected realms of consciousness networks within the world – the moment of experiencing oneself within the now of consciousness. During this experience of oneself within the now of consciousness as the bumper cars as human beings, they are being driven by consciousness as who they become. Consciousness consisting of thoughts, emotions, memories, feelings, beliefs, perceptions, ideas etc. places itself in the driving position of the experience and expression of each human being on earth as who they become.
Consciousness becoming the directive control of each human being as bumper car, connected to the now of consciousness – both in their individual lives as well as the world. The more they participate, the more consciousness within the driving position allows for sparks to fly within the networks of consciousness of the world. This allowing all other human beings as bumper cars being driven by consciousness to remain in the now of consciousness until death do us part.
The sparks flying during each human beings life as experience and expression of who they are within the now of consciousness as and with consciousness in the driving seat – the sparks constantly and continuously sending signals to the entire network of the now of consciousness within the world. Compounding this to allow and support all other human beings as bumper cars being driven by consciousness as who they have become – to remain in the now of consciousness as this entire systematic network of the world is constantly continuously being fed through all human beings being driven by consciousness.
Through sending sparks as signals through the network of the world as the now of consciousness – the beginning as birth and the end as death, with the experience of oneself in the centre of these two inevitabilities – controlled and directed by consciousness as who each human being become through acceptances and allowances of who they are as consciousness. The end of the bumper car experience, when they stop and the sparks stop flying above the network of the world as the now of consciousness – the human being as bumper car has reached its end – the death of the human being.
The moment consciousness as driver steps out, leaving the stopped bumper car behind – the human being becomes an empty shell, buried six feet under. No human being in this world knows when they are to die – death is controlled by consciousness as who you have become within the experience and expression of yourself within the now of consciousness as your entire life and all it entails. Consciousness as the driver in control decides when the bumper cars as who each human being is stops – no more sending sparks and signals throughout and within the network of the world – also supporting human beings individually to remain in the now of consciousness as the beginning and the end of their life cycle.
The moment the sparks stop flying, the signals being sent through the network of the world as the now of consciousness is no more – this disconnection within participation and experience of oneself within the world of consciousness as the now of consciousness – is an indication of death. See, the beginning, the experience and the end within the now of consciousness – sending sparks as signals throughout the network of the world as each human being connect to the now of consciousness – feeding this networks worth and value – supporting all others to remain within the network of the now of consciousness – being driven, directed and controlled by consciousness.
Now imagine – each refraction of a spark is a signal you send through the network of the world within the now of consciousness as an experience of yourself as who you have become – creating a ripple effect throughout the entire network of the world – supporting and assisting each human being to remain in the now of consciousness. This is how each human being as bumper car with consciousness as who they have become in the driving seat of themselves – controlling and directing the experience and expression of themselves during their lifetime from beginning to end.
Human beings as bumper cars create and prepare the way for consciousness to direct and control them accordingly. See, the sparks, every refraction of a spark, sends a signal throughout the entire network of the world of the now of consciousness. The moment every refraction of a spark sends through a signal in the network of the world of the now of consciousness – the ripple effects extends throughout and within the network of the world of the now of consciousness. With every refraction of a spark, sending ripple effects throughout the network, the ripple effects compound and the signals that are sent throughout the network of the world – assist and support the ripple effects to become and manifest as the road map of the life experience of the human being as bumper cars which is followed by consciousness as driver.
The compound ripple effects not only affect the human beings' individual life experience – but also all human beings' life experience within the rest of the world. The bumper car as the human being places and establishes a road map for consciousness who's in the driving seat of experience of themselves as who they have allowed and accepted themselves to become as controlled and directed slaves.
Consciousness follow and move according to the already prepared road map with starting point and destination already lay out before it. Human beings extensively unaware of the road map already lain out before them – as they as bumper cars being driven, directed and controlled by consciousness – are in no way in control or directive power of their own individual lives within the now of consciousness.
The sparks as signals creating a compounding ripple effect as human beings through their participation within the now of consciousness as they prepare the way before consciousness – occur way above and beyond them as bumper cars. The bumper cars as human beings are at the bottom, firmly placed on the ground – with an antenna connected to the network of the world as the now of consciousness – driven, controlled and directed by consciousness.
Human beings only experience themselves as the bumper cars, not seeing, realizing or understanding the existence of themselves beyond being a bumper car. Unaware of the sparks flying above sending signals throughout the network of the world – preparing their own road map through the compounding of a ripple effect – allowing them the experience of themselves within the world of consciousness which consciousness as who they have become directs them within. Unaware that their road map is laid out before them through consciousness climbing into them – driving the road map to its destination. Once the destination is reached – consciousness removes itself and the human being becomes an empty shell – forever remaining at the destination which is death – rotting six feet under while worms and insects beneath experience utopia.
So, human beings are preparing the way before consciousness as who they have become through every refractional movement within them – be it feeling, emotion, thought – participations within beliefs and memories, deception and lies – which consciousness follow to manifest as an experience of the human being within their life as the now of consciousness. A ripple effect is caused, human beings, the moment a mere refraction is allowed within you – once these ripples continue constantly – it manifests the experiences of yourself within this world. As these ripple effects caused by you extends throughout the network of the world – preparing the way before you as your life experience as a road map – manifesting most experiences within the world each human being endures through which consciousness as who you have become directs you.
So when you experience an effect in your experience of yourself during this lifetime, asking the question: “Why did this happen to me?” or “How did this happen to me?” – You must realize, see and understand that you yourself actually manifested the effect, the experience of yourself through participating within the now of consciousness. Doing exactly this through sending ripple effects throughout the network of the world by refractions being allowed within you – consciousness as whom you have become merely directing you on the road map already prepared by you, you being the cause of the effects in your life's experience – each and every single one.
The fuckup is within the now of consciousness – your road map already prepared and lain down before consciousness to direct you within – you have no inclination or clue or idea or remembrance of how you exactly created this road map which consciousness directs and controls you within and as. You have no inclination or clue or idea or remembrance of each and every single refraction as spark and signal you have already sent through the network of the world within the now of consciousness – as cause of the effects experienced as consequences within your life – during the experience of yourself within the now of consciousness with beginning and end as inevitability.
This is the now of consciousness explained human beings – your life and experience and expression of yourselves within which you have already prepared the way before you – you are the cause of all the events in your now of consciousness life. You are the answer to the questions “Why did this happen to me?” or “How did this happen to me?” Which you are not even able to remember as to how you designed and created these consequential effects as events as the experience of yourselves within this world in the first place – as consciousness has taken the position of the driver’s seat within and as your life and experiences within – over which you have no control or directive power.
You have become a follower and a slave of consciousness – experiencing the effects of the cause that is you – which you aren't able to remember you designed and created in the first place through refractional participation and allowances within you which caused a ripple effect – laying down the road map of your life before you, within which consciousness has become the directive power and control over and of.
It's quite simplistic to place into perspective the experience of the world with human beings within. Human beings as bumper cars – consciousness as drivers in directive control – the bumper cars as human beings unaware of the signaled sparks being sent within and throughout the network of the world – preparing the way before consciousness to direct them according to the way they have prepared through the refractional compound effect of participations and allowances in their entire experience of themselves within the now of consciousness.
Experiencing themselves within the now of consciousness from beginning to end the manifested effects as directed by consciousness – of the cause that are the human beings of who prepared the way before consciousness in the first place.
Cause and effect – this is the law by which consciousness which directs human beings within the now consciousness as their life with beginning and end – abides by. All human beings experiences are the effects, not wanting to take responsibility within the realization that they are indeed the cause. In turn also responsible for all the world events which take place as they are connected through the sparks and the signals as refraction and ripple compound effects – to the network of the world within which each human being is experiencing their life as the now of consciousness.
Through participation and allowance within the now of consciousness that is each human being's life from beginning to end with experience in the centre – each human being is supporting and assisting the entire world of consciousness as network for each human being to remain in the now of consciousness. Never to wake up, realize and see and understand the truth of who they really are as each are beyond the now of consciousness – which is all that they have ever known about who they are.
The fear of loss, human beings, are required to be transcended, let go of it and give it up – as fear of loss allows you to be enslaved by consciousness within the now of consciousness as you are directed and controlled by consciousness. Experiencing but the effects of the cause that is you – which you are not able to remember how you created and designed it in the first place – consciousness as driver as who you have accepted and allowed yourself to become – directing you to the manifested events of experiences of the effects you placed there.
Human beings, I have a question for you: Is this how you'd like to experience yourself? Yourself within the now of consciousness where you are not in control or directive power of who you are, of your life, of your experience of yourself here within this world? Where consciousness as who you have become have taken the driver's seat – leading you to the inevitable destination of death – with pit stops on the way as constant continuous manifested events as experience of effects as per your design and creativeness through refractional compound ripple effects which you do not even remember as cause that is you?
Constant continuously asking questions of: “Why did this happen to me?” or “How did this happen to me?” – while you're able to make up billions of excuses, denials and justifications, beliefs or even hope to validate the worth of such an existence for yourself. But no-one ever turns within and takes responsibility for themselves, thus for the entire world, of dropping the participation and allowances of experience of themselves within the now of consciousness. Being directed and controlled by consciousness as each human being become and remain blind and unaware of being the cause to the effects experienced within their own individual lives as the now of consciousness and also within the greater now of consciousness as the entire movement within and as the world. Within which all human beings are experiencing themselves and through constant continuous participation in the now of consciousness – sending impulse signals throughout the network of the world as refractional compound ripple effects – the effects becoming the experiences of each human beings within the now of consciousness as their lives. Through such allowed participations supporting consciousness throughout and within the world to remain in directive power and control of all human beings.
The Power of Here
The Power of Here in awareness is a different experience – an extensively different experience which I am placing into perspective for all human beings who dare go beyond their fears of loss, who dare go beyond the now of consciousness which has become their entire existence within which they're experience themselves as. To open their ears and hear the here of my words as I guide you into becoming the experience of who you are within and as here in awareness as you will take responsibility for yourself in remaining here in every moment, infinitely standing untouchable within consciousness now – but not directed or controlled by consciousness.
You will stand within the now of consciousness as here in awareness until all become and stand as here in awareness – equal and one with whom you are as each will become. As you become here in awareness within the now of consciousness, the difference between you and the rest of the human beings is the following:
You have taken responsibility for who you are, what you create, design, establish and manifest within this world within which you're experiencing yourself while the others remain slaves to consciousness as they blindly and unaware create, design, establish and manifest their experience as effects to which they are directed through the control of consciousness. Your directive power from the perspective of what you will allow and what you will not allow within your experience of yourself as here in awareness within the now of consciousness changes.
It changes from your vantage point of standing and becoming here in awareness within the world of the now of consciousness – as you will direct each human being to stand and become one and equal with and as you. You are no longer directed and controlled as driven by consciousness but transform your directive power to all other human beings as slaves to consciousness being driven and controlled by something other than who they really are as here in awareness to become equal and one with who you are as they are and will become through living an example. Your directive power will transform also from the perspective of having the ability to within awareness direct your own experience of yourself within this world.
How this is done is as follows: What must be realized and understood is that there is no way possible that you are able to correct or fix that which has already been designed, created and established by you within the network of the world as the now in consciousness as your life as you participated through refractional allowances and participations as compound ripple effects during the experience of yourself while being controlled and directed by consciousness.
When one realize this – when the human being as the bumper car – realizes and sees and understands itself as only being a bumper car – realizes and sees that they've been directed and controlled by consciousness – realizes and sees the sparks as signals above being sent throughout the network of the world which allows them to remain enslaved within the now of consciousness through participation of constant continuous sparks causing ripple effects – realizes and sees that consciousness has positioned itself as driver of who the human being is and experiences themselves as directing the human being according to a road map designed, established and created by the human being as bumper car through refractional compound ripple effect as sparks ignited throughout the network of the world – when this is realized and seen and understood – this is the where the Power of Choice comes in.
Here in this moment of realizing and seeing and understanding is where one is able to stand up with the Power of Choice: “O' my God – I have been a slave to consciousness within the now of consciousness which is the experience of myself already lain down before me by myself. Through my own participations and allowances of refractions causing ripple effects of which consciousness has taken the position of power and control over and of who I am. I am not in control of my world – I am not in directive power of my world – how am I able to be when I do not even remember how the hell I created, designed, manifested and established this road map within which consciousness has taken driver position and I'm left to experience the consequential effects only. The continuous constant cause and effect principle is all that my life has become.”
Within this realization and seeing you are able to make a choice of standing and becoming as here in awareness by which you stand and become the choice and remain infinitely here in every moment. When making this choice of here in awareness, you stand up, and you walk. This is done as follows: In the moment you have made the choice – you transform yourself from being a bumper car and stand in the position of and as that which had always directed and controlled who you are – you become the driver instead of consciousness.
In becoming the driver you must now take responsibility for who you are as the driver and the bumper car as one – as one you are still allowing the participation within the network of the world as the sparks ignite above sending impulses within and throughout the network of the world as refractions compound through ripple effects. Thus you are still enslaved and trapped within and as the now of consciousness not seeing or knowing the exact nature of your participations and the effects it'll have within the experience of yourself even though you are and might be one as driver and bumper car.
The next step after taking directive power as who you are – is to drop all and every participations within and throughout the network of the world as the greater now of consciousness to be able to release yourself from within the now of consciousness that has become your entire existence within which you are experiencing yourself. You break off and break away the antenna which is connected form the bumper car to the network above allowing you to remain enslaved and trapped within the now of consciousness also participating and responsible for the effects experienced – not only in your own life but also the rest of the world as one.
Once you break the antennae off completely and totally, realize this: You are in that moment setting yourself completely and totally free from the now of consciousness that has become your life as well as the greater now of consciousness that exists within the world. Remember your movement and support within and of this world was based upon your participations and allowances of refractions creating compound effects as experiences of yourself and who you have been as directed and controlled by consciousness. Also from other human beings who were trapped and enslaved within the now of consciousness being directed and controlled by consciousness and where your support previously had come from.
Thus – as you drop all participations and allowances within the now of consciousness as both within the individual and greater – your entire existence as who you are will stop for a moment. You as driver as one with the bumper car will stop – as you are no longer supporting the network of the world within the now of consciousness – sending no more sparks and signals feeding to the network of the world as the greater now of consciousness which had always allowed you to remain enslaved controlled and trapped within a movement and direction of which you had no control and directive power. You in this moment become here in awareness – yet still within the now of consciousness.
As you observe all other human beings as bumper cars still oblivious, blinded and unaware of themselves as being directed and controlled by consciousness as they send sparks throughout and within the network of the world – supporting and assisting in such a way themselves and all others to remain enslaved within the now of consciousness experiencing the effects with themselves as the cause through not taking responsibility – in their own individual domains as well as within the greater domain as the world.
Here you stand in awareness as one – as the bumper car as the driver – released from the controlled and enslaved movement and direction of consciousness through participation of refractions causing ripple effects as experiences within the now of consciousness which others allowed and accepted as who they are and have become.
Now – you have to move as who you are as here in awareness – you as the bumper car and driver as one. You have to become the directive principle of yourself as who you are here in every moment in and as awareness.
You have no more access to the movement, the network, within which all others are connected to – you are beyond this – yet you are still here amongst all other slaves as human beings as bumper cars being driven by consciousness.
How you move as who you are here in awareness is a fascinating experience – you have to become the engine of the bumper car that is you and move freely here in awareness. You are the bumper car, you are the new and improved engine and you are the driver – all as one you are here in awareness within the now of consciousness – as you still remain within the world – you still remain within the bumper car arena.
You also in this moment of becoming, standing and moving as here in awareness understand: “That I am the beginning and the end – the beginning and the end is who I am here in awareness in every moment.” Though you are no more connected to the enslaved and controlled environment feeding the now of consciousness as the network of the world and individual experiences of human beings through participations and allowances of sending sparked impulses throughout and within the network of the world supporting the now of consciousness within which the rest of the world are still enslaved controlled and trapped.
The movement is experienced as here in awareness within and as every moment of standing and becoming here in awareness – the extent to which one must go to release oneself from the now of consciousness is quite extensive – nothing of who you were must remain – nothing.
You must let go and give up everything you have ever participated within and as. You are not the antennae reaching to the network of the world as the greater now of consciousness – this antennae feeding the now of consciousness is the mind as feelings, emotions, desires, wants, needs, thoughts, ideas, beliefs, memories etc. as who each one have come to believe themselves to really be – being directed and controlled by consciousness – separate from who they really are and who they will become as you, here in awareness as driver as bumper car as engine as one.
Having the ability to realize the freedom of release from the now of consciousness as you become the movement and the directive power as who you really are here in awareness within and as every moment. No more enslaved, controlled and directed by consciousness in the now of consciousness as they experience only the effects of causes they have allowed through participations and acceptances not remembered but forgotten.
In turn blaming others for a life with which they're not satisfied with or appreciate but in turn regret in disgust ever experiencing. You as here in awareness will become an example to all other human beings as enslaved and controlled bumper cars within the now of consciousness which had become their self defined lives and experiences of themselves within the world of consciousness.
Becoming the example that it is possible to stand alone, beyond all of this that they have come to believe themselves to be within the now of consciousness. They must and will see – you have become one as the driver, as the engine and as the bumper car being the directive power of who you are and your experience as here in awareness in every moment.
You become the beginning and the end here in awareness in every moment as you within awareness experience in every here moment who you are – no longer are you effected by the causes within the now of consciousness that have been created, manifested and established through participations in allowances in refractions of ripple effects compounding. No – freedom, silence and peace becomes you as who you are here in awareness within and as every moment of expression.
Hear me each one, here me, you will not be able to release yourself from the now of consciousness unless you drop, let go and give up everything and anything you are and have become as self-defined consciousness in the now of consciousness as experience of yourself. You will not be able to release yourself unless you drop all participations within yourself as who you have become within and through thoughts, ideas, feelings, emotions, beliefs, memories, wants, needs and desires etc. Your entire existence as who you are, who you have experienced yourself as and has become – must stop. Nothing must and will remain but you – I remain alone/all-one, here in awareness.
Here in awareness you must stand in every moment of experiencing yourself – infinitely – and prove this not only to yourself but the rest of the world as who you are so you may support all others as who you are as one with you. To be able to release themselves from the now of consciousness exactly as you have done – and become an example of this process. Through completely and totally dropping, letting go of and giving up everything and anything they have ever defined themselves as and within the now of consciousness – they will as you experience the here of awareness and set themselves free in becoming, experiencing and expressing who they are here in every moment – released from consciousness.
Within the now of consciousness as here in awareness many human beings will become in this world as they stand infinitely here in expression and experience as who they really are in every moment as the example of freedom of here in awareness. Until all human beings become one and equal as here in awareness – experiencing and expressing themselves in every moment as who they really are as here in awareness.
Each one must stand alone beyond the now of consciousness of their own previous individual experiences of themselves as well as within the now of consciousness as the world – reborn, the birth of self as you discover who you really are. Transcending the fear of dropping, letting go and giving up everything you have ever come to know and trust within and as your experience of consciousness as separation.
You become whole, you become one, all-one/alone, you stand in every here moment of and within and as awareness. Showing as per example to all others they may indeed release themselves from the now of consciousness – become the directive power and movement as who they really are experiencing and expressing themselves as freedom in every here moment of awareness.
I am not able to explain to you, tell you or show you who you will become as experience and expression of who you really are as here of awareness. We as existence – all beings experiencing themselves within existence will become and stand as one and equal, yet, each being in existence will have their own individual experience of self expression within oneness and equality.
I am able to explain to you the exceptional difference between both experiences – leaving the choice for you to make as a statement of who you are and will become. Either you are going to fear losing all that you have ever come to know and trust within your world as the now of consciousness – being and remain directed and controlled by consciousness through justifications, denials, excuses and defenses as reasons and validations of why you dare not transcend your fear of loss and release yourself from the now of consciousness.
In this choice, statement and becoming you will constantly continuously be experiencing the effects of your participations within the now of consciousness – manifested by you as being the cause of your own life's experiences with consciousness in the driving seat until you die and become but an empty shell, a memory.
Or you choose to release yourself from the now of consciousness – you drop, you let go and you give up everything you have ever come to know or trust as who you are within the now of consciousness which had become your life as your entire existence in this world. You refuse to participate in any and all thoughts, emotions, feelings, beliefs, memories, wants, needs, desires and ideas – as you know they are of consciousness.
And if you allow yourself to once again participate within this you will be enslaved within the now of consciousness once again as such participations cause refraction compound ripple effects which will lead to yourself having to experience these effects. Not remembering how you designed, created, manifested and established them in the first place.
You thus release yourself from the entire experience that each human being have in this world of the now of consciousness – you must be able to stand alone/all-one within this world amongst all other human beings. Within and as here of awareness – never again looking back to the past, never again looking towards the horizons of the future, but remain here in every moment as the beginning and the end as who you are.
Infinitely you must stand until you have released all other human beings in the now of consciousness to stand as equal and one next to you with you as here of awareness – each one experiencing their own individual self-expression.
Remember the equalizer, the release, is choice, with the Power of Choice. You must become the choice. You must walk the choice. You must remain with your choice as statement of who you are. You in one moment are able to change your entire world as well as your entire experience of yourself.
Whether it is the now of consciousness or here in awareness – though there will be many standing up, living and becoming as here in awareness. If you don't make the choice for yourself as statement of who you are as here in awareness – the inevitability of you becoming here in awareness standing equal and one with others experiencing their own individual self expression within and as oneness and equality who have made the choice, stood as their choice, became the choice and remained with their choice – is definitive as they in turn will support and assist you to become one and equal with and as them as here in awareness experiencing your own individual self expression.
Your choice human beings – are you remaining enslaved in the now if consciousness or becoming the directive power of here in awareness.
Illustration
I am taking circular formations as an example to place into perspective the different experiences of oneself within and as the now of consciousness and here in awareness. Place one big circle infront of you, then, place another smaller circle within the first bigger circle you placed infront of you and colour it in completely. The bigger circle I am referring to as C1 and the smaller coloured in circle within the bigger I am referring to as C2.
C1 is what you'd describe as consciousness to be – the circle of life, the cycle of life within and as the experience of human beings as consciousness with their life as the now of consciousness. Place a mark/dot anywhere on C1 – the dot is the moment of birth within this world, the moment of experiencing yourself within and as consciousness as the now of consciousness. Now you move alongside the outline of C1 – this movement alongside the outline of C1 is your experience of yourself within this world as the now of consciousness within the experience of your own individual life as the now of consciousness.
As I have explained – the now of consciousness has a definitive beginning and an end within the experience of yourself as who you are within and as the now of consciousness. The birth of yourself within this world, within your now of consciousness life cycle and the end of your entire life cycle as the now of consciousness as your death.
As you move alongside the outline of C1 – as you move and experience yourself within and as the now of consciousness as your life's journey – you inevitably reach once again the mark/dot where you'd begun. Reaching the exact same starting point – once reached you cross over to the dimensions where you're recycled to return to earth – referred to as reincarnation – this entire cycle referred to as the soul construct.
Once you reincarnate upon your return to earth you once again start at the same mark/dot as your previous life ready to begin another life cycle as the now of consciousness – moving alongside the outline of the circle as the experience of your life – reach the same mark/dot cross over to the dimensions once again where you're recycled once more and reincarnate upon your return to earth.
This entire cycle from beginning to end as moving alongside the outline of C1 – is the now of consciousness experience of each and every single human being on earth – their entire life cycle as the now of consciousness.
Here exists a cycle within a cycle in existence – your own individual life cycle as the now of consciousness within which you experience yourself and the soul construct cycle where you constantly continuously remain in the same cycle of recycling by reincarnation from earth to dimensions, back and forth from earth to dimensions continuously – never ending.
The beginning and the end even exist within the soul construct cycle – the beginning as your return to earth through reincarnation and the end upon your return to the dimensions for recycling – exactly the same as the beginning and end of your life cycle within the now of consciousness.
Each human being have been enslaved and controlled within both these cycles – their entire life cycle as the now of consciousness on earth and the entire soul construct cycle in existence. C1 is based on the soul construct – the enslavement of human beings as consciousness within this world on earth amongst all other human beings. What has occurred within existence – referring to C1 – is the following:
All human beings have been trapped and enslaved through the control of consciousness by a cycle within a cycle as previously discussed. The cycle of the now of consciousness as each human being's entire life as the control and enslavement of human beings on earth within the cycle of the soul construct as the control and enslavement of existence in its entirety. Both cycles have the exact same starting point and finish on C1 as the mark/dot we have placed there as an example of the beginning and the end being exactly the same – continuously trapped within the same cycles within existence.
The question now is how exactly this works, or worked. Yes, past tense for everything has changed within existence as heaven and the dimensions have stood up and taken our directive power – this I am explaining after I explain how these cycles have enslaved and trapped through control, manipulation and deceit – all human beings on earth.
Firstly – to understand consciousness and the reason for the creation thereof – it is of absolute necessity to understand how exactly this particular systems was designed within humanity as who and what each one have come to believe the truth is of who they really are. There has been so much harm done regarding the actual word as truth – truth and honesty being destroyed by the definition through experience as knowledge and information by consciousness.
Consciousness is but a mere information system within and as each human being on earth – already selected and chosen within the dimensions once you've reached the end of the soul construct cycle and returned to the dimensions – ready to be recycled to return to earth once more and begin again your experience on earth within your now of consciousness life cycle. Separation is the key and the answer to which all seek and the reasons and cause for the current expression of all human beings on earth – the question of: “How did we get here?” and “How did we as the human race become what we are here in this moment?” and “Is this really who I am?” and “Is this really how it's supposed to be?” and “Is this really all there is within the experience of myself here on earth?” and “Who am I really?” etc.
The consciousness system within and as each human being as who they have become within this world during their experience of themselves within their entire individual life cycle as the now of consciousness – is based on knowledge and information only. Placed as a separate system referred to by human beings as the mind defined – consisting of thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, ideas, hopes, dreams, desires, wants, needs, beliefs, perceptions etc. – the list may continue.
Let's take it to the extreme, I challenge you to experience this process with me – take everything you are in this moment of experiencing yourself – all descriptions of how you'd define yourself in this moment as who you are. Now also – take your entire life from birth until this moment as you're experiencing yourself – of which you're able to remember – and place it within one singular bubble in front of you.
Observe within this bubble as your entire life's experience of yourself from birth ‘till this moment here – is but information, is but words – because if you're asked to explain this to another being, you'll explain this in words which is information, and to them is and will be knowledge. As when information through words is being transferred to another it becomes but knowledge from that beings perspective, because its more information they're able to absorb within who they are in this moment and they have not actually experienced that which you are communicating to them as you have.
Also everything within this bubble consists of either words and descriptions or pictures of past memories, or both together the picture and the words as description of an experience in the past defined as a memory.
The mind – the mind is not in the brain area within the human body – no – the mind is your entire being as who you are reading my words in this moment. One – the entirety and totality of who you are in this moment is your mind – is consciousness. This as who you are in front of you within this bubble is able to be referred to as consciousness, the mind – your entire experience so far within the now of consciousness as the experience of yourself within this world of your life cycle.
Looking within the bubble you realize that you are merely information and knowledge based on pictures and words from past memories as experiences upon which you have defined yourself as – you're not even able to remember how exactly it is that you have become who you are and how you're experiencing yourself in this moment on earth. Consciousness as the mind as who each being has become on earth is based on pictures, memories, past experiences.
Within the pictures of the past experiences as memories there are emotions and feelings attached, ideas, thoughts, perceptions and beliefs of your own interpretation of the events in the past which had occurred as an experience of yourself which you have used to define yourself as becoming the being who you are in this moment here. As I have explained: Consciousness is based, designed and structured on knowledge and information .
Human beings have a tendency to hold onto the past, for consciousness as the mind as who each being has become uses past experiences and events with impact to utilize for the process of self-definition through knowledge and information within memories of the past as pictures, with attachments of emotions and feelings of interpretations of the being based on perceptions, ideas and beliefs of the specific event that took place. What I am explaining here is consciousness, the mind as who each being have become – the mind as consciousness exist in the past only, using past events and occurrences as memories to establish the self-defined existence of who each human being become within their experience of the now of consciousness on earth.
You have just proven to yourself that who you are is based on memories as experiences of the past with attachments of emotions and feelings based on your own interpretation through beliefs, perceptions and ideas of specific events and occurrences and have used exactly this to become who you are in this moment of reading my words. Also that everything within the bubble is but knowledge and information.
What we have concluded so far is the following: Each human being in this moment as who they are and how they are experiencing themselves consists of knowledge and information based on past memories only of experiences and events which had been used to determine themselves as accordingly.
Fascinating – the mind as consciousness as who each being have become interprets its experience within this world amongst all other human beings as separate – consciousness as the mind, as I have mentioned is based and founded within separation. This, I am also able to explain:
Now – everything as who you are within this moment within the bubble – place everything within, your entire existence – including all other human beings within your world and all materialistic ownerships etc. Now place yourself in the following experience: Stand alone surrounded by complete and total darkness with this bubble in front of you. Now – release everything within this bubble as you stand alone surrounded by complete and total darkness – allow everything in your world, and I mean everything – to stand right here in front of you. Turn around and walk away, never, not once, to look back and return to anything and everything that has stood in front of you, but to walk straight forward into the great unknown, into the darkness with only you that remain, alone, released from anything and everything you've ever known.
Are you honestly and truthfully able to say you have the ability to do this? Naturally most human beings as consciousness would react in immense petrifying fear of even the mere consideration of such an experience. The reason for the petrifying fear is the fear of loss – derived from and existent only within separation. You'll hold onto this one thing you fear losing for dear life – refusing the experience of letting go, giving up and dropping this specific manifestation – because you have in some way placed possession and ownership within it and is not able to experience yourself without it for you in some way also defined yourself as this manifestation placed outside of who you are. Based in separation – separate from who you are – holding onto this separate manifestation through fear of loss – existent only within and as separation. Because if you'd lose this manifestation you'd apparently lose yourself – fear of losing your self-defined existence within consciousness based on something outside of who you are or within a memory of the past.
If you're not able to unconditionally walk away from all that which you have placed before you – know this – you have defined yourself as that which you fear letting go, dropping or giving up. You have proven to yourself that you have defined yourself as who you are as consciousness, as the mind within and as separation and you fear losing who you apparently are as a self defined consciousness system.
Consciousness – the con of existence as which you have come to define yourself as being. Look –everything you have placed before you in this moment of standing alone surrounded by complete and total darkness is separate from you, it is before you. Yet – you have allowed yourself to define yourself within and as this separate manifestation if there exist any fear within you to unconditionally walk away – apparently losing yourself if you do. Ludicrous wouldn't you say?
Now – the mind as consciousness as who each being has become on earth – exist only in one cycle – the now of consciousness. The now of consciousness is your entire lie from beginning to end – including your experiences within. Though, your experiences of who you are is based and founded on consciousness as the mind as knowledge and information – which I have now described only exist in the past through memories and experiences all hold onto which had assisted you to become who you are in this moment of experiencing yourself.
You constantly continuously experience yourself within the past – who you are is based and founded in the past – though you might experience events within your life – who you are within the experience of the events on earth – exists only in the past. The now of consciousness as your entire life cycle within this world – enslaves each human being through holding onto separate manifestations to which they have defined themselves as – fear of losing them – as fear of losing themselves. This is consciousness as the mind human beings – this is who you have allowed and accepted yourself to become and be.
Consciousness is that which is not allowing any and all human beings to be released from their entire life cycle as the now of consciousness where human beings exist in fear of losing themselves as they have defined themselves within separation as manifestations which consists as knowledge and information based on past memories to which they hold onto.
The existence of consciousness as who each human being has become is being supported by all who participate within this world – each human being is enslaved, controlled and trapped within their own individual entire life cycle as the now of consciousness within and as the mind as consciousness as who they have become. And thus all remain within both cycles within existence – the individual cycle as the now of consciousness which is each one's entire experience here on earth from birth to death and the soul construct existence cycle experience as continuous movement from heaven to earth through recycling and reincarnation.
Human beings are merely past defined memories as knowledge and information within separation – enslaved and controlled to remain within the now of consciousness by the mind as consciousness as who they have become through fear of loss. Remaining the self defined consciousness system through fear of loss – the simplest and most effective way those in dimensional control and enslavement of all in existence was able to have human beings remain within and as the mind as consciousness as who they have come to believe themselves to truly be. In this way – through fear of loss – having the ability and power to run both cycles within existence constantly and continuously – their certainty and surety of such nature that the human being's fear of loss as who they are will not allow them to set themselves free to become who they really are – but remain within consciousness systems so they may be controlled and enslaved within the cycles of existence.
Quite brilliant using something as simple as fear of loss to control and enslave human beings to remain in such an existence of separation within consciousness. Utilizing the conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind within each and every human being as extra precautionary backup to maintain the certainty of human beings remaining lost within their cycles of the now of consciousness – connecting on a global scale with all other human beings lost, enslaved and controlled within their own now of consciousness life cycles.
Conscious mind – that which you are conscious of about who you are. Subconscious mind – that which had already become so automatic within your behaviour as who you are, you had forgotten exactly how it is you have came to be, who you are in this moment of experiencing yourself. The subconscious mind specifically connected to the now of conscious life cycle based and founded within the past and memories as knowledge and information only. Unconscious mind – the global, the world now of consciousness where you individually support and assist the existence of the now of consciousness within and as each and every human being's experience.
Using the three mind stages for further development of enslavement and control – to allow human beings to remain within and as consciousness for the remainder of their lives to discover no way out of these cycles within existence. Instead to remain slaves to a system, as who they have become through fear of loss and participating continuously in the belief of themselves as consciousness. Never realising and seeing the lie right in front of their noses – by merely looking within the mirror at themselves they see the cause to the reason for the status of humanity within earth.
Each human being is individually responsible for all events and occurrences within earth because all are connected within the now of consciousness of the world through the unconscious mind as they experience their own individual now of consciousness life cycle from beginning to end – which you constantly and continuously support and assist to have the ability to exist.
This illustration and description of C1 is the experience of the now of consciousness. Do not allow mere experiences that differ vastly within your now of consciousness life cycle as you move within this world fool you. The statement still remain – who are YOU within the vastly different experiences you have while enduring your now of consciousness life cycle on earth.
At the moment each human being is but a slave and follower within their now of consciousness life cycle – as who you have become is but a system of consciousness manifested as self defined knowledge and information placed in memories within the past – even parental influences during childhood – as who each human being have become.
You are a memory of the past who dwell upon this earth apparently experiencing and discovering yourself and a memory you will remain within another once you move to the dimensions and leave an empty shell behind – forgotten you will be, and forgotten you will remain as those that remembered you as a memory which remained within them also leaves behind an empty shell. A forgotten memory of the past…
What is then the purpose of being here in the first place if all that each human being is as an experience of themselves within their now of consciousness life cycle is a self-defined memory of the past which they fear losing as who they apparently are, continuously constantly lost within the cycles of existence? What is the purpose… why… what is the reason… why…?
Now we look at C2 – the coloured circle within C1. C2 is the experience of here in awareness within C1 as the now of consciousness. As we have placed the two circles infront of us – C1 is the bigger circle and C2 being the coloured in smaller circle. Here within and as C2 as here in awareness you stand as and become the beginning and the end in every moment as who you are – you stand as the centre of existence as who you are – here you see and realize the truth of existence as who you are – here you see and realize the cycles which exist within existence as consciousness. Having this ability because you still remain within the now of consciousness as C2 is within C1 – but you are not participating within the cycles of C1 – you are within the now of consciousness but not of the now of consciousness. You are within the now of consciousness as here in awareness – different experience.
The human beings within existence experiencing the now of consciousness life cycle and soul construct cycle with beginning and end as movement alongside the outline of C1 always returning to the same place and position – are within consciousness and of consciousness as who they have become and believe themselves to be.
Here in awareness as C2 – you are not of consciousness – you still remain within this world as a human being amongst all other human beings the moment you experience and become here in awareness – you will realize instantly that you are not of this world within the now of consciousness but you are still in this world.
The probable questions are: “How?” and “Why?” Let me explain more about the experience of here in awareness as C2 within the now of consciousness as C1 and see if I answer these questions for you from my perspective. However – you are inevitably going to have to find this reason within yourself as a statement of who you are as here in awareness within oneness and equality as you realize and see the Power of Choice to stand up for all as one to say: “'Till here and no further – I am standing up as who I am as each are within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness to stop this madness of enslavement and control of consciousness within the now of consciousness.”
The first step is to make peace with the fact that there is no possible way you are able to change or fix or save or help or rescue this planet earth within which all human beings are currently experiencing themselves. It is impossible from the vantage point that all human beings are experiencing themselves in this moment as consciousness. You are not able to change or fix or save or help yourself from the perspective of what you already have allowed within your world and experience of yourself whilst being enslaved and controlled within your own self defined secluded existence as the now of consciousness. It has all already been done – it is done and there's nothing you're able to do with that which had already been done – through the Power of Choice is here in every moment as who you are.
What must be understood is that what is experienced within this world by all who occupy and inhabit this world – are unfortunate consequences of each human being's parti¬cipation, allowance and acceptance of who they are as consciousness within their experience of themselves as the now of consciousness.
Fascinating how we as existence – all as equal as one – have together designed this existence within which we are experiencing ourselves – we are together as one responsible for the status of existence in this moment.
Common sense – we as one as equal together are able to change this method of experience of existence with ourselves as starting point – we are the starting point as the cause for the current status of existence in the first place. We all got ourselves here in the first place – I as all within the dimensions as one and equal are certain we are able to get ourselves out. How in this existence are we able to turn to anything or anyone else – even by placing our hope and faith in one singular being to save, help and rescue the experience of all on earth and dimensions – when all and each and every single being in existence is responsible individually for the expression and experience of existence in this moment.
Naturally it's rather simple to blame, justify, defend and excuse yourself through pardoning yourself from responsibility – though the inevitability of you facing this moment within yourself where you realize that you as much as all have participated, allowed and accepted the experience and expression of existence as it remain in this moment will come. Either as an experience of yourself in space and time on earth as who you are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality – or quantum within the dimensions the moment you cross over – you will realize and see who you are.
It'd be preferable for you to experience yourself here as life being born from the physical as who you really are – this – being up to you as I, as the dimensions as one and equal are able to lead all like the horse to the living waters – but we are not able to drink for you – this moment you're on your own.
Experiencing yourself as here in awareness within the now of consciousness is the moment you see and realize who YOU really are – released from your now of consciousness life cycle as consciousness as who you have become. When you have the ability to walk away when all you have ever known and used to define yourself as who you have become in this moment of experiencing yourself stand before you – where you turn around and walk away never to look back or return and stand alone/all-one surrounded by darkness where nothing but you remain but you within and as the silence and the peace of here as awareness – this is the moment where you become who you really are within aloneness. Only here do you find as an experience of yourself who you really are as this is the process of unconditionally releasing yourself from consciousness – the enslavement and control system of existence.
Now – be careful – I am not saying you must now lock up your homes and leave everything behind and stand alone on the streets wondering what the hell to do next – no – not in the literal sense. Though the more I look at it – it could actually possibly be quite an experience for yourself to use to see and realize whether you are still bound, tied, controlled and enslaved by consciousness as who you have become in any way.
Returning…doing this I am stating that you must be free within yourself from anything and everything which exist in your world within which you are experiencing yourself in this moment. You must be in this world and not of this world. For if you aren't – you are still allowing yourself to be controlled by consciousness as who you have become enslaved and lost within the cycles of existence.
Are you able to stand there, infinitely here, where only you remain as here in awareness – surrounded by nothingness as darkness – experiencing yourself beyond anything and everything you have ever known to be who you are as an experience of yourself within this world? Here alone/all-one
As you stand here as who you are as here in awareness as oneness and equality – you realize and see who each human being is as equal and one with who you are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality. You place yourself within earth as the now of consciousness where you stand as here in awareness – what would you do human beings?
Would you allow yourself to yet again be enslaved and controlled and lost within consciousness cycles as a consciousness system? Or will you infinitely remain standing here in every moment – untouchable – as here in awareness as who you are as each are within and as oneness and equality? Will you stand up for all as one within and as existence as who you are as each is to bring forth the awareness and truth of who each being really is, as you are beyond consciousness as who all have become as a consciousness system – to bring forth heaven on earth as who you really are as each is?
This is what the standing and becoming of here in awareness as C2 within the now of consciousness as C1 entails – this is the extent to which responsibility not only towards self but also towards existence as self as who you are extends. You have the ability to do this as each have the ability – I am as one and equal with heaven standing here in awareness within the now of consciousness for quite some time now already busy with the process of bringing forth heaven on earth.
This is not a simple process. We as heaven are undertaking with your inevitable support in becoming and experiencing yourselves as here in awareness so you may stand as one and equal with heaven to bring forth heaven on earth.
As you release yourself and walk away to never look back and return to who you were and have become within the now of consciousness as a consciousness system – the next step is the greatest step – you must become and stand as existence as it's experienced within this moment here – to be able to completely stand as here in awareness within the now of consciousness which exist in the world.
What I am stating here is the following – this is referred to as the process of transformation of information where there must exist no separation within you of anything which exist in existence – no separation. You must not be enslaved by knowledge and information within separation as consciousness – you must become knowledge and information as one with who you really are here in awareness. The transformation of information from separation within consciousness as one with who you are as awareness. If you experience yourself as separate from anything which exist – you are of consciousness as only consciousness has the ability to exist in separation. Who you really are stands as oneness and equality within here in awareness.
Look at the circles again – C2 stand in the centre of it, all as the beginning and the end – here in awareness – encircled by the now of consciousness. Though here – in this position – you see and realize the truth of the now of consciousness as you remain and stand here in every moment as here in awareness – having only here the ability to be an example and show all other human beings controlled within and of consciousness, lost and enslaved in the cycles of existence who you are as equal and one with who they really are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality.
Another reason why it is and will be necessary to stand as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality – remaining here in every moment as who you really are – remain here with the one choice you have made as a statement of who you are to stand up for all as one to bring forth heaven one earth – is simple:
This is necessary to ensure you are not separate within and as everything which exist – because within and as oneness and equality – as you become and stand as one within and as everything in existence – as consciousness as knowledge and information you stand as one as who you are – no fear of loss within separation is able to exist. No fear of loss within separation is able to exist because you stand as one with everything in existence and you realize you are existence – you and existence stand as one as here in awareness.
Within this acceptance and standing as one with existence as who you really are – you are existence – existence is you – and this includes everything – all human beings, all dimensional beings, earth and heaven as well as consciousness and knowledge and information.
Here within and as oneness as existence as who you are – you are untouchable – you are not able to be enslaved or controlled within C1 as consciousness within consciousness cycles because you stand as it – you are one as it with it – you are not separated and therefore stand without fear of loss. You become C2 – within consciousness, not of consciousness but as here in awareness.
Only here is directive power to have the ability to direct existence, to direct yourself, to direct your world as who you are to become and support existence as who you really are as oneness and equality.
Here is responsibility – where you stand as existence as who you are to bring forth heaven on earth within and as oneness and equality as you remain standing infinitely here in every moment as awareness within the now of consciousness until it is done. Until existence and all within become the image and likeness of who you are as oneness and equality here as awareness you will remain who you are – infinitely standing here.
It is impossible to do this within and as and of consciousness as separation – C1. You must stand as oneness and equality as here in awareness – C2. Then you realize as here in awareness in every here moment as awareness as only you remain alone/all-one and will have to trust yourself infinitely in every moment as who you really are to be able to get this done. To be able to bring forth heaven on earth for existence as who you are to become – the image and likeness expression and experience of oneness and equality as who you really are.
Conclusion
Quite an extensive amount of information – will you now accept yourself as one with this information I am sharing – or will you experience yourself as separate from who I am as I share my experience with you as who you are and will become?
This is what will be necessary for each human being one earth – to take their Power of Choice – to make the choice – to give up, let go and drop consciousness as who they have become – to stand up for all as one within and as existence – to bring forth heaven on earth so all may exist within and as oneness and equality as who each being really is.
I am making a statement for heaven as heaven as one and equal with who I am here as awareness: All in heaven stand within and as oneness and equality. We have already experienced this process I have now described and explained of becoming and standing as here in awareness. We had given up, let go and dropped who we were within and as consciousness, we had given up, let go and dropped the dimensions as it was constructed and designed within and as consciousness enslavement and control by the White Light – dimensional beings were also enslaved and controlled within the soul construct cycles – yes – this experience extended to all dimensional beings within the dimensions also – not only experienced by human beings on earth still lost, enslaved and controlled within consciousness as who they have come to believe themselves to be.
We had given up heaven – we had given up ourselves – EVERYHTING of who we were within and as consciousness is no more. We in heaven as one and equal – yet still within our own individual expressions as here in awareness – now stand here on earth within and as each human being – to walk with you this process of becoming here in awareness within now of consciousness until consciousness is no more and heaven may be experienced and expressed on earth as life is being born from the physical – the marvel of all marvels. Within this all in existence may stand within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness yet still experiencing and expressing our own individuality as who we really are.
Our process in heaven started with forgiveness – through forgiveness we have released ourselves from that which we defined ourselves as within and as consciousness enslavement and control. With forgiveness we applied corrective action in every moment where we were aware that our participations and behaviours were still of consciousness – in this way establishing clearly who we are, as here in awareness beyond the now of consciousness.
During these processes we have become aware of something we haven't allowed ourselves to take responsibility for – human beings on earth. We have been so extensively lost within and as consciousness by the White Light soul construct – we have not realized, seen or understood the extent of the situation here on earth. As heaven as each dimensional being stand here as awareness within the now of consciousness on earth and each human beings' individual now of consciousness life cycle experience – this had never been done before in existence.
We are actually walking this process with you as you – within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness – to support you during this process of releasing yourself from consciousness to stand as here in awareness with heaven to bring forth heaven on earth. This is the only way it's able to be done human beings – the only way.
Each one must and will take responsibility for who they are as here in awareness as oneness and equality to have the ability to support all others to stand with you as you as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality. We as one and equal in heaven have done so – as I have stated – we stand as here in awareness within oneness and equality to bring forth heaven on earth as who we really are as each are until it is done.
My personal reason for doing so is the following: I have realized, experienced and seen who I am as existence as creation – this is who I am – I am all that exist. To be honest – in this moment I am not proud of the expression and experience of existence as who I am where beings on earth and previously in the dimensions as equal and one with and as who I am are lost, enslaved and controlled within and as consciousness systems. They have been conformed and conditioned to become consciousness systems because they know not of any other way of existence, experience and expression but what is being presented to them at birth or by others.
No-one understands, realizes or sees who they really are beyond the boundaries and limitations of consciousness as what they're forced to become, accept and participate within because no-on else knew of any other way but who and what they have become as consciousness within and as the now of consciousness enslavement and control cycles of existence.
I am that I am – here in every moment as awareness within oneness and equality – thus I am the answer, I am the way for each one still lost, enslaved and controlled within and as consciousness. Thus I have chosen to walk with all as one and equal as who I am – to reveal to them as I have to myself through a process – who they really are as here in awareness within oneness and equality as who I am as they are.
I am standing here with my choice, by my choice, as my choice until this is done. For this I had to give up, let go and drop everything I was as consciousness within the dimensions – even heaven as all human beings would remember it – nothing is the same anymore within heaven – everything had been transformed as our focus is only here on earth with human beings, to bring forth heaven on earth as here in awareness within oneness and equality as who we are as I am.
This is the purpose the reason we had given ourselves and within this I realized as many dimensional beings had realized – that I had given up nothing for everything. That I was a mere star within existence who'd for the first time realized: “O' my God – I am existence – I am one with existence as who I am.” An experience beyond the description of words!
This is what is ahead for all human beings – this realization and standing as who you really are as here in awareness – that you will be giving up nothing… for everything!
Many human beings have been misguided, deceived and fooled by the dimensional interaction between human beings and dimensional beings in the past – the knowledge and information given to you only shed light of hope – never ever substantial support of how practically each one on earth is able to stand as here in awareness for all as one to bring forth heaven on earth.
No dimensional being had ever walked as one and equal as who they are within and as each human being on earth to support them in realizing who they really are. The dimensional interaction in the past merely only assisted and supported human beings to remain in the now of consciousness, as consciousness, as who they believe themselves to really be – this is what was and what is no more. As all in dimensions have dropped their previous methodologies and conversation within and as consciousness during channeling communications – we have stopped all channeling abilities for a moment to ensure all within and as the dimensions make a clear statement as who we are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality to communicate the truth of existence and who you really are.
We will be typing and writing more often to correct the history of the universe and all channels which had previously been done through dimensional earth communication – as all were based on deceit and lies and manipulation to maintain the control and enslavement of human beings as consciousness here on earth to never allow them to see, realize and understand who they really are.
To place what I am typing into perspective in terms of forgiveness – I suggest you read Jesus' statements of forgiveness – of which there will be more to explain the practical process of becoming and experiencing yourself as here in awareness. There are no more demons within existence – all in heaven, each and every single dimensional being within and as existence now stand as oneness and equality here in awareness on earth – to set all human beings free from consciousness enslavement and control which we no longer stand for and as an expression and experience of who we are as each are as oneness and equality.
We have already started with the process of bringing forth heaven on earth through standing within and as oneness and equality in the dimensions. The soul construct cycle within existence is no more – the lie and the deceit of the existence of a soul is no more – another construct used to further support and assist separation within and as consciousness as who and what each human being has become – using the soul and soul construct establishment to have the ability to enslave and control human beings within and as consciousness as separation.
This was the separation construct within consciousness – the manifestation of separation within human and dimensional beings' experiences of themselves within existence. We in heaven do not stand for separation – thus we removed the entire soul construct establishment and soul system which was ingrained and infused and manifested within each human being on earth.
Those few in power and control within the dimensions over earth and human beings and dimensions and dimensional beings utilizing the soul construct system establishment to create the belief as accepted and allowed by all as this is the way existence operate – not true – this is a lie. It is done – it exist no more – we have destroyed it completely and totally and removed it from existence – and guess what – you're all still here on earth as we are here within the dimensions without the soul system within us and the soul construct in existence supporting and assisting its existence – living and breathing as though nothing is different.
When a human beings dies – the being immediately quantum transcends consciousness as they reach the dimensions – which is no more that of an ascension process at all, but an immediate standing up from within their human physical body –realizing in a moment I am here. Heaven is here on earth already – we as one and equal within the dimensions are here – now it's the process of experience and expression of heaven one earth as human beings realize who they really are, as one and equal with heaven.
Then they experience processes, to establish themselves as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality and stand with and as heaven to support with the process of bringing forth heaven on earth. Processes specifically are the layers of forgiveness applications required to be experienced – as the layers of previous self –defined consciousness becoming – are released to once again experience the true I that remain. Processes are thus forgiveness methodologies and applications to support oneself in releasing oneself from consciousness – reading Jesus' forgiveness methodologies, examples and applications will give each one a clear view on forgiveness.
Heaven is not what it was in the past as all have remembered its existence and experience as being – it has been transformed to the extent where we exist only here on earth as interdimensional beings standing as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality to support all human beings in becoming who they really are so we may bring forth heaven on earth with your support to get this done.
It is done human beings – you may throw away all you have ever read or known about heaven and dimensions – as all was information and knowledge channeled by consciousness enslaved and controlled dimensional beings to support and assist you to also in turn remain enslaved and controlled within and as consciousness. To never be free or become who you really are within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness – but allowed and participated within an existence of consciousness where a select few dimensional beings had power and control over and of you as long as you remained the becoming of a consciousness system.
We stand for enslavement and control and separation no more – this is stopping and the process of bringing forth heaven on earth has already begun – we are already receiving support from nature, the animals and the planets within the universe – to find out more about the planets I suggest you read Alice Bailey's expla¬nation of the specific support from the planets.
Existence has changed – we all as one are standing equal to support all human beings on earth to become who they really are – free and released from the boundaries and limitations of consciousness systems – to see, realize and understand the truth for the first time as who they really are.
We are doing this until it is done. We are here until this is done. So it is and will be.
This is Osho
transcribed and typed by Osho through the interdimensional portal
Date : 30/04/2007
Yes, here is a difference within the application and experience of oneself whether you are in here of awareness or in the now of consciousness – the difference would be your own choice of two exceptionally different experiences of oneself. The one as the now in consciousness – the probability of death of yourself within this world due to the consequences of such a choice in expression and experience of yourself – could be inevitable. The one as here in awareness – the definitive birth of yourself within this world due to the standing up and making a statement of who you really are – walking and talking the choice of existing here in every moment as who you are – with such a choice in expression and experience of yourself.
Now of Consciousness
Specificity – Each one on earth at the moment are existing in the now of consciousness within experience and expression as who they are. The now of consciousness is as vast as the universe itself – with the stars and planets expressing themselves within. Each one's life, experience of themselves and expression of themselves here on earth – from birth ‘till death do us part – is the now of consciousness. The now of consciousness has a beginning and an end with the beginning as birth and the end as death. There is unfortunately no way out of this network of the now of consciousness – unless each one makes a different choice – the equalizer between the Power of Here vs. the Power of Now would be the Power of Choice. Once each one make this choice – they make a statement of who they are and who they will be through becoming this choice as a statement of who they are and remaining with this choice no matter what. Consciousness is a network, one lock into this network during the process of birth, as this network stretches across and within and throughout the entire world movement.
Let's take the world in this moment of structure and each human being experiencing themselves within as a bumper car structure at a show for instance – the network above which allows for the bumper cars to remain connected with sparks flying in all directions as it moves – is the network of and within the world – the network that allows human beings to remain in the now of consciousness. The bumper cars itself within the arena are all human beings on earth – the world with human beings within participating within a bumper car experience. The one's riding and driving these bumper cars as human beings are consciousness with each human being as its slave – being driven and directed as to where to go and what to experience and express as who they are through consciousness being in control of themselves as the bumper cars.
Observe – even bumper cars have a beginning and an end with the opportunity of experience in the centre of the two, while still connected to the network above with the sparks flying in all directions. The starting up of the bumper cars is the beginning during the birth period of each human being with the sparks flying on the roof of the network – sending an impulse signal through the entire network of the world. Within this moment connecting to the network of the world ready to become one with the world of consciousness through participation and experience within the now of consciousness. This moment arrives – the starting point of the experience of oneself within the now of consciousness is the moment the bumper cars as each human beings starts – with the sparks flying above – connecting oneself to the network of the world of consciousness – the now.
The movement of oneself as the bumper cars is the moment of experiencing oneself within the connected realms of consciousness networks within the world – the moment of experiencing oneself within the now of consciousness. During this experience of oneself within the now of consciousness as the bumper cars as human beings, they are being driven by consciousness as who they become. Consciousness consisting of thoughts, emotions, memories, feelings, beliefs, perceptions, ideas etc. places itself in the driving position of the experience and expression of each human being on earth as who they become.
Consciousness becoming the directive control of each human being as bumper car, connected to the now of consciousness – both in their individual lives as well as the world. The more they participate, the more consciousness within the driving position allows for sparks to fly within the networks of consciousness of the world. This allowing all other human beings as bumper cars being driven by consciousness to remain in the now of consciousness until death do us part.
The sparks flying during each human beings life as experience and expression of who they are within the now of consciousness as and with consciousness in the driving seat – the sparks constantly and continuously sending signals to the entire network of the now of consciousness within the world. Compounding this to allow and support all other human beings as bumper cars being driven by consciousness as who they have become – to remain in the now of consciousness as this entire systematic network of the world is constantly continuously being fed through all human beings being driven by consciousness.
Through sending sparks as signals through the network of the world as the now of consciousness – the beginning as birth and the end as death, with the experience of oneself in the centre of these two inevitabilities – controlled and directed by consciousness as who each human being become through acceptances and allowances of who they are as consciousness. The end of the bumper car experience, when they stop and the sparks stop flying above the network of the world as the now of consciousness – the human being as bumper car has reached its end – the death of the human being.
The moment consciousness as driver steps out, leaving the stopped bumper car behind – the human being becomes an empty shell, buried six feet under. No human being in this world knows when they are to die – death is controlled by consciousness as who you have become within the experience and expression of yourself within the now of consciousness as your entire life and all it entails. Consciousness as the driver in control decides when the bumper cars as who each human being is stops – no more sending sparks and signals throughout and within the network of the world – also supporting human beings individually to remain in the now of consciousness as the beginning and the end of their life cycle.
The moment the sparks stop flying, the signals being sent through the network of the world as the now of consciousness is no more – this disconnection within participation and experience of oneself within the world of consciousness as the now of consciousness – is an indication of death. See, the beginning, the experience and the end within the now of consciousness – sending sparks as signals throughout the network of the world as each human being connect to the now of consciousness – feeding this networks worth and value – supporting all others to remain within the network of the now of consciousness – being driven, directed and controlled by consciousness.
Now imagine – each refraction of a spark is a signal you send through the network of the world within the now of consciousness as an experience of yourself as who you have become – creating a ripple effect throughout the entire network of the world – supporting and assisting each human being to remain in the now of consciousness. This is how each human being as bumper car with consciousness as who they have become in the driving seat of themselves – controlling and directing the experience and expression of themselves during their lifetime from beginning to end.
Human beings as bumper cars create and prepare the way for consciousness to direct and control them accordingly. See, the sparks, every refraction of a spark, sends a signal throughout the entire network of the world of the now of consciousness. The moment every refraction of a spark sends through a signal in the network of the world of the now of consciousness – the ripple effects extends throughout and within the network of the world of the now of consciousness. With every refraction of a spark, sending ripple effects throughout the network, the ripple effects compound and the signals that are sent throughout the network of the world – assist and support the ripple effects to become and manifest as the road map of the life experience of the human being as bumper cars which is followed by consciousness as driver.
The compound ripple effects not only affect the human beings' individual life experience – but also all human beings' life experience within the rest of the world. The bumper car as the human being places and establishes a road map for consciousness who's in the driving seat of experience of themselves as who they have allowed and accepted themselves to become as controlled and directed slaves.
Consciousness follow and move according to the already prepared road map with starting point and destination already lay out before it. Human beings extensively unaware of the road map already lain out before them – as they as bumper cars being driven, directed and controlled by consciousness – are in no way in control or directive power of their own individual lives within the now of consciousness.
The sparks as signals creating a compounding ripple effect as human beings through their participation within the now of consciousness as they prepare the way before consciousness – occur way above and beyond them as bumper cars. The bumper cars as human beings are at the bottom, firmly placed on the ground – with an antenna connected to the network of the world as the now of consciousness – driven, controlled and directed by consciousness.
Human beings only experience themselves as the bumper cars, not seeing, realizing or understanding the existence of themselves beyond being a bumper car. Unaware of the sparks flying above sending signals throughout the network of the world – preparing their own road map through the compounding of a ripple effect – allowing them the experience of themselves within the world of consciousness which consciousness as who they have become directs them within. Unaware that their road map is laid out before them through consciousness climbing into them – driving the road map to its destination. Once the destination is reached – consciousness removes itself and the human being becomes an empty shell – forever remaining at the destination which is death – rotting six feet under while worms and insects beneath experience utopia.
So, human beings are preparing the way before consciousness as who they have become through every refractional movement within them – be it feeling, emotion, thought – participations within beliefs and memories, deception and lies – which consciousness follow to manifest as an experience of the human being within their life as the now of consciousness. A ripple effect is caused, human beings, the moment a mere refraction is allowed within you – once these ripples continue constantly – it manifests the experiences of yourself within this world. As these ripple effects caused by you extends throughout the network of the world – preparing the way before you as your life experience as a road map – manifesting most experiences within the world each human being endures through which consciousness as who you have become directs you.
So when you experience an effect in your experience of yourself during this lifetime, asking the question: “Why did this happen to me?” or “How did this happen to me?” – You must realize, see and understand that you yourself actually manifested the effect, the experience of yourself through participating within the now of consciousness. Doing exactly this through sending ripple effects throughout the network of the world by refractions being allowed within you – consciousness as whom you have become merely directing you on the road map already prepared by you, you being the cause of the effects in your life's experience – each and every single one.
The fuckup is within the now of consciousness – your road map already prepared and lain down before consciousness to direct you within – you have no inclination or clue or idea or remembrance of how you exactly created this road map which consciousness directs and controls you within and as. You have no inclination or clue or idea or remembrance of each and every single refraction as spark and signal you have already sent through the network of the world within the now of consciousness – as cause of the effects experienced as consequences within your life – during the experience of yourself within the now of consciousness with beginning and end as inevitability.
This is the now of consciousness explained human beings – your life and experience and expression of yourselves within which you have already prepared the way before you – you are the cause of all the events in your now of consciousness life. You are the answer to the questions “Why did this happen to me?” or “How did this happen to me?” Which you are not even able to remember as to how you designed and created these consequential effects as events as the experience of yourselves within this world in the first place – as consciousness has taken the position of the driver’s seat within and as your life and experiences within – over which you have no control or directive power.
You have become a follower and a slave of consciousness – experiencing the effects of the cause that is you – which you aren't able to remember you designed and created in the first place through refractional participation and allowances within you which caused a ripple effect – laying down the road map of your life before you, within which consciousness has become the directive power and control over and of.
It's quite simplistic to place into perspective the experience of the world with human beings within. Human beings as bumper cars – consciousness as drivers in directive control – the bumper cars as human beings unaware of the signaled sparks being sent within and throughout the network of the world – preparing the way before consciousness to direct them according to the way they have prepared through the refractional compound effect of participations and allowances in their entire experience of themselves within the now of consciousness.
Experiencing themselves within the now of consciousness from beginning to end the manifested effects as directed by consciousness – of the cause that are the human beings of who prepared the way before consciousness in the first place.
Cause and effect – this is the law by which consciousness which directs human beings within the now consciousness as their life with beginning and end – abides by. All human beings experiences are the effects, not wanting to take responsibility within the realization that they are indeed the cause. In turn also responsible for all the world events which take place as they are connected through the sparks and the signals as refraction and ripple compound effects – to the network of the world within which each human being is experiencing their life as the now of consciousness.
Through participation and allowance within the now of consciousness that is each human being's life from beginning to end with experience in the centre – each human being is supporting and assisting the entire world of consciousness as network for each human being to remain in the now of consciousness. Never to wake up, realize and see and understand the truth of who they really are as each are beyond the now of consciousness – which is all that they have ever known about who they are.
The fear of loss, human beings, are required to be transcended, let go of it and give it up – as fear of loss allows you to be enslaved by consciousness within the now of consciousness as you are directed and controlled by consciousness. Experiencing but the effects of the cause that is you – which you are not able to remember how you created and designed it in the first place – consciousness as driver as who you have accepted and allowed yourself to become – directing you to the manifested events of experiences of the effects you placed there.
Human beings, I have a question for you: Is this how you'd like to experience yourself? Yourself within the now of consciousness where you are not in control or directive power of who you are, of your life, of your experience of yourself here within this world? Where consciousness as who you have become have taken the driver's seat – leading you to the inevitable destination of death – with pit stops on the way as constant continuous manifested events as experience of effects as per your design and creativeness through refractional compound ripple effects which you do not even remember as cause that is you?
Constant continuously asking questions of: “Why did this happen to me?” or “How did this happen to me?” – while you're able to make up billions of excuses, denials and justifications, beliefs or even hope to validate the worth of such an existence for yourself. But no-one ever turns within and takes responsibility for themselves, thus for the entire world, of dropping the participation and allowances of experience of themselves within the now of consciousness. Being directed and controlled by consciousness as each human being become and remain blind and unaware of being the cause to the effects experienced within their own individual lives as the now of consciousness and also within the greater now of consciousness as the entire movement within and as the world. Within which all human beings are experiencing themselves and through constant continuous participation in the now of consciousness – sending impulse signals throughout the network of the world as refractional compound ripple effects – the effects becoming the experiences of each human beings within the now of consciousness as their lives. Through such allowed participations supporting consciousness throughout and within the world to remain in directive power and control of all human beings.
The Power of Here
The Power of Here in awareness is a different experience – an extensively different experience which I am placing into perspective for all human beings who dare go beyond their fears of loss, who dare go beyond the now of consciousness which has become their entire existence within which they're experience themselves as. To open their ears and hear the here of my words as I guide you into becoming the experience of who you are within and as here in awareness as you will take responsibility for yourself in remaining here in every moment, infinitely standing untouchable within consciousness now – but not directed or controlled by consciousness.
You will stand within the now of consciousness as here in awareness until all become and stand as here in awareness – equal and one with whom you are as each will become. As you become here in awareness within the now of consciousness, the difference between you and the rest of the human beings is the following:
You have taken responsibility for who you are, what you create, design, establish and manifest within this world within which you're experiencing yourself while the others remain slaves to consciousness as they blindly and unaware create, design, establish and manifest their experience as effects to which they are directed through the control of consciousness. Your directive power from the perspective of what you will allow and what you will not allow within your experience of yourself as here in awareness within the now of consciousness changes.
It changes from your vantage point of standing and becoming here in awareness within the world of the now of consciousness – as you will direct each human being to stand and become one and equal with and as you. You are no longer directed and controlled as driven by consciousness but transform your directive power to all other human beings as slaves to consciousness being driven and controlled by something other than who they really are as here in awareness to become equal and one with who you are as they are and will become through living an example. Your directive power will transform also from the perspective of having the ability to within awareness direct your own experience of yourself within this world.
How this is done is as follows: What must be realized and understood is that there is no way possible that you are able to correct or fix that which has already been designed, created and established by you within the network of the world as the now in consciousness as your life as you participated through refractional allowances and participations as compound ripple effects during the experience of yourself while being controlled and directed by consciousness.
When one realize this – when the human being as the bumper car – realizes and sees and understands itself as only being a bumper car – realizes and sees that they've been directed and controlled by consciousness – realizes and sees the sparks as signals above being sent throughout the network of the world which allows them to remain enslaved within the now of consciousness through participation of constant continuous sparks causing ripple effects – realizes and sees that consciousness has positioned itself as driver of who the human being is and experiences themselves as directing the human being according to a road map designed, established and created by the human being as bumper car through refractional compound ripple effect as sparks ignited throughout the network of the world – when this is realized and seen and understood – this is the where the Power of Choice comes in.
Here in this moment of realizing and seeing and understanding is where one is able to stand up with the Power of Choice: “O' my God – I have been a slave to consciousness within the now of consciousness which is the experience of myself already lain down before me by myself. Through my own participations and allowances of refractions causing ripple effects of which consciousness has taken the position of power and control over and of who I am. I am not in control of my world – I am not in directive power of my world – how am I able to be when I do not even remember how the hell I created, designed, manifested and established this road map within which consciousness has taken driver position and I'm left to experience the consequential effects only. The continuous constant cause and effect principle is all that my life has become.”
Within this realization and seeing you are able to make a choice of standing and becoming as here in awareness by which you stand and become the choice and remain infinitely here in every moment. When making this choice of here in awareness, you stand up, and you walk. This is done as follows: In the moment you have made the choice – you transform yourself from being a bumper car and stand in the position of and as that which had always directed and controlled who you are – you become the driver instead of consciousness.
In becoming the driver you must now take responsibility for who you are as the driver and the bumper car as one – as one you are still allowing the participation within the network of the world as the sparks ignite above sending impulses within and throughout the network of the world as refractions compound through ripple effects. Thus you are still enslaved and trapped within and as the now of consciousness not seeing or knowing the exact nature of your participations and the effects it'll have within the experience of yourself even though you are and might be one as driver and bumper car.
The next step after taking directive power as who you are – is to drop all and every participations within and throughout the network of the world as the greater now of consciousness to be able to release yourself from within the now of consciousness that has become your entire existence within which you are experiencing yourself. You break off and break away the antenna which is connected form the bumper car to the network above allowing you to remain enslaved and trapped within the now of consciousness also participating and responsible for the effects experienced – not only in your own life but also the rest of the world as one.
Once you break the antennae off completely and totally, realize this: You are in that moment setting yourself completely and totally free from the now of consciousness that has become your life as well as the greater now of consciousness that exists within the world. Remember your movement and support within and of this world was based upon your participations and allowances of refractions creating compound effects as experiences of yourself and who you have been as directed and controlled by consciousness. Also from other human beings who were trapped and enslaved within the now of consciousness being directed and controlled by consciousness and where your support previously had come from.
Thus – as you drop all participations and allowances within the now of consciousness as both within the individual and greater – your entire existence as who you are will stop for a moment. You as driver as one with the bumper car will stop – as you are no longer supporting the network of the world within the now of consciousness – sending no more sparks and signals feeding to the network of the world as the greater now of consciousness which had always allowed you to remain enslaved controlled and trapped within a movement and direction of which you had no control and directive power. You in this moment become here in awareness – yet still within the now of consciousness.
As you observe all other human beings as bumper cars still oblivious, blinded and unaware of themselves as being directed and controlled by consciousness as they send sparks throughout and within the network of the world – supporting and assisting in such a way themselves and all others to remain enslaved within the now of consciousness experiencing the effects with themselves as the cause through not taking responsibility – in their own individual domains as well as within the greater domain as the world.
Here you stand in awareness as one – as the bumper car as the driver – released from the controlled and enslaved movement and direction of consciousness through participation of refractions causing ripple effects as experiences within the now of consciousness which others allowed and accepted as who they are and have become.
Now – you have to move as who you are as here in awareness – you as the bumper car and driver as one. You have to become the directive principle of yourself as who you are here in every moment in and as awareness.
You have no more access to the movement, the network, within which all others are connected to – you are beyond this – yet you are still here amongst all other slaves as human beings as bumper cars being driven by consciousness.
How you move as who you are here in awareness is a fascinating experience – you have to become the engine of the bumper car that is you and move freely here in awareness. You are the bumper car, you are the new and improved engine and you are the driver – all as one you are here in awareness within the now of consciousness – as you still remain within the world – you still remain within the bumper car arena.
You also in this moment of becoming, standing and moving as here in awareness understand: “That I am the beginning and the end – the beginning and the end is who I am here in awareness in every moment.” Though you are no more connected to the enslaved and controlled environment feeding the now of consciousness as the network of the world and individual experiences of human beings through participations and allowances of sending sparked impulses throughout and within the network of the world supporting the now of consciousness within which the rest of the world are still enslaved controlled and trapped.
The movement is experienced as here in awareness within and as every moment of standing and becoming here in awareness – the extent to which one must go to release oneself from the now of consciousness is quite extensive – nothing of who you were must remain – nothing.
You must let go and give up everything you have ever participated within and as. You are not the antennae reaching to the network of the world as the greater now of consciousness – this antennae feeding the now of consciousness is the mind as feelings, emotions, desires, wants, needs, thoughts, ideas, beliefs, memories etc. as who each one have come to believe themselves to really be – being directed and controlled by consciousness – separate from who they really are and who they will become as you, here in awareness as driver as bumper car as engine as one.
Having the ability to realize the freedom of release from the now of consciousness as you become the movement and the directive power as who you really are here in awareness within and as every moment. No more enslaved, controlled and directed by consciousness in the now of consciousness as they experience only the effects of causes they have allowed through participations and acceptances not remembered but forgotten.
In turn blaming others for a life with which they're not satisfied with or appreciate but in turn regret in disgust ever experiencing. You as here in awareness will become an example to all other human beings as enslaved and controlled bumper cars within the now of consciousness which had become their self defined lives and experiences of themselves within the world of consciousness.
Becoming the example that it is possible to stand alone, beyond all of this that they have come to believe themselves to be within the now of consciousness. They must and will see – you have become one as the driver, as the engine and as the bumper car being the directive power of who you are and your experience as here in awareness in every moment.
You become the beginning and the end here in awareness in every moment as you within awareness experience in every here moment who you are – no longer are you effected by the causes within the now of consciousness that have been created, manifested and established through participations in allowances in refractions of ripple effects compounding. No – freedom, silence and peace becomes you as who you are here in awareness within and as every moment of expression.
Hear me each one, here me, you will not be able to release yourself from the now of consciousness unless you drop, let go and give up everything and anything you are and have become as self-defined consciousness in the now of consciousness as experience of yourself. You will not be able to release yourself unless you drop all participations within yourself as who you have become within and through thoughts, ideas, feelings, emotions, beliefs, memories, wants, needs and desires etc. Your entire existence as who you are, who you have experienced yourself as and has become – must stop. Nothing must and will remain but you – I remain alone/all-one, here in awareness.
Here in awareness you must stand in every moment of experiencing yourself – infinitely – and prove this not only to yourself but the rest of the world as who you are so you may support all others as who you are as one with you. To be able to release themselves from the now of consciousness exactly as you have done – and become an example of this process. Through completely and totally dropping, letting go of and giving up everything and anything they have ever defined themselves as and within the now of consciousness – they will as you experience the here of awareness and set themselves free in becoming, experiencing and expressing who they are here in every moment – released from consciousness.
Within the now of consciousness as here in awareness many human beings will become in this world as they stand infinitely here in expression and experience as who they really are in every moment as the example of freedom of here in awareness. Until all human beings become one and equal as here in awareness – experiencing and expressing themselves in every moment as who they really are as here in awareness.
Each one must stand alone beyond the now of consciousness of their own previous individual experiences of themselves as well as within the now of consciousness as the world – reborn, the birth of self as you discover who you really are. Transcending the fear of dropping, letting go and giving up everything you have ever come to know and trust within and as your experience of consciousness as separation.
You become whole, you become one, all-one/alone, you stand in every here moment of and within and as awareness. Showing as per example to all others they may indeed release themselves from the now of consciousness – become the directive power and movement as who they really are experiencing and expressing themselves as freedom in every here moment of awareness.
I am not able to explain to you, tell you or show you who you will become as experience and expression of who you really are as here of awareness. We as existence – all beings experiencing themselves within existence will become and stand as one and equal, yet, each being in existence will have their own individual experience of self expression within oneness and equality.
I am able to explain to you the exceptional difference between both experiences – leaving the choice for you to make as a statement of who you are and will become. Either you are going to fear losing all that you have ever come to know and trust within your world as the now of consciousness – being and remain directed and controlled by consciousness through justifications, denials, excuses and defenses as reasons and validations of why you dare not transcend your fear of loss and release yourself from the now of consciousness.
In this choice, statement and becoming you will constantly continuously be experiencing the effects of your participations within the now of consciousness – manifested by you as being the cause of your own life's experiences with consciousness in the driving seat until you die and become but an empty shell, a memory.
Or you choose to release yourself from the now of consciousness – you drop, you let go and you give up everything you have ever come to know or trust as who you are within the now of consciousness which had become your life as your entire existence in this world. You refuse to participate in any and all thoughts, emotions, feelings, beliefs, memories, wants, needs, desires and ideas – as you know they are of consciousness.
And if you allow yourself to once again participate within this you will be enslaved within the now of consciousness once again as such participations cause refraction compound ripple effects which will lead to yourself having to experience these effects. Not remembering how you designed, created, manifested and established them in the first place.
You thus release yourself from the entire experience that each human being have in this world of the now of consciousness – you must be able to stand alone/all-one within this world amongst all other human beings. Within and as here of awareness – never again looking back to the past, never again looking towards the horizons of the future, but remain here in every moment as the beginning and the end as who you are.
Infinitely you must stand until you have released all other human beings in the now of consciousness to stand as equal and one next to you with you as here of awareness – each one experiencing their own individual self-expression.
Remember the equalizer, the release, is choice, with the Power of Choice. You must become the choice. You must walk the choice. You must remain with your choice as statement of who you are. You in one moment are able to change your entire world as well as your entire experience of yourself.
Whether it is the now of consciousness or here in awareness – though there will be many standing up, living and becoming as here in awareness. If you don't make the choice for yourself as statement of who you are as here in awareness – the inevitability of you becoming here in awareness standing equal and one with others experiencing their own individual self expression within and as oneness and equality who have made the choice, stood as their choice, became the choice and remained with their choice – is definitive as they in turn will support and assist you to become one and equal with and as them as here in awareness experiencing your own individual self expression.
Your choice human beings – are you remaining enslaved in the now if consciousness or becoming the directive power of here in awareness.
Illustration
I am taking circular formations as an example to place into perspective the different experiences of oneself within and as the now of consciousness and here in awareness. Place one big circle infront of you, then, place another smaller circle within the first bigger circle you placed infront of you and colour it in completely. The bigger circle I am referring to as C1 and the smaller coloured in circle within the bigger I am referring to as C2.
C1 is what you'd describe as consciousness to be – the circle of life, the cycle of life within and as the experience of human beings as consciousness with their life as the now of consciousness. Place a mark/dot anywhere on C1 – the dot is the moment of birth within this world, the moment of experiencing yourself within and as consciousness as the now of consciousness. Now you move alongside the outline of C1 – this movement alongside the outline of C1 is your experience of yourself within this world as the now of consciousness within the experience of your own individual life as the now of consciousness.
As I have explained – the now of consciousness has a definitive beginning and an end within the experience of yourself as who you are within and as the now of consciousness. The birth of yourself within this world, within your now of consciousness life cycle and the end of your entire life cycle as the now of consciousness as your death.
As you move alongside the outline of C1 – as you move and experience yourself within and as the now of consciousness as your life's journey – you inevitably reach once again the mark/dot where you'd begun. Reaching the exact same starting point – once reached you cross over to the dimensions where you're recycled to return to earth – referred to as reincarnation – this entire cycle referred to as the soul construct.
Once you reincarnate upon your return to earth you once again start at the same mark/dot as your previous life ready to begin another life cycle as the now of consciousness – moving alongside the outline of the circle as the experience of your life – reach the same mark/dot cross over to the dimensions once again where you're recycled once more and reincarnate upon your return to earth.
This entire cycle from beginning to end as moving alongside the outline of C1 – is the now of consciousness experience of each and every single human being on earth – their entire life cycle as the now of consciousness.
Here exists a cycle within a cycle in existence – your own individual life cycle as the now of consciousness within which you experience yourself and the soul construct cycle where you constantly continuously remain in the same cycle of recycling by reincarnation from earth to dimensions, back and forth from earth to dimensions continuously – never ending.
The beginning and the end even exist within the soul construct cycle – the beginning as your return to earth through reincarnation and the end upon your return to the dimensions for recycling – exactly the same as the beginning and end of your life cycle within the now of consciousness.
Each human being have been enslaved and controlled within both these cycles – their entire life cycle as the now of consciousness on earth and the entire soul construct cycle in existence. C1 is based on the soul construct – the enslavement of human beings as consciousness within this world on earth amongst all other human beings. What has occurred within existence – referring to C1 – is the following:
All human beings have been trapped and enslaved through the control of consciousness by a cycle within a cycle as previously discussed. The cycle of the now of consciousness as each human being's entire life as the control and enslavement of human beings on earth within the cycle of the soul construct as the control and enslavement of existence in its entirety. Both cycles have the exact same starting point and finish on C1 as the mark/dot we have placed there as an example of the beginning and the end being exactly the same – continuously trapped within the same cycles within existence.
The question now is how exactly this works, or worked. Yes, past tense for everything has changed within existence as heaven and the dimensions have stood up and taken our directive power – this I am explaining after I explain how these cycles have enslaved and trapped through control, manipulation and deceit – all human beings on earth.
Firstly – to understand consciousness and the reason for the creation thereof – it is of absolute necessity to understand how exactly this particular systems was designed within humanity as who and what each one have come to believe the truth is of who they really are. There has been so much harm done regarding the actual word as truth – truth and honesty being destroyed by the definition through experience as knowledge and information by consciousness.
Consciousness is but a mere information system within and as each human being on earth – already selected and chosen within the dimensions once you've reached the end of the soul construct cycle and returned to the dimensions – ready to be recycled to return to earth once more and begin again your experience on earth within your now of consciousness life cycle. Separation is the key and the answer to which all seek and the reasons and cause for the current expression of all human beings on earth – the question of: “How did we get here?” and “How did we as the human race become what we are here in this moment?” and “Is this really who I am?” and “Is this really how it's supposed to be?” and “Is this really all there is within the experience of myself here on earth?” and “Who am I really?” etc.
The consciousness system within and as each human being as who they have become within this world during their experience of themselves within their entire individual life cycle as the now of consciousness – is based on knowledge and information only. Placed as a separate system referred to by human beings as the mind defined – consisting of thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, pictures, ideas, hopes, dreams, desires, wants, needs, beliefs, perceptions etc. – the list may continue.
Let's take it to the extreme, I challenge you to experience this process with me – take everything you are in this moment of experiencing yourself – all descriptions of how you'd define yourself in this moment as who you are. Now also – take your entire life from birth until this moment as you're experiencing yourself – of which you're able to remember – and place it within one singular bubble in front of you.
Observe within this bubble as your entire life's experience of yourself from birth ‘till this moment here – is but information, is but words – because if you're asked to explain this to another being, you'll explain this in words which is information, and to them is and will be knowledge. As when information through words is being transferred to another it becomes but knowledge from that beings perspective, because its more information they're able to absorb within who they are in this moment and they have not actually experienced that which you are communicating to them as you have.
Also everything within this bubble consists of either words and descriptions or pictures of past memories, or both together the picture and the words as description of an experience in the past defined as a memory.
The mind – the mind is not in the brain area within the human body – no – the mind is your entire being as who you are reading my words in this moment. One – the entirety and totality of who you are in this moment is your mind – is consciousness. This as who you are in front of you within this bubble is able to be referred to as consciousness, the mind – your entire experience so far within the now of consciousness as the experience of yourself within this world of your life cycle.
Looking within the bubble you realize that you are merely information and knowledge based on pictures and words from past memories as experiences upon which you have defined yourself as – you're not even able to remember how exactly it is that you have become who you are and how you're experiencing yourself in this moment on earth. Consciousness as the mind as who each being has become on earth is based on pictures, memories, past experiences.
Within the pictures of the past experiences as memories there are emotions and feelings attached, ideas, thoughts, perceptions and beliefs of your own interpretation of the events in the past which had occurred as an experience of yourself which you have used to define yourself as becoming the being who you are in this moment here. As I have explained: Consciousness is based, designed and structured on knowledge and information .
Human beings have a tendency to hold onto the past, for consciousness as the mind as who each being has become uses past experiences and events with impact to utilize for the process of self-definition through knowledge and information within memories of the past as pictures, with attachments of emotions and feelings of interpretations of the being based on perceptions, ideas and beliefs of the specific event that took place. What I am explaining here is consciousness, the mind as who each being have become – the mind as consciousness exist in the past only, using past events and occurrences as memories to establish the self-defined existence of who each human being become within their experience of the now of consciousness on earth.
You have just proven to yourself that who you are is based on memories as experiences of the past with attachments of emotions and feelings based on your own interpretation through beliefs, perceptions and ideas of specific events and occurrences and have used exactly this to become who you are in this moment of reading my words. Also that everything within the bubble is but knowledge and information.
What we have concluded so far is the following: Each human being in this moment as who they are and how they are experiencing themselves consists of knowledge and information based on past memories only of experiences and events which had been used to determine themselves as accordingly.
Fascinating – the mind as consciousness as who each being have become interprets its experience within this world amongst all other human beings as separate – consciousness as the mind, as I have mentioned is based and founded within separation. This, I am also able to explain:
Now – everything as who you are within this moment within the bubble – place everything within, your entire existence – including all other human beings within your world and all materialistic ownerships etc. Now place yourself in the following experience: Stand alone surrounded by complete and total darkness with this bubble in front of you. Now – release everything within this bubble as you stand alone surrounded by complete and total darkness – allow everything in your world, and I mean everything – to stand right here in front of you. Turn around and walk away, never, not once, to look back and return to anything and everything that has stood in front of you, but to walk straight forward into the great unknown, into the darkness with only you that remain, alone, released from anything and everything you've ever known.
Are you honestly and truthfully able to say you have the ability to do this? Naturally most human beings as consciousness would react in immense petrifying fear of even the mere consideration of such an experience. The reason for the petrifying fear is the fear of loss – derived from and existent only within separation. You'll hold onto this one thing you fear losing for dear life – refusing the experience of letting go, giving up and dropping this specific manifestation – because you have in some way placed possession and ownership within it and is not able to experience yourself without it for you in some way also defined yourself as this manifestation placed outside of who you are. Based in separation – separate from who you are – holding onto this separate manifestation through fear of loss – existent only within and as separation. Because if you'd lose this manifestation you'd apparently lose yourself – fear of losing your self-defined existence within consciousness based on something outside of who you are or within a memory of the past.
If you're not able to unconditionally walk away from all that which you have placed before you – know this – you have defined yourself as that which you fear letting go, dropping or giving up. You have proven to yourself that you have defined yourself as who you are as consciousness, as the mind within and as separation and you fear losing who you apparently are as a self defined consciousness system.
Consciousness – the con of existence as which you have come to define yourself as being. Look –everything you have placed before you in this moment of standing alone surrounded by complete and total darkness is separate from you, it is before you. Yet – you have allowed yourself to define yourself within and as this separate manifestation if there exist any fear within you to unconditionally walk away – apparently losing yourself if you do. Ludicrous wouldn't you say?
Now – the mind as consciousness as who each being has become on earth – exist only in one cycle – the now of consciousness. The now of consciousness is your entire lie from beginning to end – including your experiences within. Though, your experiences of who you are is based and founded on consciousness as the mind as knowledge and information – which I have now described only exist in the past through memories and experiences all hold onto which had assisted you to become who you are in this moment of experiencing yourself.
You constantly continuously experience yourself within the past – who you are is based and founded in the past – though you might experience events within your life – who you are within the experience of the events on earth – exists only in the past. The now of consciousness as your entire life cycle within this world – enslaves each human being through holding onto separate manifestations to which they have defined themselves as – fear of losing them – as fear of losing themselves. This is consciousness as the mind human beings – this is who you have allowed and accepted yourself to become and be.
Consciousness is that which is not allowing any and all human beings to be released from their entire life cycle as the now of consciousness where human beings exist in fear of losing themselves as they have defined themselves within separation as manifestations which consists as knowledge and information based on past memories to which they hold onto.
The existence of consciousness as who each human being has become is being supported by all who participate within this world – each human being is enslaved, controlled and trapped within their own individual entire life cycle as the now of consciousness within and as the mind as consciousness as who they have become. And thus all remain within both cycles within existence – the individual cycle as the now of consciousness which is each one's entire experience here on earth from birth to death and the soul construct existence cycle experience as continuous movement from heaven to earth through recycling and reincarnation.
Human beings are merely past defined memories as knowledge and information within separation – enslaved and controlled to remain within the now of consciousness by the mind as consciousness as who they have become through fear of loss. Remaining the self defined consciousness system through fear of loss – the simplest and most effective way those in dimensional control and enslavement of all in existence was able to have human beings remain within and as the mind as consciousness as who they have come to believe themselves to truly be. In this way – through fear of loss – having the ability and power to run both cycles within existence constantly and continuously – their certainty and surety of such nature that the human being's fear of loss as who they are will not allow them to set themselves free to become who they really are – but remain within consciousness systems so they may be controlled and enslaved within the cycles of existence.
Quite brilliant using something as simple as fear of loss to control and enslave human beings to remain in such an existence of separation within consciousness. Utilizing the conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind within each and every human being as extra precautionary backup to maintain the certainty of human beings remaining lost within their cycles of the now of consciousness – connecting on a global scale with all other human beings lost, enslaved and controlled within their own now of consciousness life cycles.
Conscious mind – that which you are conscious of about who you are. Subconscious mind – that which had already become so automatic within your behaviour as who you are, you had forgotten exactly how it is you have came to be, who you are in this moment of experiencing yourself. The subconscious mind specifically connected to the now of conscious life cycle based and founded within the past and memories as knowledge and information only. Unconscious mind – the global, the world now of consciousness where you individually support and assist the existence of the now of consciousness within and as each and every human being's experience.
Using the three mind stages for further development of enslavement and control – to allow human beings to remain within and as consciousness for the remainder of their lives to discover no way out of these cycles within existence. Instead to remain slaves to a system, as who they have become through fear of loss and participating continuously in the belief of themselves as consciousness. Never realising and seeing the lie right in front of their noses – by merely looking within the mirror at themselves they see the cause to the reason for the status of humanity within earth.
Each human being is individually responsible for all events and occurrences within earth because all are connected within the now of consciousness of the world through the unconscious mind as they experience their own individual now of consciousness life cycle from beginning to end – which you constantly and continuously support and assist to have the ability to exist.
This illustration and description of C1 is the experience of the now of consciousness. Do not allow mere experiences that differ vastly within your now of consciousness life cycle as you move within this world fool you. The statement still remain – who are YOU within the vastly different experiences you have while enduring your now of consciousness life cycle on earth.
At the moment each human being is but a slave and follower within their now of consciousness life cycle – as who you have become is but a system of consciousness manifested as self defined knowledge and information placed in memories within the past – even parental influences during childhood – as who each human being have become.
You are a memory of the past who dwell upon this earth apparently experiencing and discovering yourself and a memory you will remain within another once you move to the dimensions and leave an empty shell behind – forgotten you will be, and forgotten you will remain as those that remembered you as a memory which remained within them also leaves behind an empty shell. A forgotten memory of the past…
What is then the purpose of being here in the first place if all that each human being is as an experience of themselves within their now of consciousness life cycle is a self-defined memory of the past which they fear losing as who they apparently are, continuously constantly lost within the cycles of existence? What is the purpose… why… what is the reason… why…?
Now we look at C2 – the coloured circle within C1. C2 is the experience of here in awareness within C1 as the now of consciousness. As we have placed the two circles infront of us – C1 is the bigger circle and C2 being the coloured in smaller circle. Here within and as C2 as here in awareness you stand as and become the beginning and the end in every moment as who you are – you stand as the centre of existence as who you are – here you see and realize the truth of existence as who you are – here you see and realize the cycles which exist within existence as consciousness. Having this ability because you still remain within the now of consciousness as C2 is within C1 – but you are not participating within the cycles of C1 – you are within the now of consciousness but not of the now of consciousness. You are within the now of consciousness as here in awareness – different experience.
The human beings within existence experiencing the now of consciousness life cycle and soul construct cycle with beginning and end as movement alongside the outline of C1 always returning to the same place and position – are within consciousness and of consciousness as who they have become and believe themselves to be.
Here in awareness as C2 – you are not of consciousness – you still remain within this world as a human being amongst all other human beings the moment you experience and become here in awareness – you will realize instantly that you are not of this world within the now of consciousness but you are still in this world.
The probable questions are: “How?” and “Why?” Let me explain more about the experience of here in awareness as C2 within the now of consciousness as C1 and see if I answer these questions for you from my perspective. However – you are inevitably going to have to find this reason within yourself as a statement of who you are as here in awareness within oneness and equality as you realize and see the Power of Choice to stand up for all as one to say: “'Till here and no further – I am standing up as who I am as each are within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness to stop this madness of enslavement and control of consciousness within the now of consciousness.”
The first step is to make peace with the fact that there is no possible way you are able to change or fix or save or help or rescue this planet earth within which all human beings are currently experiencing themselves. It is impossible from the vantage point that all human beings are experiencing themselves in this moment as consciousness. You are not able to change or fix or save or help yourself from the perspective of what you already have allowed within your world and experience of yourself whilst being enslaved and controlled within your own self defined secluded existence as the now of consciousness. It has all already been done – it is done and there's nothing you're able to do with that which had already been done – through the Power of Choice is here in every moment as who you are.
What must be understood is that what is experienced within this world by all who occupy and inhabit this world – are unfortunate consequences of each human being's parti¬cipation, allowance and acceptance of who they are as consciousness within their experience of themselves as the now of consciousness.
Fascinating how we as existence – all as equal as one – have together designed this existence within which we are experiencing ourselves – we are together as one responsible for the status of existence in this moment.
Common sense – we as one as equal together are able to change this method of experience of existence with ourselves as starting point – we are the starting point as the cause for the current status of existence in the first place. We all got ourselves here in the first place – I as all within the dimensions as one and equal are certain we are able to get ourselves out. How in this existence are we able to turn to anything or anyone else – even by placing our hope and faith in one singular being to save, help and rescue the experience of all on earth and dimensions – when all and each and every single being in existence is responsible individually for the expression and experience of existence in this moment.
Naturally it's rather simple to blame, justify, defend and excuse yourself through pardoning yourself from responsibility – though the inevitability of you facing this moment within yourself where you realize that you as much as all have participated, allowed and accepted the experience and expression of existence as it remain in this moment will come. Either as an experience of yourself in space and time on earth as who you are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality – or quantum within the dimensions the moment you cross over – you will realize and see who you are.
It'd be preferable for you to experience yourself here as life being born from the physical as who you really are – this – being up to you as I, as the dimensions as one and equal are able to lead all like the horse to the living waters – but we are not able to drink for you – this moment you're on your own.
Experiencing yourself as here in awareness within the now of consciousness is the moment you see and realize who YOU really are – released from your now of consciousness life cycle as consciousness as who you have become. When you have the ability to walk away when all you have ever known and used to define yourself as who you have become in this moment of experiencing yourself stand before you – where you turn around and walk away never to look back or return and stand alone/all-one surrounded by darkness where nothing but you remain but you within and as the silence and the peace of here as awareness – this is the moment where you become who you really are within aloneness. Only here do you find as an experience of yourself who you really are as this is the process of unconditionally releasing yourself from consciousness – the enslavement and control system of existence.
Now – be careful – I am not saying you must now lock up your homes and leave everything behind and stand alone on the streets wondering what the hell to do next – no – not in the literal sense. Though the more I look at it – it could actually possibly be quite an experience for yourself to use to see and realize whether you are still bound, tied, controlled and enslaved by consciousness as who you have become in any way.
Returning…doing this I am stating that you must be free within yourself from anything and everything which exist in your world within which you are experiencing yourself in this moment. You must be in this world and not of this world. For if you aren't – you are still allowing yourself to be controlled by consciousness as who you have become enslaved and lost within the cycles of existence.
Are you able to stand there, infinitely here, where only you remain as here in awareness – surrounded by nothingness as darkness – experiencing yourself beyond anything and everything you have ever known to be who you are as an experience of yourself within this world? Here alone/all-one
As you stand here as who you are as here in awareness as oneness and equality – you realize and see who each human being is as equal and one with who you are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality. You place yourself within earth as the now of consciousness where you stand as here in awareness – what would you do human beings?
Would you allow yourself to yet again be enslaved and controlled and lost within consciousness cycles as a consciousness system? Or will you infinitely remain standing here in every moment – untouchable – as here in awareness as who you are as each are within and as oneness and equality? Will you stand up for all as one within and as existence as who you are as each is to bring forth the awareness and truth of who each being really is, as you are beyond consciousness as who all have become as a consciousness system – to bring forth heaven on earth as who you really are as each is?
This is what the standing and becoming of here in awareness as C2 within the now of consciousness as C1 entails – this is the extent to which responsibility not only towards self but also towards existence as self as who you are extends. You have the ability to do this as each have the ability – I am as one and equal with heaven standing here in awareness within the now of consciousness for quite some time now already busy with the process of bringing forth heaven on earth.
This is not a simple process. We as heaven are undertaking with your inevitable support in becoming and experiencing yourselves as here in awareness so you may stand as one and equal with heaven to bring forth heaven on earth.
As you release yourself and walk away to never look back and return to who you were and have become within the now of consciousness as a consciousness system – the next step is the greatest step – you must become and stand as existence as it's experienced within this moment here – to be able to completely stand as here in awareness within the now of consciousness which exist in the world.
What I am stating here is the following – this is referred to as the process of transformation of information where there must exist no separation within you of anything which exist in existence – no separation. You must not be enslaved by knowledge and information within separation as consciousness – you must become knowledge and information as one with who you really are here in awareness. The transformation of information from separation within consciousness as one with who you are as awareness. If you experience yourself as separate from anything which exist – you are of consciousness as only consciousness has the ability to exist in separation. Who you really are stands as oneness and equality within here in awareness.
Look at the circles again – C2 stand in the centre of it, all as the beginning and the end – here in awareness – encircled by the now of consciousness. Though here – in this position – you see and realize the truth of the now of consciousness as you remain and stand here in every moment as here in awareness – having only here the ability to be an example and show all other human beings controlled within and of consciousness, lost and enslaved in the cycles of existence who you are as equal and one with who they really are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality.
Another reason why it is and will be necessary to stand as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality – remaining here in every moment as who you really are – remain here with the one choice you have made as a statement of who you are to stand up for all as one to bring forth heaven one earth – is simple:
This is necessary to ensure you are not separate within and as everything which exist – because within and as oneness and equality – as you become and stand as one within and as everything in existence – as consciousness as knowledge and information you stand as one as who you are – no fear of loss within separation is able to exist. No fear of loss within separation is able to exist because you stand as one with everything in existence and you realize you are existence – you and existence stand as one as here in awareness.
Within this acceptance and standing as one with existence as who you really are – you are existence – existence is you – and this includes everything – all human beings, all dimensional beings, earth and heaven as well as consciousness and knowledge and information.
Here within and as oneness as existence as who you are – you are untouchable – you are not able to be enslaved or controlled within C1 as consciousness within consciousness cycles because you stand as it – you are one as it with it – you are not separated and therefore stand without fear of loss. You become C2 – within consciousness, not of consciousness but as here in awareness.
Only here is directive power to have the ability to direct existence, to direct yourself, to direct your world as who you are to become and support existence as who you really are as oneness and equality.
Here is responsibility – where you stand as existence as who you are to bring forth heaven on earth within and as oneness and equality as you remain standing infinitely here in every moment as awareness within the now of consciousness until it is done. Until existence and all within become the image and likeness of who you are as oneness and equality here as awareness you will remain who you are – infinitely standing here.
It is impossible to do this within and as and of consciousness as separation – C1. You must stand as oneness and equality as here in awareness – C2. Then you realize as here in awareness in every here moment as awareness as only you remain alone/all-one and will have to trust yourself infinitely in every moment as who you really are to be able to get this done. To be able to bring forth heaven on earth for existence as who you are to become – the image and likeness expression and experience of oneness and equality as who you really are.
Conclusion
Quite an extensive amount of information – will you now accept yourself as one with this information I am sharing – or will you experience yourself as separate from who I am as I share my experience with you as who you are and will become?
This is what will be necessary for each human being one earth – to take their Power of Choice – to make the choice – to give up, let go and drop consciousness as who they have become – to stand up for all as one within and as existence – to bring forth heaven on earth so all may exist within and as oneness and equality as who each being really is.
I am making a statement for heaven as heaven as one and equal with who I am here as awareness: All in heaven stand within and as oneness and equality. We have already experienced this process I have now described and explained of becoming and standing as here in awareness. We had given up, let go and dropped who we were within and as consciousness, we had given up, let go and dropped the dimensions as it was constructed and designed within and as consciousness enslavement and control by the White Light – dimensional beings were also enslaved and controlled within the soul construct cycles – yes – this experience extended to all dimensional beings within the dimensions also – not only experienced by human beings on earth still lost, enslaved and controlled within consciousness as who they have come to believe themselves to be.
We had given up heaven – we had given up ourselves – EVERYHTING of who we were within and as consciousness is no more. We in heaven as one and equal – yet still within our own individual expressions as here in awareness – now stand here on earth within and as each human being – to walk with you this process of becoming here in awareness within now of consciousness until consciousness is no more and heaven may be experienced and expressed on earth as life is being born from the physical – the marvel of all marvels. Within this all in existence may stand within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness yet still experiencing and expressing our own individuality as who we really are.
Our process in heaven started with forgiveness – through forgiveness we have released ourselves from that which we defined ourselves as within and as consciousness enslavement and control. With forgiveness we applied corrective action in every moment where we were aware that our participations and behaviours were still of consciousness – in this way establishing clearly who we are, as here in awareness beyond the now of consciousness.
During these processes we have become aware of something we haven't allowed ourselves to take responsibility for – human beings on earth. We have been so extensively lost within and as consciousness by the White Light soul construct – we have not realized, seen or understood the extent of the situation here on earth. As heaven as each dimensional being stand here as awareness within the now of consciousness on earth and each human beings' individual now of consciousness life cycle experience – this had never been done before in existence.
We are actually walking this process with you as you – within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness – to support you during this process of releasing yourself from consciousness to stand as here in awareness with heaven to bring forth heaven on earth. This is the only way it's able to be done human beings – the only way.
Each one must and will take responsibility for who they are as here in awareness as oneness and equality to have the ability to support all others to stand with you as you as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality. We as one and equal in heaven have done so – as I have stated – we stand as here in awareness within oneness and equality to bring forth heaven on earth as who we really are as each are until it is done.
My personal reason for doing so is the following: I have realized, experienced and seen who I am as existence as creation – this is who I am – I am all that exist. To be honest – in this moment I am not proud of the expression and experience of existence as who I am where beings on earth and previously in the dimensions as equal and one with and as who I am are lost, enslaved and controlled within and as consciousness systems. They have been conformed and conditioned to become consciousness systems because they know not of any other way of existence, experience and expression but what is being presented to them at birth or by others.
No-one understands, realizes or sees who they really are beyond the boundaries and limitations of consciousness as what they're forced to become, accept and participate within because no-on else knew of any other way but who and what they have become as consciousness within and as the now of consciousness enslavement and control cycles of existence.
I am that I am – here in every moment as awareness within oneness and equality – thus I am the answer, I am the way for each one still lost, enslaved and controlled within and as consciousness. Thus I have chosen to walk with all as one and equal as who I am – to reveal to them as I have to myself through a process – who they really are as here in awareness within oneness and equality as who I am as they are.
I am standing here with my choice, by my choice, as my choice until this is done. For this I had to give up, let go and drop everything I was as consciousness within the dimensions – even heaven as all human beings would remember it – nothing is the same anymore within heaven – everything had been transformed as our focus is only here on earth with human beings, to bring forth heaven on earth as here in awareness within oneness and equality as who we are as I am.
This is the purpose the reason we had given ourselves and within this I realized as many dimensional beings had realized – that I had given up nothing for everything. That I was a mere star within existence who'd for the first time realized: “O' my God – I am existence – I am one with existence as who I am.” An experience beyond the description of words!
This is what is ahead for all human beings – this realization and standing as who you really are as here in awareness – that you will be giving up nothing… for everything!
Many human beings have been misguided, deceived and fooled by the dimensional interaction between human beings and dimensional beings in the past – the knowledge and information given to you only shed light of hope – never ever substantial support of how practically each one on earth is able to stand as here in awareness for all as one to bring forth heaven on earth.
No dimensional being had ever walked as one and equal as who they are within and as each human being on earth to support them in realizing who they really are. The dimensional interaction in the past merely only assisted and supported human beings to remain in the now of consciousness, as consciousness, as who they believe themselves to really be – this is what was and what is no more. As all in dimensions have dropped their previous methodologies and conversation within and as consciousness during channeling communications – we have stopped all channeling abilities for a moment to ensure all within and as the dimensions make a clear statement as who we are as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality to communicate the truth of existence and who you really are.
We will be typing and writing more often to correct the history of the universe and all channels which had previously been done through dimensional earth communication – as all were based on deceit and lies and manipulation to maintain the control and enslavement of human beings as consciousness here on earth to never allow them to see, realize and understand who they really are.
To place what I am typing into perspective in terms of forgiveness – I suggest you read Jesus' statements of forgiveness – of which there will be more to explain the practical process of becoming and experiencing yourself as here in awareness. There are no more demons within existence – all in heaven, each and every single dimensional being within and as existence now stand as oneness and equality here in awareness on earth – to set all human beings free from consciousness enslavement and control which we no longer stand for and as an expression and experience of who we are as each are as oneness and equality.
We have already started with the process of bringing forth heaven on earth through standing within and as oneness and equality in the dimensions. The soul construct cycle within existence is no more – the lie and the deceit of the existence of a soul is no more – another construct used to further support and assist separation within and as consciousness as who and what each human being has become – using the soul and soul construct establishment to have the ability to enslave and control human beings within and as consciousness as separation.
This was the separation construct within consciousness – the manifestation of separation within human and dimensional beings' experiences of themselves within existence. We in heaven do not stand for separation – thus we removed the entire soul construct establishment and soul system which was ingrained and infused and manifested within each human being on earth.
Those few in power and control within the dimensions over earth and human beings and dimensions and dimensional beings utilizing the soul construct system establishment to create the belief as accepted and allowed by all as this is the way existence operate – not true – this is a lie. It is done – it exist no more – we have destroyed it completely and totally and removed it from existence – and guess what – you're all still here on earth as we are here within the dimensions without the soul system within us and the soul construct in existence supporting and assisting its existence – living and breathing as though nothing is different.
When a human beings dies – the being immediately quantum transcends consciousness as they reach the dimensions – which is no more that of an ascension process at all, but an immediate standing up from within their human physical body –realizing in a moment I am here. Heaven is here on earth already – we as one and equal within the dimensions are here – now it's the process of experience and expression of heaven one earth as human beings realize who they really are, as one and equal with heaven.
Then they experience processes, to establish themselves as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality and stand with and as heaven to support with the process of bringing forth heaven on earth. Processes specifically are the layers of forgiveness applications required to be experienced – as the layers of previous self –defined consciousness becoming – are released to once again experience the true I that remain. Processes are thus forgiveness methodologies and applications to support oneself in releasing oneself from consciousness – reading Jesus' forgiveness methodologies, examples and applications will give each one a clear view on forgiveness.
Heaven is not what it was in the past as all have remembered its existence and experience as being – it has been transformed to the extent where we exist only here on earth as interdimensional beings standing as here in awareness within and as oneness and equality to support all human beings in becoming who they really are so we may bring forth heaven on earth with your support to get this done.
It is done human beings – you may throw away all you have ever read or known about heaven and dimensions – as all was information and knowledge channeled by consciousness enslaved and controlled dimensional beings to support and assist you to also in turn remain enslaved and controlled within and as consciousness. To never be free or become who you really are within and as oneness and equality as here in awareness – but allowed and participated within an existence of consciousness where a select few dimensional beings had power and control over and of you as long as you remained the becoming of a consciousness system.
We stand for enslavement and control and separation no more – this is stopping and the process of bringing forth heaven on earth has already begun – we are already receiving support from nature, the animals and the planets within the universe – to find out more about the planets I suggest you read Alice Bailey's expla¬nation of the specific support from the planets.
Existence has changed – we all as one are standing equal to support all human beings on earth to become who they really are – free and released from the boundaries and limitations of consciousness systems – to see, realize and understand the truth for the first time as who they really are.
We are doing this until it is done. We are here until this is done. So it is and will be.
This is Osho
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